Our condition on 24 May 2008

Indonesian version: http://alvinsu.multiply.com/journal/item/104

My family condition (24 Mei 2008) when we are forced to move out from our own house, that was with us for 20 years.

New home (living room)

New Home, Living room + ...

Our own house, need to be emptied

My dog, he has to be separated since the owner of our rent house is strong moslem. He doesn't allow any dog in his house.

No dogs allowed!

Why I need to move out

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God will surely do something. In Jesus' name. Amen

Letter to my Family (English Version)

written in 19 May 2008

Indonesian version: http://alvinsu.multiply.com/journal/item/78

Dad, I am so sorry because I have behaved like those people who mocked you. I never tried to put myself in your position, just start to accuse you. I behaved as if I am not your own son, I am so sorry, dad. I know that you are not a careless person and always think many steps further, it can be easily seen while we were playing chess together. For all of my life, I never defeated you. I should know that you would never without reason making any decision, especially your ages are more than twice of mine.

Two days ago, I learned from these fishes on the dish. These fishes were bent not because they want to be like that. It is because the circumstances force them to be like that. I know that every decision you made, you never think selfishly, you even ready to sacrifice your own life for us, for mom, alvin, cindy, jeffry, and adrian. You don't want us to sleep in the street, lack of food, or any other things. That's the reason why you make such a difficult decision. I know that in your table already laid many wise options, A, B, C, D, and E. But because of the circumstance, the only option left just E, and you must take it. But, then, I put myself like people who said, 'I know you are great man, I know you can make it, my friend.' when you are success and said, 'See, now you learn by yourself, I have told you before. You are too careless, I will never help you anymore, scum of the earth!' when you are failed. Dad, I am so sorry for my behaviour, I will never do that again.

I am just a young man, who need your guidance. Dad, teach me more, your white hairs in your head show how many wisdom you have. I want to learn more from you, my father. You need to be strong. Dad, no matter what the people said about you. Here I am, Alvin, your son, I will always stand behind you, you have me as your support and if you think it is too much for you alone, let me help you, shared your burden to me. I am not a teenager anymore. I am a man already, my father. I want to learn more from you. Dad, you are the greatest man in the world for me. You need to stay healthy physically and strong in the Lord. Give me chance to make you happy. I owed so much to you. Daddy, don't be afraid, I know for sure that God will bless your hand, whatever you do, will grow multiply. Keep close to God, my Prayer Warrior.

Mom, thank you for being strong, and not angry any longer to Daddy, not leaving him alone. For me, I choose to lost any other things that I have, rather than see both of us separated, or one of you left the world so soon. It would be much better for me, that my lifetime was cut half to see you always together, in unity of marriage that God has brought you together. Mom, God will surely strengthen your relationship with Dad, with your children within our family. No other power can separate us. Mom, don't discourage about our home. I know at this time you are so sad about it, I am too. That house left so many memories in my heart. But mom, don't worry, these things are just in short term, it just a time where God wants to discipline us, to make us strong in the Lord and in our relationship among our family member. That's house will be come back to us, even we would get multiple blessing that we have had before.

Mom, keep strong in the Lord, He has listened to our prayers, our cries. He is not God who is late in giving answers. His time is perfect. He gives everything perfect for those who rely on Him. Just wait and see, in short time, God will finish His works in our family. You would really think that we are just like actors and actresses who played drama, everything will look so wonderful and amazing. It will happen soon. Stop crying, mom. Just believe, our God is Living God. He will never give stones to those who asked for bread, He will never give us snake to those who asked for fishes, He will never give us scorpion to those who asked for eggs. He is compassionate God.

Mom, God has put something in your mind to help our family while Dad still looking for work. Don't worry to do that, though many people would discourage you and say it is impossible, keep doing it, my mother. Yes, for them it is impossible, only for you, God gives this ability, because God is with you, He will make you prosper. Be a wise woman in the Lord, my mother. Though for the first time, everything would seem so difficult, keep continuing in it. Be faithful in a little and He will give you a lot.

