Alvin, you need to read books also not just Bible (My Past, My Sinful life)

Many people suggested me to read more books, to understand more about doctrines and theologies, so that my understanding about God will increase. Is that so?

Let me tell you my past. I have listened to many doctrines, teachings of men, Since I was a child, I had desire to know about God, deep down in my heart, I wanted to know Him personally. I joined Sunday school, never missed at all, I could remember many verses, etc. The more I grew up, the more I had questions about God while I also developed my logic.

Then I began to feel that I couldn't find any satisfaction by only attending the church. I tell you the truth, I was born again more than 3 times, every time I had retreat program, I must 'give' my life to Jesus. I knew I was a sinner, I wanted to know God, but I can't feel Him. For me, being born again and not born again was the same, I always felt that I need to ask God's forgiveness again and again, because I can't help to stop sinning.

Once in the church, the preacher asked, 'Who among you that believe if we died at that moment, will be in heaven?' Everybody raised their hands, and because of that, I also raised up mine, but deep down in my heart, I believed I was in hell.

I have been baptized with water when I was about 17 years old. I went to cathechism for 6 months, but for me, that looked like just teaching of men, theologies mixed with philosophy and doctrines. My eagerness about God also made me to go from one church to another church, I have been in orthodox church, baptist church, catholic church, I also joined fellowships, just to find God, until I was fed up with God and chose to live my life without something so-called 'God'. Though I believed He exists, but maybe He is not for me. I went into the world to enjoy my life, my mother has given up on me. I was a good boy, my academic was good, my attitude was good, but my spiritual life was dead.

Every Saturday night, I slept late so that on Sunday morning, my parents will find me still sleeping. Even though they tried to wake me up, I always behaved as if I was so tired and deeply slept. But then, when they went to the church, I woke up and usually when everybody went to the church, I played my adult videos collection. I lived in sins .

I kept thinking that God doesn't care about me, why should I care about Him, about sins and hell? Just let it be, I didn't care, hell is ok for me. Nobody can satisfy emptiness in my heart. They can't understand me, I had so many questions about God, about Bible, but nobody can answer me. They just said, God is God, we are only human, we are limited, we can't understand Him, we need to just believe, just follow, just obey are their common answers. Because I can't find the answer from men, I read Christian books and also studied science. For me, science seemed to be more reasonable, and bit by bit, I lost everything about God.

'Christian' books that I read just made me more confused.

• It talked about predestined, which meant I wasn't elected by God, I was made by God to be His object of wrath, to make other people come to Him, but I myself was condemned.
• It talked about One Saved Forever Saved. One reason I fed up with Christianity is that because they believed that no matter how bad their behaviour, Jesus will justify them in the end. They just need to open their mouth and 'believe' in heart that Jesus is Saviour, they will be in heaven. And if they end up in hell, it is God's responsibility. He didn't take care of us. He would be a wicked being if He throw those who 'believe' in Him to hell. Those people made me sick. Their lives was even worse than unbelievers.
• It talked about Purgatory, my good deeds and bad deeds will be weighed down, and I will need some time to be purified before enter heaven. But I don't know how good I must be? And nobody can be sure about it.
• It talked about Law of Moses, Do not touch! Do not taste! Do not handle! It just make me worse. I wonder why believing God seem to be miserable. In heaven, people will always worship God all the day long. If in earth, worshipping God was in vain, how can I survive in heaven? I found no enjoyment in praise and worship Him and because of that, I can't imagine what heaven will look like for me.
• It talked about Love of God, but where is God? I was abandoned by Him, no love at all, If I can't feel His Presence, how can I feel His Love and Mercy?
• The more I read Christian book, the more I believed I wasn't elected and God is a self-righteous Being, crazy-respect Tyrant, He misused His Power. He is not God at all.
• Yes, many doctrines like Calvinism, Judaism, Catholicism almost make me an atheist.

But still, many people tried to convince me that I will be in heaven when I died, even though I personally believe it was not sure. Then my logic started to think, if this guy who sat next to me, who lived a life worse than me was very sure that he will be in heaven, why should I not? I started to create my own imaginary heaven. I tried to be happy, to kill my guilts, I always convince myself that I will be with God in heaven someday.

My friends, hope you didn't misinterprete me, I believed those who spoke like that to me when I was in Indonesia, they didn't have bad intention, they didn't intentionally want to deceive me. It happened because their understand about God was no better than me, even though he was a pastor, preacher, I was not. Both of us were blind, and if blind lead the blind, both will fall into pit.

Then I left Indonesia to pursuit my better future in Germany, without believing God, but still I brought NIV Bible, just in cases I will need it. I thought in this Christian country, I will know God more, but what I felt was even worse. The Christianity is dead, no more fire. I, who refused God was better than most of Germans who didn't believed that there is God.

I became more and more desperate, then I started to open and read my Bible, which I never did when I was in Indonesia. I can't understand my Bible because it seem to me that it has so many contradiction. I was desperate. But then, not so long after that, my classmate came to me, and talked about Jesus. He asked the same question: If I die in the next hour, where will I be? And instead tried to comfort me, he told about heaven and hell, at that time, godly sorrow started to accumulate in my heart. He didn't force me to give my life 'again' to Christ, he just invited me to join his fellowship on the next Sunday. Then at his place, I gave my life to Jesus fully and willingly, no argument to God, I just said to Him, Here I am, do as you will, then, it is not magic, but it is true, I began to feel joy in my heart, my emptiness was filled, I couldn't express it the feeling to you, you need to experience it by yourself. Since that day, I began to see that everything about God seem so real.

