Apology letter for non-christian friends (Church messes up)

My beloved non Christian friends (moslems, hindus, buddhists, atheists, idol worshippers, etc), I want to ask apology for the condition of the churches today. I know it is not my position to represent the whole churches in the world. I am just nobody, just a voice in wilderness, just a young man who has great desire to know Almighty God and when I found Him and know His unfailing love, I want to share it with you so that you will know that God loves you and want you to be saved.

I was born in Christian family and I was so thirsty about God, I kept looking for Him but I can't find Him. With time, my logic and my understanding developed, and I could see the situation around me better. The more I used my logic and understanding, the more I was tired of being "Christians", being "hypocrites". I saw the condition of the churches and despised them, I even despised myself for my hypocrisy. I chose to be an atheist and hated the churches.

My non-Christian friends, I would always be in agreement with whatever you say about the churches for many of them are not the churches at all. I thank God because He separated me from the churches so that I can see from outside about the situation inside the churches and it is terrible. I was blind when I was part of it, but the moment God opened my eyes, I become to know the reason why people hate the churches. I am very grateful to Him that in my great disappointment about the churches and Christianity, He called me back, He captured and satisfied my heart, He showed His great love to me that make me always wonder and stand in awe, "How great Thou art". I have Almighty God as my Father. Can you imagine that?

My friends, God really wants to lavish His great love to you, to take your burdens, your problems, your painful experiences, your dark secrets, your nightmares, and everything that you find it is difficult to face. He wants to say to you, "My child, don't worry, don't be afraid, I will bring deliverance for you. I will fight for you, you need only to be still (Exodus 14:14). He said "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. You are His creations and He wants to be your Father. He loves you with all His heart.

This Almighty God is the One who created this universe, including us. Even though we are just a breath, a person among 6.7 billions of people, far smaller than sun, moon or other planets, but in His eyes we are the most precious creatures for He created us in His own image (Genesis 1:27). We are fearfully and wonderfully made by Him (Psalm 139:14), our hairs are numbered by Him (Matthew 10:30), He knows everything (1 John 3:20). He knows our past, present, and future. He know our pains, our joys, our problems, our success, everything. We are not a mistake, we are not a scum of the earth, we are not an object of mockery, we are God's possession. He put His wisdom in making us. Just see our thumb-print, there is no other person in this planet has the same thumb-print as we are. We are special in God's eyes, my beloved friends.

I, personally, want to ask apology from you for the condition of the Christianity and churches around the world. The Bible standard about the Christianity, and the church has been diluted. We are no different than "happy, joyful Christians" who love God when everything works perfect and disown Him when things happened on the opposite side, when temptation comes and persecution rise up, we fall away. We are hypocrites and liars. We are selfish, wretched, poor, pitiful, blind, naked but still we claim "I am rich".

We are the most dividing Body in the world. We have more than 39000+ denominations and each of them claiming themselves to be the best. We have faction and dissension and Bible clearly says that most of us will go to hell. God will judge us more strictly because we are behaving as stumbling block and shut the kingdom of God from you.

Galatians 5:19-21

The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.

Many of us said, "I follow Luther" "I follow Calvin" "I follow Wesley" "I follow Arminius" "I follow Moody" the Bible said that when we behave like that, we are worldly, we are carnal, we are infant in the Lord (1 Corinthians 3:1-4). Some people said, "I am Baptist" "I am Charismatic" "I am Pantecost" "I am Orthodox". Again, we have faction and Bible said that we will not inherit the kingdom of God.

The fact that there are more than 3 different church' names within one street hold service at the same time is untolerable. They compete among themselves for people, for building, for money, etc. Each of them says that they are the only one who handle the truth correctly. Many of them put their own name as the name of the church. Do they want to glorify their names or God' name?

My beloved friends, the churches today are not what Jesus wants. He prayed His last dying prayer to the Father for His disciples "May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that You sent Me and have loved them even as You have loved Me (John 17:23). Jesus wants us to be one so that the world will see that God really dwells among us, that Jesus is really Immanuel, which means "God with us" till the end of the age. But as you can see, each day we just divide ourselves more and more.