About your illness, your itching knees, your bleeding. God has done miraculous works in your body. Just believe and received your healing. Mom, God honor your faith. You will be Woman in Faith. No other things in this world that can shake your faith. Stay strong, my dearly mother. I love you, mom

Cindy, my lovely sister, I am proud of you. These times, you are the one who strengthening our family, when they were weak. I know that you have put so much effort. I am glad that now you can understand our mother better. You didn't understand why she always want you to help her in the kitchen, do house-cleaning, etc. It was not because she wanted you to be her servant, but because you are the only daughter she has. You will marry and raise your own family. Mom always wants to make you prepared for that. Thanks for your prayers for me. I will always put faith on it, and become closer and closer to God. For these times, I never congratulate you in any of your unforgetable moment and your achievement. I was so selfish and careless about others. I am so sorry. But you have make me proud with your Bachelor Degree, with your job.

God will raise you up in your work, You will get promotion from current position to the much higher position within a year, nobody in that work has that achievement before. Keep learning in your job and be faithful always in the Lord. Do not do immorality and honor God in your relationship with your boyfriend, and God will raise you up. Once again, congratulation for your graduation, I am so proud of you, my the one and only sister. You will be a Good Teacher, Good Teacher, have compassion, care for anybody in need. God bless your service toward Him, my lovely sister.

Jeffry, my brother, you are a man now. You are not a teenager again. Grow strong in the Lord and He will raise you high in the future. You will excel rapidly, the highest in our family, I will just see you from my lowly position, my brother. You will be used by God to bless many people and our family financially. Our family will be proud of you. But remember one thing, let pride never come up within your heart, never be lazy and most of all, stay close to the Lord, or your grace will be taken up, eaten by birds. Be faithful in a little and He will give you a lot. Don't worry about your soulmate, He will give you the best person, stay focus on your study. Never be discouraged and think less of yourself. You are my great brother. I am proud of you, I am also proud for your admission without any test and teaching juniors privately. Keep fighting in the Lord, never give up.

About your talent in music, don't worry, keep practicing all the instrument you like. There will be a new song everything you play it. God gives you talent greatly, never far away from God, or He will take them from you. If you are willing to be used by Him to bless many people, He will always be with you. Your songs, melodies, music will bring many people to God. Praise him with the sound of the trumpet: praise him with the psaltery and harp. Praise him with the tambourine and dance: praise him with stringed instruments and organs. Praise him on the loud cymbals: praise him on the high sounding cymbals. Let no pride come upon you, always be humble, my Musician of God.

Adrian, my youngest brother, I know that you have problem with your understanding. I know your worry about our house, and it distract you so much. You are still too young for that. Adrian, I love you, don't worry, my little brother. You that right now be in the lowest position in the class, starting from today, you will never be in that position again. Every evil spirits inside your brain, that makes you difficult to understand. I command you in the name of Jesus, move away.

Rian, don't be afraid any longer, my brother. You will surely go to the next level, keep studying, do your best. It will be well, my brother. God has great plan for you. He will raise you up like your brother, Jeffry. I will only see both of you from my lowly position. How great my brothers are. Rian, I will always stand behind you, go on in the Lord, my Good Shepherd.

Your big brother here, I want to do what God has called me to do, I want to be Servant of God, serving Him with all of my heart. I have put aside my ambition to be rich and established physically. I just want to be used by God to be channel of blessing for anybody, and preparing His church to be without stain, without wrinkle but holy and blameless for His second coming. I promised all of you, my family. As soon as I finished my Master, I will come back to Indonesia. I want to earn my own living, I will work for my life, not asking anybody to afford for me. I know in Indonesia, I would face many different people. But as God harden my forehead like hardest stone, I will be unyielding in the Lord. I will show them that I do what I preached, I will do my best to be blameless, giving them no opportunities to mock God because of my life. I want to bring great harvest of souls in Indonesia, so that God's name will be glorified. Come on, my father, mother, cindy, jeffry, adrian, let's start the great revival among us first.

Never give up, everything will be so wonderful in His time. Our God is not a dead god, or he was asleep. He is not deaf nor blind. He will surely save our family. Jesus is coming soon, be prepared!! I love you all

My Vision

My Father is Heaven

My heavenly Father, how majesty, how glorious, how magnificent, how great you are. Aku yang begitu kecil di mata manusia, begitu tidak berharga, aku yang hanyalah sebatas nafas kehidupan, terbuat dari debu tanah. Tapi Engkau dari tempat tertinggiMu, terluasMu, termegahMu mau memandang diriku yang hina ini, yang telah banyak mendukakanMu. You sustain my life, you provide me with all that I need. You keep me safe. You are my Rock, my Shelter, my Refuge, my Stronghold, my Tower.