God has saved me from my miserable situation. Then I believe more in God when I received Holy Ghost Baptism. Back in my country, Holy Ghost Baptism was taught to happen fully at the same time when we were born again. Yes, for some cases it happen, but most of the case, we need to be sanctified first before Holy Ghost would dwell inside us. How can a sinner who just repent filled with Holy Ghost fully?

During 3.5 years Jesus ministry, He sanctified His disciples, Peter who outspoken, He rebuke, John and James who were self-seeking, wanted to sit next to God, He taught them, Philip who used so much logic, He tested (John 6:6), and Thomas who doubtful, He taught him about faith. In the end, before Jesus was arrested, Jesus said, `You believed at last! (John 16:31) but then they still have to wait for the Holy Spirit to come. They received Holy Ghost Baptism when they waited eagerly on the day of Pentacost.

There was one case where Holy Ghost manifested fully at the same time at born again, on Cornelius. He was righteous man, even before Peter came to him, He need not to be sanctified because he lived righteous, he just need Jesus, that's why even Peter himself was shock. But in many cases, the situations aren't like that, Apollos need to see Paul first before he received Holy Ghost fully, even though he had labored for God before.

I always said fully there, I want to put stress there. It is true that when you are born again, Spirit of God dwell in you, you are already Children of God, you received His Holy Spirit. But it just the beginning, you need to be perfected more in God through sanctification before the Holy Spirit manifest fully inside you.

Maybe you would think I am charismatic. I tell you the truth, I have been in many churches before, and now, I care less about denominations, I just state what written in the Bible, at the moment, I can't speak in tongue, but I desire to have that, I want to be able to speak in that heavenly language. I want to talk with God freely. If I can't have it right now, it doesn't make me less Christian or even worse, lose my salvation, but if I get it, I would rejoice so much. For me, it's not the matter of denomination, but about what Bible says and you can check in your Bible. I talked to you not about doctrines, but about personal experience. I want to share with you so that you can experience it too.

Another teaching who said that being baptism with water, like in Catholic already means salvation, it means we are already baptized in the name of God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit. It look like to me that it is having form of godliness, but denying its power (2 Timothy 3:5)

My friends, don't ask me to read more books, more doctrines I had enough living in lies for more than 23 years of my life. I believed in lies. I believed that I was a genuine born again Christian, which in fact, I was not. I still served 2 Masters, continued sinning, wearing mask in front of all people. I was like whitewashed tomb, which look beautiful on the outside but on the inside are full of dead men's bones and everything unclean. If you judged me only by my apperance, you will be deceived.

John 7:24

Judge not according to the appearance, but judge righteous judgment.

I was even deceived by my own heart, my own mind. I lived in my imaginary heaven, heaven that never exist. Praise God because of His mercy now I can see clearly, how foolish I was.

Jeremiah 17:9

The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?

That kind of book, that kind of teaching will only make people who even don't know about God more confuse. There is no practical in it. I now understand why Jesus always talked in parables, because He taught practical thing not theoretical. And because our eyes were calloused, we will never be able to understand the Gospel.

Your doctrines, teaching are too complicated for my little brain. I want to say sorry first to those who studied about God in the University, got degree in Theology. Though I do believe that God can use many methods to bring us to Him, but for me, because of my experience, reading Bible is practical, not theoretical. You can't grade it into points, into exams. Bible is not textbook, Bible is not philosophy, If you answered only half correct during your exams test which mean you only understand half-truth, you will get C or B, you still passed. But you passed with your half truth, Bible never said about it. Bible said that Gospel we preach is Yes and Amen (2 Cor 1:18). Then you can imagine if you accumulated those half-truth for 4 years until you become saturated in it.

My friends, please imagine when you start to preach to people with these half truths. Or imagine, if this is the kind of person who speak in front of you and preach about Word of God to you every Sunday fellowship. You will only listen to his half-truth. This kind of situation that made Christianity in Germany dead.

My friends, you should know that devil also can use that kind of institution to mislead people. He planted some wrong doctrines, so that you who were simple minded, who just want to start relationship with God, will never realized. Or even though you personally believed that kind of teaching was wrong, but you must answer according to their teaching, otherwise your grade will be so bad, or you could even be dropped out. Then, slowly but sure, you will be brainwashed by that institution. Again, I didn't condemn those who learn theology. But please, always test the spirits, let the Holy Spirit alone who teach you, because the Holy Spirit inside you will teach you personally, you do not need anyone to teach you. Bible explains Bible. You can find your answer in the Bible, and if there are some verse who contradict each other, don't be ignorant, maybe your belief all this time was wrong. God can't contradict Himself. So something wrong must be in your wisdom.

1 John 2:27

The anointing you received from him abides in you, and you do not need anyone to teach you. Instead, because his anointing teaches you about everything and is true and not a lie, abide in him, as he taught you to do

My friends, Actually I like to read christian books. But the books I read now are the books about Men of God, Men who changed the World. About Revival, about Labor for God, and the book I enjoy the most to read is my HOLY BIBLE.

God bless you

Alvin, how can devil make miracles?

Alvin, how can devil do healing, do casting their own friends out? If they are not from God, where can it come from? I have met many people that when he prayed, miracles came, demons casted away. They must have God inside him, they must be saints, must they not, Alvin?

My friends, maybe you live in the secular world, in megapolitan. If you don't believe that demon can 'cast' demon out, go to my country, Indonesia, they even make it as a liveshow on the TV. They 'casted' the devils by devils. They went to the so called haunted house, and did some 'sport' there for 20 minutes, they jump, run, roll, dance, even threw the body down to the floor, looked like they were struggling, but then, at the end of the show the demons were captived inside pots, etc.

Ghost Hunters

What actually happened there? According to one of the famous spritual agent who has converted to Christ, actually, they are not against each other, but cooperate among themselves. They did such a thing just for a show-off. Yes, the demons were 'casted out', but after some time it will return with his friends to his previous place and make more havoc than before. The owner will go to the medium again and again for help until he has no more money.