Bible demands from us that within the church everybody should serve each others, the strong help the weak and each of us should please our neighbour, for Christ didn't please Himself (Romans 15:1-2). The rich help the poor as Christ that though He was rich, yet for your sake become poor. At the present time your plenty will supply what they need, so that in turn their plenty will supply what you need. Then there will be equality (2 Corinthians 8:14). Pastors, evangelists, teachers, workers, apostles are their servants not their lords (Luke 22:26). Jesus said, "Whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be slave of all. For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life as a ransom for many (Mark 10:43-45).

But the situation inside the churches right now is far from being in unity and we don't have love and compassion about people, we don't care about the needy and the poor, we don't defend the weak, we just selfish, power-hungry, crazy-respect people. We have tax collector's love who love only people who love us and respect people who respect us. We demand something in return from them. My friends, I don't know how to fix this mess but please don't see Christianity from the churches today, but see it from Jesus Christ. Just imagine if all those who say that they love Jesus is start behaving like Jesus, behaving as one body, behaving as brothers and sisters, practicing their love, will the world not in peace?

We claim that we are children of light, and the world is in darkness, the problems, troubles, tribulations we face right now is not because the world behaving as the world, they are in darkness since beginning, but because we, the ones who claim to have light, didn't go to the world and show our light, our true identity as Christ ambassadors in the world. We are lazy, idle, busibodied, self-righteous, proud, selfish Christians. We choose to put our light under the bowl because we are afraid of losing friends, being persecuted, being disowned by people. We don't have heart like Daniel and his three friends who chose to be persecuted instead conform to the world. They chose to stand for the truth instead bowing down to the world.

We know that Jesus is the way, the truth and the life. No one can come to the Father, except through Him (John 14:6), we know that salvation is Gift of God, we know that God is a jealous God and He hates sins, idols, pride. We know that wide is the gate and broad is the road that lead to destruction and many enter it. We know many of you are walking straight to hell unless someone stop you and bring you back to God. We know that He loves you and want you to come to Him, repentance toward God and faith toward our Lord Jesus Christ. We know that God also want you to enjoy all the benefit as the children of the Living God. We know about that very well but we choose to go to heaven alone, we choose not to tell you about this, we are afraid of persecution that we might receive from you. We choose to let you stay in darkness and die without salvation. We do not want to share our light and forever we will be a "happy, joyful Christians" who love God when everything goes perfect, but hate Him when we are persecuted because of His name.

My friends, I know that you also have desire to know Almighty God, you struggle here and there, you wish you can meet God in the church and learn from Christians about God, but when you see how the "Christians" live, those who claim to be Christ disciples, their life is even worse than unbelievers and not only that; you even see many pastors, preachers, evangelists, priests in the news: do poligamy, homosexuality, immorality, money fraud, make name for themselves, and all the sins that maybe you will never find outside the churches.

My beloved friends, I know how your feeling, I know your opinion toward institution so called "church", toward people so called "Christian" for I was in your position. But let me speak out with all my heart about those who claimed to be "Christians", to be "pastors", to be "leaders of the church" but have no love toward each others, no forgiveness, no self-control, and keep on sinning, etc; all of the are hypocrites. Jesus opposed them so much, Jesus wanted them to act in righteousness and holiness, to be a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless. He wanted us to express our faith through love. It is not Jesus' will that the Christianity like this. We are too far from the Bible standard. The churches mess up. The church is not a building, the church is the body of believers which Head is Jesus Christ.

Matthew 7:21-23

"Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. Many will say to me on that day, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?' Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!'

There are many Pharisees and Scribes in the churches in form of pastors, preachers, evangelists, etc. Jesus said to them, "The teachers of the law and the Pharisees sit in the Moses' seat. Everything they do is done for men to see. They tie up heavy loads and put them on men's shoulders, but they themselves are not willing to lift a finger to move them. They make their phylacteries wide and the tassels on their garments long, they love the place of honor at banquets and the most important seats in synagogues, they love to be greeted in the marketplaces and to have men call them "Rabbi" (Matthew 23:2-7).