Thank you for sustaining my life, I had 3 accidents, but I am alive

Engkau tidak mencabut nyawaku saat aku kecelakaan motor parah, saat aku jauh dari Engkau. Engkau masih tunggu aku untuk bertobat. How great thou art, my Father. I owe my life onto you, I am devoted to you, I am yours, I give all my life onto you. I want to hold your cross till the end, I won't exchange it with anything else, I am ready to die for you, Daddy.

Daddy, if I could ask you, if you want to listen to my heart, but Daddy, not my will be done, but yours. I just want to reason together with you, bring forth my argument. I want to know, whether you agree or not, I want to ask something in your name. I want...

Many People come and worship you. Give me Indonesia, Father. Indonesia belongs to You

Daddy, aku punya sesuatu hal yang selalu membebani hati kecilku, bukan masalah keluargaku, karena aku tahu bahwa semuanya telah dijawab olehMu. Kerinduanku adalah untuk melayaniMu sepenuh jiwaku, sepenuh hatiku, segenap kemampuanku.

Itu yang aku ingin, Father.

Engkau memberiku 5 talent, aku ingin beri 10 untukMu. Tapi aku juga ada ego sendiri, Daddy. Aku tidak mau dibiayain dari uang jemaat, aku ingin mencukupi kebutuhan hidupku dan keluargaku dari usaha kerja kerasku sendiri, aku tidak mau ntar hatiku terkorupsi dan menjadi jauh darimu karena mengejar harta jemaat. Aku ingin menjadi pelayanmu sekaligus orang yang berhasil dalam pekerjaanku.

Aku ingin ada Konser Praise and Worship di Senayan

Impian terbesarku adalah aku ingin mengadakan kebangkitan rohani di Indonesia, aku ingin stadion Senayan diisi oleh suporterMu, bukan bonek, bukan orang yg mau senang2, tapi orang yang datang untuk sembah Engkau, meninggikan namaMu, aku ingin mengadakan konser pujian dan penyembahan untukMu, semacam Hillsong di Indo. Daddy, Aku tahu, itu butuh banyak uang, butuh banyak perjuangan, butuh banyak doa dan air mata, butuh banyak orang2 yang sevisi dan digerakkan olehMu. Bahkan aku sendiri tidak tahu langkah apa yang akan aku ambil, tapi aku percaya penuh kepadaMu. Aku ingin punya pendapatan pasif sehingga aku bisa melayaniMu full timer.

Dan itulah visiku kelak di Indo.

Overcome Evil with Good

Daddy, kalau Engkau berkenan, aku ingin mempunyai usaha seperti tempatku bekerja sekarang. Usaha padat karya. Alasanku, aku melihat orang2 bangsaku hidupnya makin lama makin sulit, BBM naik, harga kebutuhan pokok naik, tapi lapangan kerja trus berkurang. Mereka tidak ada pekerjaan bukan karena mereka malas, tapi karena tidak ada lapangan kerja. Daddy, saat ini aku ga punya modal untuk bantu mereka,

tapi aku punya mimpi, dan aku mau cerita mimpiku kepadaMu.

Love, Faith, and Hope are everywhere

Daddy, aku ingin bisa memperkerjakan banyak orang, dengan motto, mereka kerja untuk mereka makan dan hidup cukup, hidup senang, dan aku kerja untuk terus bisa kasih mereka makan, dan juga hidup cukup, tidak berlebih.

Aku ingin pakai talent aku, pengalaman aku untuk berkati banyak orang.

Kejadian keluargaku, membuatku banyak belajar, bahwa uang bukanlah segalanya, kebahagiaan hatiku adalah saat aku melihat, melalui perbuatan tanganku, banyak orang bahagia dan mereka melihat sesuatu yang terpancar dari diriku, aku punya kasih Tuhan dan mereka tertarik untuk kenal Engkau, Tuhan yang aku sembah. Aku percaya, sekejam atau sejahat apapun, tidak ada yang bisa bertahan jika disentuh dengan kasihMu, aku percaya bahwa setiap orang punya sisi baik, dan aku percaya jika usaha itu bisa berjalan sendiri, karena aku mengasihi mereka, dan mereka mendukung aku, perusahaanku berjalan otomatis, aku ingin terjun full time melayani engkau, Daddy.