My friends, if you am practicing this things, please turn back to God and get out from it, otherwise that spiritual agent will drag you here and there, ask you to do this and that, until your last penny. Jesus said, 'Settle matters quickly with your adversary who is taking you to court.'

Matthew 5:26

Truly I tell you, you will not get out of there until you pay back the last penny!”

In my country, this kind of practice is common. I have met many people who went to spiritual medium for healing, deliverance, gain wealth, etc. In the beginning, it really worked, but then, after some times, all gone and become much worse than before. The business was down, the house was under fire, your family member died suddenly, health problem start to arise, accident happened, etc. Whatever you received from the devil will not last forever, and it ask retribution from you.

I have a friend here, who was given a charm by her mother, she put in on her wallet, it looked for that the charm means nothing, but when she decided to know Jesus more, that charm started to react, she started to have nightmares and easily got sick, etc. It happened until she was delivered in the name of Jesus.

Nothing will last forever from the devil, no matter what they called it: healing, deliverance, wealth gaining, good luck, etc. At the end, you will have to pay the price. If you don't have Jesus inside you, your condition will be worse than before.

Matthew 12:43-45

When the unclean spirit is gone out of a man, he walks through dry places, seeking rest, and finds none. Then he said, I will return into my house from where I came out; and when he is come, he finds it empty, swept, and garnished. Then goes he, and takes with himself seven other spirits more wicked than himself, and they enter in and dwell there: and the last state of that man is worse than the first

My friends, don't judge by appearance. Or, maybe I already too late to tell you about this, since your eyes already under their spell. Have you ever met somebody who are under spell? Don't be surprised, if you didn't see as they see. Maybe in your eyes you see snake, but not for them, they see bread so that when somebody tell them that they have something wrong inside them, they will just think that they are the only one who is right, others are crazy, even though it is just based on teaching of men, wisdom of men, tradition of men, not God.

What I want to pass here? I want you to know that devil can do also miracles. You can learn from Exodus 7-8, where Moses changed the water into blood and sent plague of frogs, the Eygptian magicians did the same things. They could do miracles too, my friends. Devil always imitates God's ways.

• When God bring revival, devil also bring false revival,
• When God built His churches, devil also built His satanic, antichrist church.
• When God do healing and deliverance, devil also do false healing and deliverance.
• When God give the real Love and Peace, devil also give false lust and fake peace
• When God has children of God, devil also has children of darkness.
• He copies everything that God does.

Satan is really exist. It is not just about the absence of God, then darkness come. NOPE. Devil is God's enemy, he was in heaven before to serve God but he rebeled.

Isaiah 14:12

How are you fallen from heaven, O Lucifer, son of the morning! how are you cut down to the ground, which did weaken the nations!

Devil can also predict the future and do fortune telling, haven't you read in the Bible where Paul casted away the slave girl who was possessed by it? Many people will start to believe when the people said right about you, even he tell you in full detail, how old are you, what colour do you like, etc. And then, you will be bewitched by them, you are under their captive when you do that.

If you just want to believe after you saw the miracles, I am afraid that you would be deceived by satan because in the last day, antichrist will come and perform great and miraculous signs, even causing fire to come down from heaven to earth in full view of men. He will deceive the inhabitants of the earth. I am really worry about you. We live by faith, my friends, not by sight.

Paul warned us about this, 'Jews demand miraculous signs and Greeks look for wisdom, but we preach Christ crucified: a stumbling block to Jews and foolishness to Gentiles.

If you only depend on your own logic, your own wisdom to start believe in God, if you only depend on your own eyes to start believe in God. I am 100% sure, you will be falling away. Before the rapture, the situation will start to accumulate until it almost reach the peak, Jesus will appear in the cloud to take His bride up, but I can tell, before that happen, your patient endurance and faithfulness will be tested through persecution. Hope your faith is growing healthy for Jesus is coming soon. God bless you, my friends.

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Alvin do you know how many people don't know Jesus? Will God send all of them to hell?

My, friends, the world population is estimated around 6.6 billions people. Catholic is around 1.3 billion people, Christian 800 million, Islam is 1.5 billion, Budha around 400 million, Hindu around 900 million, and atheist around 1.1 billion, and the rest are traditional religions.

http://www.adherents.com/Religions_By_Adherents.html.

You won't think that those 2.1 billions Catholic/Christian, all of them are genuine born again Christian, right? And I believe that you will agree with me that other religions can't be in heaven because Jesus is the only way to God the Father. In other word, all religions mean no salvation. What count is, are we acknowledged by God or not. So, can you imagine how many people will be saved?

The same question raised by Jesus' disciples 'Lord, are there few that be saved?' And He said to them, 'Strive to enter in at the strait gate: for many, I say to you, will seek to enter in, and shall not be able' (Luke 13:23-24).

Many will seek but not be able to enter. Why?

I don't know how to answer that. Jesus said, I am the gate. If anyone enters through me, he will be saved. He will come in and go out and find pasture (John 10:9). We just need to enter that Gate, my friends. Why it is so difficult? Why do you believe in religions that force you to do this and not do that. Do not handle! Do not taste! Do not touch! Or celebrate this day, that day. These are all destined to perish with use, because they are based on human commands and teaching (Colossians 2:21-22).

You just need Jesus to be saved, as simple as that. Tell Him that you can't help yourself. You need Him, you need His Spirit inside you, to cleanse all your sins, etc. And He will come into your life. He will change your nature, you will be a new creature. You will struggle no more with your sins since you have Spirit of God inside you. The spirit is indeed willing, but the flesh is weak (Matthew 26:41). Your Spirit is greater than your flesh. You will be able to overcome all the temptation, and when you fall into temptation, you have your advocate with the Father, who speaks to Him for us. You are His Child, He will never forsake you.