Do not call anyone on earth "father", for you have one Father and He is in heaven (Matthew 23:9). But the fact that many of us call man as Pope (Papa, Father, Holy Father), Vicar of Christ (Christ's Representative). We are deliberately taught by that institution to blaspheme God, we are deliberately taught to follow men (preacher, pastor, priest, pope) more than God, to honor them more than God. We are taught to follow teaching, sacraments and tradition of men instead follow God's Word. God is a jealous God, He will never share His glory to His creations.

They shut the kingdom of heaven in men's faces, they themselves do not enter, nor will they let those enter who are trying to. They travel over land and sea to win a single convert, and when he becomes one, they make him twice as much a son of hell as they are (Matthew 23:13-15).

My friends, do not allow these men to shut the kingdom of heaven from you, do not allow these men to make you twice as much a son of hell as they are. They are making converts, not disciples. They make people to always depend on them, not God, to follow men, not God. They never tell people to read their own Bible and learn from God. They don't want people to have their personal relationship with Him. They want people to always focus on their teaching so that they can direct them as they like. They want people to keep give them money so that they can buy private jet, luxury house, expensive cars, etc and pay their bills.

My beloved friends, you do not deserve to go to hell because you hate these kind of practices, because you are tired of their hypocrisy. Do not let these people steal your eternity. Jesus also opposed them and want them to serve people not lord and rule over them. Jesus loves you and wants you to be saved.

They said, "If anyone swear by temple, it means nothing, but if anyone swears by gold of the temple, he is bound by his oath". They also said, "If anyone swears by the altar, it means nothing, but if anyone swears by the gift on it, he is bound by his oath (Matthew 23:16-18)."

They don't care about people salvation, they just want people to flock into their churches and paying tithe and offering. They twisted the Word of God for their own benefit, they make road to salvation wider just to please people's itching ears, they always preach about blessing, about love, about peace, about freedom, about power, about gift of God, about prosperity, about money, about anything good that you can even be found in the world. If people can find the teaching of the churches in the world, why they should go to the church?

These "preachers" know very well that if they preach like Jesus or Paul preached only a remnant will stand till the end and it doesn't need a genius to know that their income is the function of the number of the people in the church. The more they are liked by the people in the world and many new converts come to the church, the richer they will be. Pastors, preachers, evangelists are the good business in making money, especially when we have economic crisis like today.

They have power over people, they have "word of God", many people see them as "God's servants" and because many people are too lazy to read the Bible and can't discern the spirits, whether they are ferocious wolves under sheepskin or true men of God, they can use that advantage to deceive them, take advantage from them and gain glory for themselves. They publish their own books, CDs, casettes and sell them in the church while they are preaching. People just walking around during the service distributing the things. God rebukes them. What do you think, my friends, they are doing good business or God's business?

They even don't care about their own salvation, they don't know that they will be judged more strictly (James 3:1) and it would be better for them to have a large millstone hung around their neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea (Matthew 18:6). They shut the kingdom of heaven in men's faces, they themselves do not enter, nor will they let those enter who are trying to.

They are like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside but on the inside are full of dead men's bones and everything unclean. On the outside they appear to people as righteous but on the inside they are full of hypocrisy and wickedness (Matthew 23:27-28)". To those people, Jesus said, "Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites!!!

My non-Christian friends, do not let these hypocrites and pharisees rob your salvation. That is not what Jesus wants. He wants you to be saved, He wants the Christians start behaving like Him, walk in His path, follow and obey Him. But we love to be on our own. We are gods (little gods) of ourselves we are kings of ourselves. I know some of you are looking for the truth but you can't find it and when you see the Christian, you despised them and because of that, many of you chose to be atheists, you hate this world, you tired with the people, you hope you can find the answer, but you can't. I was like that before until Jesus came and saved me. He loves me so much and He loves you too, my friends.