Deal with me, cut my bad characters, perfected me in You, form me as you like, Father

Dad, you know my heart. I am a hard man, stubborn man, I will not listen to anybody, but if you speak to me, I will listen and obey, I will obey and go with you. My heart is soft, but my faith is strong. No one could toast my faith, I hope they could know me better. I am hard in teaching, but gentle in person. You know my heart, you also test my heart, Dad.

Deal with me always, papas semua sifat2 dan karakter yang buruk yang aku punya, sempurnakanlah aku hari lepas hari.

Saat ini, Alvin hanyalah seorang anak manusia yang tidak mempunyai apa2, begitu kecil dimata manusia, tapi Alvin punya Tuhan yang begitu besar, with Him I can do anything.

When pride come upon me, deal with me hardly, make me repent, Daddy

Daddy, my strongest temptations is proud and sex.

Please make me always humble myself and give me strength to resist all the temptation.

It better for me to die young rather than to be a backslider. Dad, if in the future, I will be backslider, or lead many people to confusion, or other gods, instead of you, take my life before it happened, make me die younger. It is better for me, to die in you than to have long life without you.

Take my life while I am in you, do not let me life long but without You in my life

Dad, I need more of you, bless me, make stronger in the Lord and closer to you.

Always keep me humble, I really don't want your Spirit leave me. I am belong to you, Daddy. Ich liebe dich, Father.

I want more of You, Jesus

Mein Liebling

Cewe gua yang kiri







Ini foto2 cewe gua, yg barusan dia kirimin awal minggu ini
She is beautiful, isn't she??
Qta mulai sepakat jalan bareng sejak 16 November 2006
Berawal dari mata turun ke hati
Qta ketemuan pas gua les mandarin

Bisa dibilang waktu kenalannya ga lama, paling intensifnya
sebulan sebelum gua ke jerman, en ditinggal LD deh
But I hope everything will be run smoothly
May God show us the way..

ich liebe dich

to be continued...

My First Job

Kemaren gua dapet percobaan kerja di bagian pengepakan

Kerjaannya lumayan cape en gajinya termasuk kecil

Tapi mo gimana lagi..bahasa jerman jadi kendala gua

Susah banget dapetin kerjaan klo bahasanya ngga lancar

Kmrn sempet ngelamar ke McD, en sempet ketemu bosnya

Tapi dia bilang klo bahasa gua terlalu kurang, takutnya ga bisa komunikasi

Ini jg banyak2 terima kasih sama Shanny,

dia emang kerja di dua tempat ini, McD en pengepakan

berkat bantuan dia, gua bisa dpt kerjaan ini..thanks to her

Kmrn perngalaman pertama kerja,

tugasnya nempelin banderol harga ke tiap box

satu boxnya dihargain 2 cent..tapi kerjaannya lumayan nyita waktu

soalnya gua musti buka dulu kardus gede, lakbannya dikater,

trus isinya ada 4 kardus kecil..dikater lagi..

baru didalem kardus kecil ini, ada 4 box yg musti ditempelin banderol

mana ditempelnya jg harus rapi..trus udanya dilakban lagi, masukin ke kardus lagi

dapet deh 32 cent tiap kardus...

kerjaan pertama gua bisa nyelesain 64 kardus selama 4 jam,

kalah beberapa doank sama yg uda lama kerja disana (orang indo)

klo dibanding sama orang2 cina, kalah mayan banyak

mereka kalo kerja cepet banget, tapi ga rapi sih...

somehow, bosnya suka sama orang2 indo

tapi gua lbh suka kerja kayak orang cina ini, yg penting duit banyak deh

hehehe...kmrn dapet 20.48€ (250rb) mayan deh buang nutupin biaya harian

sayangnya nih kerjaan ga tentu, tergantung panggilan bosnya

soalnya dia juga tergantung orderan..jadinya hari ini jg gua nganggur di rumah

tapi untungnya kerjaan ini masih bisa gua lakuin selama kuliah ntar

semoga nutup deh biaya idup disini, jadi ga perlu nambah apa2 lagi dari indo

doain ya..thanks God for giving me a way to survive..

Cermin..bagaimana Alvin memandang dirinya sendiri..