But don't interprete wrong, if you still can't stop sinning, you still under your sinful nature, you are not Children of God yet, because those who are still continue sinning is children of darkness. If you are Children of God, please, make sure that there is regeneration in your life, your lifesyle change to the righteousness, and you are able to stop sinning.

Living Christian life is enjoyable. You don't need to worry about anything, you can depend all your lifetime to God only, He will help you, you just need to follow Him and obey what He command you. You will find that His ways are the best ways you can ever experience. Living with God is the best thing in the world. I love God, I love Jesus more than anything.

But, don't be surpised if you are persecuted and nobody can understand you. It happened because we are already called out of the world, If you belonged to the world, the world would love you as its own. But because you do not belong to the world and God has chosen you out of it, the world hates you.

I really wonder, how can the people reject this great Gift from God? It is free of charge. And to those who reject Him, what should I tell you? I have told you about God's Judgment, I have told you about God's Love, but still, you reject Him. Why your heart is so hard? To those who still have hard heart, please use this moment wisely.

My friends, God is Love, and because He so loved the world, He gave his only begotten Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. But He is also Just. He must stand in His Word that He already spoken since the beginning of times. He honor His Word more than His name. Even if only 8 people saved and other perished like in Noah's time, or less than 10 people saved and other perished like in Sodom and Gomorrah's sulfur rain, or only 7000 people saved when Israel was destroyed by Babylon, He will still send His Judgment to the wicked. He didn't spare angels when they sinned, He didn't spare Israel, the natural branches, He even didn't spare his own Son but gave Him up for all of us.

Romans 8:32

The one who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for all of us—surely he will give us all things along with him, won't he?

Romans 11:21

For if God did not spare the natural branches, he certainly will not spare you either.

2 Peter 2:4-7

For if God did not spare angels when they sinned, but threw them into hell and committed them to chains of deepest darkness to be kept for judgment; and if he did not spare the ancient world but protected Noah, a preacher of righteousness, and seven others when he brought the flood on the world of ungodly people; and if he condemned the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah and destroyed them by burning them to ashes, making them an example to ungodly people of what is going to happen to them; and if he rescued Lot, a righteous man who was greatly distressed by the immoral conduct of lawless people

Can you imagine that number? So small compared to the total population at that time. And in the last days only 144000 from the Jews are chosen, but Israel has now more than 6 million as population. How about us the Gentiles? My friends, today is still our times, the Gentiles, we need to take part in this salvation. Because the time for the Gentiles almost up. God make us His Children to make Israelites envy and come back to Him. When you see that many Israel have begun to worship Jesus, you should know that their hardening time will end soon, which mean the times for the Gentiles will also end up soon.

Romans 11:25

For I do not want you to be ignorant of this secret, brothers, so that you will not claim to be wiser than you are. A partial hardening has come on Israel until the full number of the Gentiles has come in.

You know what? Because God is Love but He is also Just and His Word must stand. God himself died for His Word. He sacrified Himself to save us, His own creations. Who are we, my friends, compare to angels, to sun, planets, stars, moons, etc. We are so tiny, but He sees us, He care about us. That is God's love. You will never understand how much God love you. If you really understand His love, you will never make Him sad any longer, and you will be willing to be used by Him to tell other people about His love, about His Gospel of Peace. You will never ashame of Him.

Paul said, 'Woe to me, if I preach not the Gospel! (1 Corinthians 9:16). Charles Finney said, 'If I wasn't kicked out of the town, I must haven't preached.' John Knox said, 'Give me Scotland or I die.' They felt God's Love and God's Judgment is real. God loves people, but He don't have anybody who are willing to preach the Gospel. He is looking for people to be His vessel. He needs somebody to tell people about Him, so that they will not experience His Judgment but His Love.

Isaiah 6:8

Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send, and who will go for us? Then said I, Here am I; send me.

There are so many harvest around us. God's Love is so wonderful. He said, For whoever shall call on the name of the Lord shall be saved. As simple as that, just need a simple mind, humble heart, and God will show Himself to you, you will be His child. You don't need to fast for the whole month, pray more than 3 times a day, worship God in vain, go to the Holy City, etc. This is the Gospel of Peace, why are you ashamed of it?

Many people don't know about it. Do you want to go to heaven alone? Don't you want to make your God more exalted? If you can bring one soul for Him, the host of heavens will hold a party, think about if you can bring thousands of souls, real genuine born again. If you are genuine born again, you will not flock to the church because you want miracles, want healing, want deliverance, you go to church because you love God, you want to have fellowship with Him and other believers, you want to listen to His Word. We love Him because He first love us (1 John 4:19). God loves us so much, we should be in hell because of our sins, but we are justified by faith. But, you need to show you faith to people around you with your works. Works alone can't save you, faith alone without deeds is dead. Faith showed by works = salvation.

James 2:18

Yes, a man may say, You have faith, and I have works: show me your faith without your works, and I will show you my faith by my works.

You need to live a God-pleasing life if you want to be known by God. Because not everyone who keeps saying to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will get into the kingdom of heaven, but only the person who keeps doing the will of my Father in heaven (Matthew 7:21). Please, my friends, awake from your imaginary heaven, come to Jesus and totally surrender unto Him, He will save you, because you are loved by God.

God love those who are humble and simple minded, like those children. Who believe and strongly depend on Him. Can you do that? Don't you know that God first loved you. Can you love Him as He loved you?

1 John 4:19

We love him, because he first loved us.

And if you have received peace of God in you, please share it with other people since freely get, freely give. You don't want to go to heaven alone, right? See people around you, many of them even don't know anything about Jesus, they need somebody come and preach to them. This is the Gospel of Peace, that you need not to be ashamed of.