I think I am arrogant..
Because what I said, what I wrote (diluar dari pengalaman pribadi)
Msh banyak yg berupa idealisme belaka
Masih belon bisa dibuktiin, baik dengan tingkah laku ataupun bukti nyata..
But I really meant it..I try to make it happen..
I am on my way to be the person I want to be.

I think I like to simplify anything..
Masalah besar gua bikin kecil..
Masalah kecil gua anggep ngga ada..
Kadang bikin orang laen gemes..

I think I can manage time well,
I always on time..except there is any unoccasional event
That why I always say that I have my own schedule
Yg mana cuma gua sendiri yg bisa ngaturnya..
Orang liat gua ngga niat, buang banyak waktu..
Btw, I promise you..when the time has come..
Whatever it is, I will submit it on time, or come on time..

I think I hard to please..
Ngga banyak orang yg masuk kriteria hebat menurut gua..
Gua tau di bidang mana gua masih bisa improve,
En di bidang mana, I am on my limit..
Klo gua pikir gua bisa seperti itu jg,
Orang tersebut cm gua jadiin motivasi
Sampe gua bisa sama kayak dia bahkan lebih

Gua cuma respek sama org2 yg bisa lakuin yg gua ngga bisa..
Ato bener2 berdedikasi tinggi..dengan kata laen berkomitmen kuat..
Gua salut sama orang yg bisa berdiri teguh ama pendiriannya,
meski dunia seakan menertawakan..

I think, I am quite tolerant,
I know nobody perfect..
Gua ngga minta orang harus 100% perfect untuk gua..
Karena gua jg ngga perfect..
Tapi gua ngga suka sama orang yg ngga bisa berubah
Meski tau yg dia lakuin itu salah..

Gua seneng dikritik, asal reasonable..
Kritik bagus sebagai bantalan pengaman..
Klo2 kita keluar jalur..

I think, I am fair..
What I don't want others do to me,
I also won't do that to others..
Gua percaya sama hukum tabur tuai..
Klo ngga mau orang laen gitu ke gua,
Gua jg ngga boleh gitu ke orang laen..

I think, I like to think..
Gua seneng melatih otak gua..
gua seneng maen minesweeper, detective parker,
game strategi, baca textbook, belajar hal2 baru..

I think I am greedy..(maruk)
Gua pengen semua bisa, semua tau, semua punya..
Apa tuh namanya klo bukan greedy??
Hahaha..koleksi DVD banyak, tapi blon ditonton semua
Koleksi buku jg sama..Pokonya kumpulin dulu sebanyak2nya
Soal dimanfaatin ato ngga urusan belakangan..

I think gua kaku soal idealisme en cara pikir..
Selama ngga ada yg bisa buktiin gua salah
Ato selama gua blon nemuin sesuatu yg lebih baik..
Ato sampe gua ngalamin sendiri..
Gua bakal pegang trus tuh prinsip..
Meski orang laen anggap gua aneh,,
Gua ngga peduli..

hahaha..that's my mirror..
What my reflexion from my point of view
Any comments??

10 things I hate the most

First, I don't like people who can't keep their promise
Kata2nya ngga ada yg bisa dipegang,
Bukan tipe org yg bisa dipercaya..
Ngga layak sama sekali jadi temen dekat gua.

Second, I don't like people who always late and slow
Ngga akan bisa ngikutin kecepatan gua..
Gua ngga suka buang waktu percuma..
Klo bisa dalam satu waktu melakukan kegiatan lbh dari satu..

Third, I don't like people with lack of ambition
Ngga punya motivasi sama dengan nyakitin diri sendiri pelan2
Suka hal2 yg steady..That's suck..life must be improve everyday..

Fourth, I don't like being alone in the middle of crowd with no friends
That's why I don't like party, pergi ke cafe, clubbing..
Ngga ada gunanya tanpa teman yg bener2 teman..
Gua lbh milih ngabisin waktu berdua sama org yg bener2 deket en special
Gua bisa tahan seharian deket orang yg gua sayang..
I can spend the whole day with them..
Lebih berasa tenang, damai, penuh kasih sayang..
Makanya gua seneng ngabisin waktu di rumah..
Klo ngga ada temen, gua lbh milih ngabisin waktu sendirian
Daripada cari hiburan ke luar..