Romans 10:14-17

How, then, can people call on someone they have not believed? And how can they believe in someone they have not heard about? And how can they hear without someone preaching? And how can they preach unless they are sent? As it is written,“How beautiful are the feet of those who bring the good news!” But not everyone has obeyed the gospel. For Isaiah asks, 'Lord, who has believed our message?” Consequently, faith comes from listening, and listening comes through the word of Christ.

Alvin, how about those who bear a good fruit, which tree whey are?

My friends, this is the common question asked by those who believe that works can do salvation. They thought that they are good enough to be in heaven, because their fruits, their works, their deeds are much better than the others.

The same question also raised by those who believe that they are sinners and don't want to repent, they will justify themselves by asking, 'Alvin, we are human being, we can't be perfect. Yes, I must bear good fruits, but it is quite difficult for me, since my partner in sins really adorable, I don't want to lose her. Or cheating others is my jobs, if I didn't do that, nobody will buy my goods. The tree can't bear fruits which all are good, can it? Maybe in some branches I am lack something, but in another one, I bear very good ones. I can't stop cheating, but I didn't practice immorality, stealing, killing, etc. I bear good fruits, and if I can bear good fruits, that means I come from the good tree. If I come from the good tree, I must have Jesus inside me, and because of that, heaven is for me.

Nice try, my friends. Your reasoning is so good. But, you forget one think. You forget who enable you to bear the fruits?

John 15:1-3

I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you.

Jesus is the vine and we are the branches. It depend on Him which branch that He will cut off. You said right, my friends. Those who bear no fruit, can't be from God. We both agree that they will be thrown into the fire and burned. But, how about those who bear good fruit?

John 15:4-5

Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. "I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.

Jesus said that we can't bear fruit, unless we remain in Him. So, if you keep saying that those who never believe in Jesus can bear a good fruits, that's your own thought. You judge by your own wisdom. You always said to me, 'Alvin, who are you to judge people?` Let me ask you now, 'Are you not judging people by saying they have good or bad fruits?

Something wrong with your interpretation. Who said that we can't judge? Jesus said that? Yes, Alvin, Jesus said that

Matthew 7:1

Stop judging, so that you won't be judged

My friends, please. If you read the Bible, please read it as a whole, not just take piece by piece. Ask God what does it mean. Just use your imagination, if Jesus said that nobody can judge the people, do you believe that our society will look like today? NOPE. Everybody will do what they like, nobody judged and condemned them. And all the Judges who work in the court must be all in hell, because they are against the Bible (in your interpretation). I can imagine if people can't judge others, there will be no court, no prison, no police, and no good people live, because all of them will transform into wicked being, that's human nature. When the rules stop speaking, the people start sinning.

What Jesus wants from you is to stop judging by apperances, but judge with righteous judgment (John 7:24).

If you see people only by their fruits which can be seen by your eyes, you will see that these people are good because they donate much money to the orphanages, they adopt many children, they are set good examples for other. They always talk about love and peace, even gather with the youth and old from all over the countries. You have already judged by apperance. Maybe you don't know where the money come from, maybe they do money laundry in that orphanages, or maybe they adopted children because they are phedophile, like Michael Jackson. Stop judging by appearance, my friends, but with Bible.

John 15:6-8

If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.

Many of muslims, hindus, budhist, etc are good people. But can we really say that they are Jesus' disciples just because they do good? Can we say that when they remain in their belief till the end, they will be in heaven? They are not attached to the vine, to Jesus. And for those who didn't attach themselves to Jesus, will be thrown to the fire.

Yes, Alvin. But God won't be like that. He is full of compassion and love. He loves them more than you love them.

It is true, God loves them more than me. That's why He does so many things, He guide them and try to restore them. He bring them to meet with His children, to make them know that God wants them to believe in Jesus only, not doing the traditions of men or teaching of men any longer, but doing God's will. Today is your day of salvation, there is no coincidence with God, He is the best Mastermind, He plans for everything happened in this world, all things are under His control. He is God, my friends, not a man.

Going to heaven is not about works, not about how many good deeds and bad deeds you do. It is not the one who know God that will be saved, — or rather are known by God (Galatians 4:9).

Matthew 7:21-22

Not everyone who keeps saying to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will get into the kingdom of heaven, but only the person who keeps doing the will of my Father in heaven. Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, we prophesied in your name, drove out demons in your name, and performed many miracles in your name, didn't we?

1 Corinthians 8:3

But the man who loves God is known by God.

If you want to be known by God, you must love Him, you must keep doing the will of your Father in heaven. You can't know the Father's will if you are not His children. You can't be His children if you aren't born again. You can't be born again, if you never repent and believe in Jesus by faith.

Salvation, being in heaven is about being known by God or not. Is our name being written in the Book of Life or not. It is not about how much good deeds you need to achieve, you don't know the passing grade for that. We are justified by faith through the dead of Jesus on the cross, He paid the price for us. For the wages of sins is death. but since He was resurrected from the dead, that means He has overcome the death. We are alive in Him, the old things are passed away, all things are become new. We are new creatures.

2 Corinthians 5:17

Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

Please answer my questions to check yourself:

• Is Spirit of God dwelling inside you?
• Does your nature change?
• Do you struggle not to sin?
• Have you experienced the real peace?
• Can people see the differences in you between the past and the present?
• Do you have testimonies about your born again? You should have because it happened instantenously and with great conviction.
• Do your christian life getting sweeter than before?
• Who is Jesus for you? Only Son of Man and Son of God as your church teach, who died on the cross 2000 years ago?