Sometimes I need space to breath,
Sometimes I need others for fun,
Gua makhluk individual sekaligus sosial
Gua suka maen futsal ma temen2 kuliah..
Ato kadang2 sengaja killing time pergi maen tanpa tujuan..
Sekedar kumpul ma temen2 deket..
Miss that moment so much..

Fifth, I don't like spending money for something useless,
Segala sesuatunya musti ada gunanya, ada tujuannya..
En sesuai dengan harganya..

Sixth, I don't like my stuff not perfect..
Sedih banget deh klo liat mobil baret, HP baret..
Komputer baret..Motor baret..
Klo boleh milih, lbh baik baretnya ke badan gua aja..
Haha..soalnya luka bisa sembuh, baret ngga bisa..
Gua jg suka kerapian en kebersihan..

Seventh, gua ngga suka disuruh2 ama org
Gua cuma mau taat ama org yg gua respek..
Klo ngga jgn harep gua acuhin deh..

Eighty, gua ngga suka liat orang yg suka pamer..
Langsung keluar semangat rivalitas gua..
Pengen ngelangkahin tuh orang, bair dia diem

Nineth, gua ngga suka orang pinjem barang gua lama2
Apalagi sampe lupa balikin..
Gua punya deadline sendiri, tergantung seberapa berartinya tuh barang utk gua
Semakin berarti semakin sebentar tenggat waktunya..
Pokoknya klo sampe gua nagih barang gua,
Benernya uda males pinjemin dia apa2 lagi..

Tenth, gua ngga suka siapapun merendahkan keluarga gua
You can disregard me, but nobody can disregard my family..
You do that, you are crossing my line..

Hahaha..dede gua bilang gua tukang ceramah

Haya..haya..my sis, my sis..

Koq koko mu dibilang tukang ceramah sih..Itu mah bukan ceramah namanya..
Tapi mengemukakan pendapat..Hehehe..meski sedikit maksa.
Inget masa2 dulu nih, uda kayak Aa Gym-nya keluarga..
Smua orang gua kasih pendapat (bukan ceramahin lohh..) hehehe..

Si mama deh yg paling setia dengerin kotbahnya gua..
Si Jeffry uda kenyang..Cindy malah kabur pacaran..
Padahal filosofi gua uda mendekati SunTzu campur Kong Fu Tze
Based on experience and reality of life nya gua sendiri..huahaha..
Getex nulisnya..

Btw, dari cara seseorang memandang, cara seseorang menulis..
Kita bisa nilai karakternya, perasaannya, cara pandangnya..
Banyak2 lah nulis blog jg, sis..
Biar kokomu ini bisa tau keadaanmu disana..

Kalimat2 diatas bener adanya loh..
Itu hasil tuker pikiran sama anak filsafat..
Tulisan mencerminkan karakter penulisnya

Keep posting..So I can know you and every of my friends better..

How Lucky I am

She is my girlfriend,
I met her when I was studying Chinese..

Gua ketemu dia karena gua sempet jadi transfer student
Karena ada satu dua hal..
Lao shi gua ngga bisa ngajar dulu slama sebulan..
Jadilah gua sbgai transfer student ke kelasnya..

Pertama liat nih cewe, uda mulai tertarik dalem hati,
But, still..I don't believe in love anymore..
I hate being hurt..It's kinda pain in the ass.

To try to love someone, means..

Once again you have to open your heart..
And give possibility to others to scratch my old wound,
Which I try to accept it as my stepping stone,
My learning process to be mature,
Even it hurt me so, and I don't want to experience this anymore.

Would I believe to this girl not to give another pain in me??
The answer is yes..

My best friend told me,
How silly is the people who don't treasure what they got..
He hope that I am not that kind of people.

Lenna, my girlfriend,
She gave me her love, her time, her careness,
her understanding, her everything..
What else can I expect from the girl?

It's a pity for us, especially for her,
to be together when I was in Germany
She has to wait me for minimum 2 years,
I can't give her the exact time when I will finish my study here,
I know she is confuse, worry about our relationship, about me,
But, still..She will wait for me, until I come back to her..

I am a lucky man, but I understand also,
How the feeling when you live in doubtfulness..
I said to her, not to close her eyes, especially her heart
To someone she will meet during her waiting period,

I, of course, will fell sad, If I lost her,
But I really hope all the best for Lenna,
She has right to be happy, with her decision..
2 years is not a short time,
Everything can happen in this time..