My friends, my intention from the beginning is to guide you to receive the same experience like mine, since this experience is necessary for you to be saved. Peace of God. You need it, my friends, especially since we are on the Last Days, the days are evil. And there will be a great test for our faithfulness and patient endurance, we will experience the persecutions. Can't you feel that?

Those who are in Indonesia, how long do you think our country can hold on? People are getting poorer and poorer, the living cost is higher and higher. They want to eat but they can't, their children need to pay the tuition fee, but they can't help it. They will look at the riches, and think 'how can they still enjoy in this situation, but we, our lives are on the lines'. You should aware that Mei 98 could happen anytime, and we, Christian will suffer most, and that's just the beginning, my friends. No place in this world that are really saved. Repent and ask God's forgiveness. Make your faith grow healtily so that you will endure when persecution comes.

Jesus is the Vine, He has right to cut every branch that can't bear fruits. And how can you say that you are a good fruit, if you are not stick to the vine? You can't do nothing without Jesus, my friends. All of your good deeds are just to please yourself. You go fast for the whole month, but everybody knows that you are fast, because it is month of fasting, Jesus said that you already received your rewards. You help people, but the TV Program is always try to shoot you, every visit to countries, you always gain much attention. People can only see your wide phylacteries and long garments.

Is that a good fruit? If you want to do something good, do it in secret, And your Father who sees in secret will reward you.

God bless you

Alvin, Jesus teach us love not hatred

My friends, what do you see from me? Do you see hatred, anger inside me toward you? Do you feel that as if I treated you as my enemies? Do I still lack of self-control and humility? If you still thinking like that, please tell me how should I behave? I want to know why can you have that kind of impression, I wish that I could be there with you to show you who I really am.

Can't you see something good inside me? My friends, because I really love you, I spend time writing these articles. I tried in many ways to convince you, I become a fool, become a scholar, become a Bible student just for you. I am a slave for everyone, to win as many as posible. I do all this for the sake of the gospel.

Actually, I already had the promise of God for my heaven, I am convinced for that. If I want to be selfish, why should I care about you, or even be mocked, rejected, persecuted by your words? Why should I, my friends? There is no advantage for me to write like this. Do I ask money from you? Do I boast about myself? Do I look like to you that I am looking for fame, for attention? I am not the lonely boy, that need people's attention. I am busy with my activities as well. But still, I can't help it, I can't stop keep silent. God gave great burden in my heart, that I need to testify about Him to everybody.

My friends, I really care about your eternity. I want to see you in heaven. If I love the people who loved me only. That's not love, that is trade off, since even the tax collector does that. Greater love has no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends (John 15:13). Though I not laying down my life for you, but I do love you with God's love, I ready to sacrifice my time to deal with your questions, your comments in meekness and patience.

Some of you even mock me, many of my friends deserted me. If you followed my friends replies. You will find I have friends who publicly acknowledge me as their EX-friends. It is because of this Gospel. You who read my articles can judge by yourself, am I talking based on my own wisdom, my own understanding, or based on the wisdom that God gave me? I am lying not here, people really hate me, mock me, desert me. I am not trying to be boastful about my problem, not at all. My friends, if I preached the gospel based on my own, and made many people deserted me, I am the most miserable people in this planet. I am looking for trouble for myself. But do I really talk based on my own?

I never see you as my enemies, my enemies is the deceptive spirit who captived you. I will hit hard at those evil spirits every time they come and encounter my articles. If you now start being unsecure with your faith, your belief, I rejoice in my heart, because I have bit by bit scattered your house that was built on the sand. I want to help you, to give you guidance to build your house on the solid Rock, Jesus Christ, so that you will find rest. Nobody can shake you, since you laid on the solid Rock, my Refuge.

My friends, I could simply eat and drink, listen to some preachers, reading my Bible, live my prayful life, stay away from sins, studying my Chemical Engineering, looking for job here in Germany with 2000€ as salary per month. And by keeping my faith grow healthily, I am already in heaven, but God gave me burden in my heart. I try to resist it, but it just getting bigger and bigger till I can't hold it anymore.

I know that God is preparing me intensively through this MP to make me ready for my real battle when I come back to my beloved country, Indonesia. I learned a lot during these past 3 months join this MP. I was born again 1 year 3 month ago, but God helps me a lot, because I am always dealing with all of you, I am preparing myself as well. My sword of word of God is getting sharper and sharper, my shield of faith is getting thicker and thicker. No arrows from enemies can shoot me down.

My friends, I am not just learning what Jesus taught about love, I am practicing it, I am doing it to you right now, whether you can see or not. Honestly, in the past, I was afraid of dying, persecution, but now I am not afraid of anything. God is with me, who can stand before me? Even if I need to die young, it would be better for me, since I will meet my Saviour. Though, If I could ask God, I wish I don't fall asleep soon, because I haven't labored much for Him. I don't want to see Him empty handed. I want to bring souls as many as I could for Him.

I have plead with God like Paul did. He has seen the third heaven. I am also experience deep conviction that I will be in heaven when I am felt asleep. But as God gave Paul the thorn in flesh, God also gave me thorn in my flesh, He gave me great burden for lost souls. I said to Him, 'God, I came to Germany for my career, for my comfortable living in the future, I wanted to be rich, I don't want to be preacher, pastor, or anything related to the Gospel. Please remove the burden within my heart, God.

He said the same thing to me as He said to Paul, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' God is strenghtening me with new spirit every morning. I am very sure that God gave my family problem for my sake, to increase my faith in Him, to depend only on Him. I am very grateful for that. Because of that problem, I getting stronger and stronger in the Lord.

Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. (2 Corinthians 12:9-10). Because of these things, I could feel that Bible become more real and real for me. It look like that I am practicing it in my daily life. I really want to be like Paul, labored so much for God. I am not looking for crowns in heaven, I am looking how to please my God, who love me so much and even died on the cross for my sake.