But, I thank to her,
To always support me here,
within my adaptation period, until now..
She never miss a day to support me,
Even with just a short sms,

When I was down, I know she prays for me
The only problem between us, that she still not Christian..

I hope my future wife is Christian..
She said, if I want her to be Christian,
She will do that for me...

Gua merasa masalah agama adalah masalah fundamental
dalam membangun suatu keluarga baru..
Thanks to Lulu, yg ngajarin gua hal seperti ini..

Adalah penting dalam suatu hubungan utk punya
Satu dasar yg kuat en sama..

Biar ngga ada lagi perbedaan suara antara suami en istri
Biar anak ngga bingung mo ngikut agama yg mana..
Biar pendidikan rohani bisa dibangun sejak anak msh kecil..
Biar bisa berdoa bareng, ke gereja bareng,
I want to have a relationship like that..

But I also want her to be Christian not because of me,
I want her to believe from her heart,
I know it's very hard to change your Belief,
I used to be Catholic when I was with my ex-girlfriend,
But, now, I find it a sillieist decision I had made.
I won't sell my God for love anymore,

Because right now, I feel that..
Pacar bisa pergi, Teman bisa hilang,
Orangtua bisa suatu saat dipanggil Tuhan,
Barang bisa rusak bahkan hilang,
To whom should I put my trust??

I experienced this in my first period in Germany,
I left everything that I have in Indonesia
I came here with nothing, just 30kg of stuffs
that I brought from Indonesia..
What do I have here?? Friends?? Family?? Girlfriend??
No.................................Absolutely NO.

I only have Jesus..He's the only thing left..
He never left me alone..

That's why I want to with all my family worship Him..
Not just from the mouth, but also from the heart..

Lenna sayang, hope you will understand
Why I put to be Christian as my number one criteria.
I love you from the bottom of my heart,
but I love Jesus even more..

Data Diri

Gua anak pertama dari 4 bersaudara..
Lahir di Bandung, 16 September 1983
Animal Sign : Boar
Zodiac Sign : Virgo

Klo digabung artinya (mnrt Buku Pintar Indonesia)
Babi yg pandai memegang uang dan hemat

Bisa dibilang hemat sih, bahkan kadang kehematan
dulu lbh milih nabung daripada jajan
(jaman2 SD, SMP, SMA sih) soalnya bisa makan di rumah
Skrg duit tabungan abis deh..dipake nambah2 ke jerman.
Ntar lah nyari lagi..Gampang..

haha, cm paling ngga tahan klo mo beli DVD
koleksi gua uda ada 250 DVD lebih..
Bajakan sih, tapi gpp lah..kan hemat..hihihi..

Lanjut,
Golongan darah : O
Hobby : Reading, Watching, Football, Music, Internetan
apa lagi ya??
Ngga tau lagi mo nulis apa..
Ada masukan??

Arti nama

Nama pemberian ortu gua : Alvin
Wo de Zhong wen de ming zi : Su Zhi Cheng..
Nama baptis : Alvin Stephen
Nama jerman blon punya..

Alvin (bahasa latin) : teman dari semua makhluk
baik itu makhluk berwujud maupun tidak..haha..
Ngga mau deh temenan ma makhluk tak berwujud mah
Cukup Holy Spirit aja deh

Ma yg berwujud, banyak hal2 menarik yg gua alamin selama ini:
Ada temen yg nyolot, temen yg homo,
temen yg cantik, en yang paling penting temen sejati
I have met so many friends, especially this last year..


Nama Mandarin : Su Zhi Cheng
Su nama Family
Zhi bisa diartikan ambisius (in good manner)
Cheng bisa diartikan lurus ato jujur (can be trusted)
Percaya ngga percaya..
Ato ini gara2 efek psikologis dari sebuah nama
Gua emg org yg seperti itu..

Very ambitious in life, talk from my heart (honest),
sometimes straight to the point, hehehe, jleb jleb
And my Path run smoothly (jalan gua lurus2 aja nih)
Blon nemuin banyak kesulitan..
Apa2 sesuai rencana semua..Puji Tuhan deh..


Kembali ke nama Alvin...
Selama setaun terakhir ini..Gua beruntung banget
Bisa kenal banyak temen2 baru en
Ketemu temen2 lama yg sudah lama menghilang.