Jesus is saviour of the world, my friends. Repent and ask his forgiveness. He loves you as He loves me. God bless you

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Proving the Bible The Giants

Genesis 6:4

There were giants in the earth in those days; and also after that, when the sons of God came in unto the daughters of men, and they bare children to them, the same became mighty men which were of old, men of renown.

A. Present day modern man which averages about 6-feet tall + or - several inches or more.

B. 15-foot human skeleton found in southeast Turkey in late 1950's in the Euphrates valley during road construction. Many tombs containing giants were uncovered here. This pertains to the picture of the giant human femur and myself above.

C. Maximinus Thrax Ceaser of Rome 235-238 A.D. This was an 8' 6" skeleton.

D. Goliath was about 9 feet + or - a few inches. I Samuel 17:4 late 11th century.

E. King Og spoken of in Deuteronomy 3:11 whose iron bedstead was approximately 14-feet by 6-feet wide. King Og was at least 12-feet tall, yet some claim up to 18.

F. A 19'6" human skeleton found in 1577 A.D. under an overturned oak tree in the Canton of Lucerne.

G. 23-foot tall skeleton found in 1456 A.D. beside a river in Valence, France.H. A 25' 6 " skeleton found in 1613 A.D. near the castle of Chaumont in France. This was claimed to be a nearly complete find.

I. Almost beyond comprehension or believability was the find of the two separate 36-foot human remains uncovered by Carthaginians somewhere between 200-600 B.C.

Read this before you blasphemy against the Holy Spirit

taken from forwarded email in my inbox

Did you know all of these facts? Death is certain but the Bible speaks about untimely death. Make a personal reflection about this. Very interesting, read until the end.

It is written in the Bible

Galatians 6:7

'Be not deceived; God is not mocked: For whatsoever a man sow, that shall he also reap.

Here are some men and women who mocked God:

John Lennon (Singer): Some years before, during his interview with an American Magazine, he said: 'Christianity will end, it will disappear. I do not have to argue about that. I am certain. Jesus was ok, but his subjects were too simple, today we are more famous than Him' (1966). Lennon, after saying that the Beatles were more famous than Jesus Christ, was shot six times.

Tancredo Neves (President of Brazil ): During the Presidential campaign, he said if he got 500,000 votes from his party, not even God would remove him from Presidency. Sure he got the votes, but he got sick a day before being made President, then he died.

Cazuza (Bi-sexual Brazilian composer, singer and poet): During A show in Canecio (Rio de Janeiro), while smoking his cigarette, he puffed out some smoke into the air and said:'God, that's for you.' He died at the age of 32 of Lung Cancer in a horrible manner.

The man who built the Titanic after the construction of Titanic, a reporter asked him how safe the Titanic would be. With an ironic tone he said: 'Not even God can sink it!' The result: I think you all know what happened to the Titanic.

Marilyn Monroe (Actress). She was visited by Billy Graham during a presentation of a show. He said the Spirit of God had sent him to preach to her. After hearing what the Preacher had to say, she said: 'I don't need your Jesus'. A week later, she was found dead in her apartment

Bon Scott (Singer). The ex-vocalist of the AC/DC. On one of his 1979 songs he sang: 'Don't stop me; I'm going down all the way, down the highway to hell'. On the 19th of February 1980, Bon Scott was found dead, he had been choked by his own vomit.

Campinas (In 2005) In Campinas, Brazil a group of friends, drunk, went to pick up a friend. The mother accompanied her to the car and was so worried about the drunkenness of her friends and she said to the daughter holding her hand, who was already seated in the car: 'My daughter, go with God and may He protect you.' She responded: 'Only if He (God) travels in the trunk, cause inside here, it's already full.' Hours later, news came by that they had been involved in a fatal accident, everyone had died, the car could not be recognized what type of car it had been, but surprisingly, the trunk was intact. The police said there was no way the trunk could have remained intact. To their surprise, inside the trunk was a crate of eggs, none was broken.

Christine Hewitt (Jamaican Journalist and entertainer) said the Bible (Word of God) was the worst book ever written. In June 2006 she was found burnt beyond recognition in her motor vehicle.

Many more important people have forgotten that there is no other name that was given so much authority as the name of Jesus. Many have died, but only Jesus died and rose again, and He is still alive.

Alvin, Jesus teach us peace not division

My friends, can I ask you something? Has Pharisees, Scribes and Judaism never felt offended by Jesus and His disciples? Did Jesus bring peace to them?

I don't think so. Because of Jesus' and His disciples' teaching, they felt offended, they stirred up persecution and wanted to kill him (Matthew 26:1-5, Acts 13:50). You know, in Paul's times, he went to the synagogues (Jewish place of worship and religious teaching) to preach the Gospel that really against Judaism so much. He did this continuously in every place he visited. Until one day, more than 40 men made oath not to eat or drink until they had killed Paul (Acts 23:12-13). Until the the Roman commander asked him, 'Aren't you the Egyptian who started a revolt and led 4000 terrorists out into the desert some time ago?' They wanted to kill Paul, they called him terrorist, revolt maker, etc.

Did Paul do right or not? Was he not a hypocrite, liar? In his letters, he always talked about Peace and Love but he was against Judaism and created havoc and riots everywhere. Where was his love and peace?

My friends, I talk to you now who always talked about PEACE and LOVE, can you answer me. Is Paul a hypocrite, liar? Is Jesus a hypocrite, liar? Jesus and Paul did not do anything wrong, they just preached the Gospel. But why the people felt offended? Is there any cause for that?

John 15:25

But this comes to pass, that the word might be fulfilled that is written in their law, They hated me without a cause.

My friends, what I am doing now is the same like that. I just follow what my Master, Jesus Christ and His servant, Paul, did. I just want to preach the Gospel to you. Why you cursed me, mocked me, persecuted me with your words. I always used my Bible as my arguments, not teaching of men or church's doctrines. Why do you call me hypocrite? Why, my friends?

Jesus came to this world not to bring peace as you thought, but sword. Jesus came to bring division between children of God and children of darkness, between sincere people and evil people, between sheep and goats, between good seeds and weeds.

Matthew 10:34

Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword.

The reason the Pharisee, Scribe, Jews, and also Gentiles hate Jesus and his disciples because of the Word of God that Jesus gave us.

John 17:14

I have given them your word, and the world has hated them, for they do not belong to the world, just as I do not belong to the world.

The Pharisee, Scribe, Jews, or even you, now have conviction about your sinful life, you reacted to the person who bring the Light to you, you don't want them to expose your bad deeds. You even want to kill that Light, because it only disturb you, bring no good, just judgment about your evil deeds. Don't worry, my friends. God is patient with you, He will wait until you said to him, 'It is enough, I don't want to hear about God any longer, it only bring condemnation to my soul.' At that time, God will send you strong delusion so that you will believe in lies and waiting for your judgment day. No chance to be saved. God will ask the people who keep praying for you to stop pray, He will help you by hardening your heart more. Believe me, there will be a time like that for you if you keep rejecting the Light.

But to those who are sincere, want to know the Word of God, to understand who God is, they will see the Truth. God will be real for them. So, I hope you are wise, my friends. When there are so many conviction about your wrongdoing, I hope you didn't react defensively, but you try to open your heart to God, ask His forgiveness through repentance toward God and faith toward Lord Jesus Christ.

John 3:19-21

This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God."

Because of this Gospel, there will be no peace between believers and unbelievers, between Children of Light and children of darkness. They will try to kill the Children of Light so that nobody will keep disturbing them anymore. It is not from believers the riots come, but from them. Paul said to believer, 'If possible, so far as it depends on you, live in peace with all people' (Romans 12:18).

It would be very good if we can live peacefully with all people, but that's not the case for most of the times. People will start stirring up riots to persecute us. We have to keep being peaceful to them, not harming them and trying to be blameless, like Jesus. You know what, even though many Jews felt offended by Jesus, they couldn't find any false evidence to accuse Him.

Yes, Alvin, but God always teach about Peace, Jesus himself said 'Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God (Matthew 5:9). What is this peace then if He is not talk about peace of the world?

Yes, Jesus really brought us peace, but this peace is different with the peace that you think. Jesus bring Peace of God, peace between God and men. This peace is only from God, can't be obtained by human effort.

John 14:27-28

Peace I leave with you, my peace I give to you: not as the world gives, give I to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. You have heard how I said to you, I go away, and come again to you. If you loved me, you would rejoice, because I said, I go to the Father: for my Father is greater than I

We can't find peace from this world, no matter how you tried. You will never understand this peace unless you experience it by yourself.

• If you have experienced this real peace, believe me, you are longing to be in heaven as soon as possible, like Paul, for him to die is gain, and to live is Christ.
• If you have experienced this real peace, you will understand why Peter, John, and James asked Jesus to build 3 tents and said, 'Rabbi, it is good for us to be here.'
• And this Peace of God is your assurance that all of your sins are forgiven, you are justified by God, and heaven is for you.
• This peace is not just feeling, but it happened with deep conviction in your heart, it is personal. I experienced it when I was genuinely born again (Honestly speaking, I have been 'born again' for more than 3 times. But just inviting Jesus as Saviour, not King). I wanted to be saved, but I didn't want to be subjected to God. I wanted to be king of myself, that's why I didn't get this experience.

God only show this to those who humble and ask God's forgiveness for all of their sins, totally surrender to God, and invite Jesus to be Saviour and King of their life.

James 4:10

Humble yourselves before the Lord, and He will exalt you.

My friends, I am not talking about teaching or doctrines here. I am talking about my experience and other's who are genuine born again. Gospel is practical, not doctrinal, not sound of teaching. This message is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to those who are being saved it is the power of God. You need to experience this, my friends. I would like to encourage you to see the video http://cathecistsofgrace.multiply.com/video/item/6/Converting_to_Christ. This is exactly what peace I am talking about.

I will tell you what peace of God I have experienced. This peace is the real peace, peace in your heart. All your guilts, burdens, emptiness, sinful behaviours, all the rebelation against God were taken away, were washed away by Jesus' blood. Your wrongdoing, everything was forgiven, you are new creature. You will suddenly feel this peace. You will stop being condemned by your own heart and you also have the promise of heaven. This is peace of God. Don't call yourself born-again Christian unless you had this experience. I believe many of you don't understand what I said or maybe angry again with me. But, this is real, I have been in your position for 23 years, I also was angry when people told me that I wasn't real born again. But I really thank to that person, because of him, now I can experience my true peace with God.

My friends, if you have experienced this great conviction, please read the Bible more, since there is always possibility for you to turn back to your past again, to those weak and miserable principles again (Galatians 4:9), because devil will try to win you back through false teachings, false prophets, false visions, false experiences, etc. Being born again is just a new beginning of your Spiritual journey, you must run in such a way that you may be victorious. You need to grow higher and higher in the Lord.

You are now jailbreaker, you were prisoners of Devil, but Jesus has set you free, you are now God's children. Will devil care about those people who are perishing? No, they already under his captivity, or even more, they are willingful to be under the Devil. What Satan tried so hard is to win your soul back. You need to be careful. Don't easily listen and believe every teaching that come to you. Always test the spirits by asking God, 'Is what this man saying is true or not?'

1 Peter 5:8

Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.

God bless you

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