I join Cahaya harapan (kursus mandarin),
Goethe Institut (kursus Jerman), TBI (kursus Inggris)
GKMI (gereja), UNPAR, en Dortmund UNI (kuliah)
PT Midtou (kerja sambilan maen saham),
Science Learning (kerja sambilan jadi guru les)
Brown EO (kerja sambilan jadi EO)
PPI Dortmund (meski blon sekalipun ikutan eventnya)
Semuanya terjadi dalam 1 taun kemaren, 2006

Thx for the new friends You have sent me, God.

Me and JC

Until now, I still amazed with your great works on me
JC, I can't understand your plan on me at all
I never imagine about these things, and also don't dare to dream like these
It's too good to be true,
I can't ask you more for these things
My life filled with so much blesses and miracles,
That you provide me,

Sorry for keeping you wait untul my heart open for you
Sorry for my selfishness and all the bad things I've done
Even right now, I still do something not right in front of you

I put my trust in you, God..but still, I am only human,
Sometimes my flesh desires overcome my faith in You
I always tried your patience, but
I tried and tried to be a good person that You like

Please guide me in you Way..
I don't have any desire to walk on my own,
I don't want to move alone,
I believe in You..You are my God, my precious one..

This is my commitment to you,
I will always read this again and again..
To remind me how great You are,
how many things You have done
for the sake of me and my family..
Thank you, Lord..Miss ya, Dad..

Alvin

My family..I miss you so much

Look at this photo, we are a happy family..

It's quite a big family nowaday..
Parents with 4 cute children,

3 handsome sons, and 1 lovely daughter..
Waduh, gua kangen banget ma rumah,
Kangen ma papa mama, en dede2
Gi pada ngapain ya???

Gua sbnernya rencana mo bljr hari ini,
Tapi berhubung kondisi sudah tidak enak lagi
utk bljr..mendingan menulis deh..

Kangen..kangen..kangen..

Kangen nih utk diskusi ttg jalan idup ma babeh
Diem2 babehku ini ayah paling hebat,
He cares so much to our family,
Does a lot of effort to send me here,
And never shows his worries in front of us
Dad, it's time for you to share your burden with me
I won't let your effort sending me here
Being wasted for nothing
I promise you to get a good grade, good job,
and take care of my sister and brothers
Sorry, I'm still can do nothing right now
And make you a little longer to work really hard

Gua jg kangen ma mama,
Uda lama ngga unterhalten (discuss)

En cerita ttg kegiatan sehari2 en
Ttg kisah2 roman en asmara ma bunda tercinta
She knows everything about me,

It's nice to chat with you, mom
Even we are one generation different,
En ternyata selaen dengerin cerita gua, si mama diem2
Ada konspirasi jg yah, btw

Thanks for your effort, my great mom
Mami yg selalu sebut nama gua dalam setiap doanya
Juga mami yg selalu memberikan yg terbaik

Dan mendedikasikan hidupnya utk keluarga
Hik..Hik..I really miss you mom..

I miss you two..my greatest greatest parents

Kangen jg ma dede gua..I wonder..
What are they doing right now..

Halo sis, gimana kuliahnya??
Cepetan lulusnya donk..
Jangan pacaran mulu donk..hehe..
Ntar pengen merried lagi..
Terpaksa deh gua jauh2 pulang dari jerman.
Gimana bljr nyetirnya? Uda bisa belon?
Jangan2 si mama ketakutan ya?? Hehe..
Abis nya uda harus berangkat sih gua nya..
pas gua pulang harus dah bisa ya..
Btw, hope you have a good relationship with Ato
Bagi Ato..hallo bro, take care of my sis ya..
I put my trust in you, don't ever let her cry..

Halo jg my brothers..
Jeffry, you are doing great..ranking 3 di kelas??
Wow..that's amazing, bro..
Keep your effort, get a good grade,
And make our family proud
I really count on you while I am not there
As a biggest son in the home,
Take care your mom, sis, and your brother..
Und hast du schon eine Freundin?
(uda ada pacar blon??) cerita2 donk..

Halo juga Adut, gimana sekolahnya??
Gimana kura2 yg gua kasih??
Knp malu ngomong di telpon ma gua??
Suaranya uda rubah ya??

Hehe..uda ngga kayak dulu?
God bless you, my youngest brother

Love, your big brother

Alvin