And the conditions of the churches are not better than their pastors, teachers, etc. The churches mess up. Please don't be alarmed, my friends. God allow that to happen. Bible said "No doubt there have to be differences among you to show which of you have God's approval (1 Corinthians 11:19). Many of us believe in everything our pastors, preachers say because we are too lazy to open our Bible and Bible said, "If a blind man leads a blind man, both will fall into a pit (Matthew 15:14)." Many of us follow blind men but we trust them as "men of God". It is God's mistake or our mistake when we end up in hell because we are too lazy? Not only that, we also have itching ears, somehow we can "differenciate" between "men of God" and "heretic".

If the preachers always talk about money, prosperity, blessing, wealth, freedom, little gods, you be you and not be what God wants, we will clap our hands and say "Wow! Awesome message, it blessed me! He is a man of God, indeed. I will come to this church next week. Finally!! I have found my church where my "faith" could grow". The "faith" they are talking about is like this "Declare with your faith, believe in your heart that in the same date next year, we will have new Mercedes in our garage" or "if you give tenth of your income, God will reward you multiply, give your money to the pastors and the churches and see what will happen. God will bless you abundantly".

But when they talk about judgment, sins, hell, being like Jesus, carry your cross daily, deny yourself, follow Him, they will say "This is a hard teaching. Who can accept it (John 6:60)? He is "heretic" "false teacher", let us shut him up. They try to kill them as their forefathers did to the prophets. Jesus said to them "You snakes! You brood of vipers! How will you escape being condemned to hell? Therefore I am sending you prophets and wise men and teachers. Some of them you will kill and crucify; others you will flog in your synagogues and pursue from town to town. And so upon you will come all the righteous blood that has been shed on earth, from the blood of righteous Abel to blood of Zechariah son of Berekiah, whom you murdered between the temple and the altar. I tell you the truth, all this will come upon this generation (Matthew 23:33-36)

Why don't you read the Bible and find out the Truth by yourself? I tell you the truth from 2.1 billions Christians, there are only a remnant that will be saved, most of us will go to hell. Bible said, "Many are called, few are chosen (Matthew 22:14). God said, "these people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. They worship me in vain, their teaching are but rules taught by men (Mark 7:6-7). Many of us wearing mask to the churches. Many of us behaving as a good man but inside us full of selfishness, jealousy, envy, hatred, no mercy, no forgiveness, no love. We just want to be called "children of God" but we act no different from "children of darkness".

Do you want to know the Bible Standard about true genuine Christians, Jesus' disciples? Please read carefully these 3 verses and see from your Christian friends and if they still have these qualities and claimed to be "children of God", go and oppose them.

1 Corinthians 6:9-10

Do you not know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor male prostitutes nor homosexual offenders nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.

Galatians 5:19-21

The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.

Revelation 21:8

But the cowardly, the unbelieving, the vile, the murderers, the sexually immoral, those who practice magic arts, the idolaters and all liars—their place will be in the fiery lake of burning sulfur. This is the second death."

My friends, I am not making the way to kingdom of God to be so narrow, but it is the Bible standard, those mega-church preachers and prosperity preachers are the ones who make salvation is so cheap, precious blood of Christ is unworthy. The Christianity you see today are not Christianity Jesus wanted, we are far from being the radiant church, being the body of Christ. Please, don't see Christianity from the churches today but see it from the Bible, see how Jesus lived, how He died for you, for us to be saved, how He resurrected on the third day and because He lives, we have hope, we have future that after we died, we will also resurrect with Him to the Father's house in heaven.

My beloved friends, if you are not a big fans of the church, neither do I. Let's shake our hand and oppose their wrongdoing. If you repent and put your faith in Jesus Christ. God will give you power to change things. Stop putting your faith in stones or woods or animals or trees or human beings. They can be prophets, wise men, learned men, kings, saints, or whoever. They are all dead. Only Jesus who sinless and live forever, He resurrected on the third day after He died for our sins. He Himself the image of invisible God, the radiance of God's glory and the exact representation of His being, sustaining all things by His powerful word (Hebrews 1:3).

God loves you and want you to be saved. Do not allow hypocrites and stumbling blocks in the church to hinder you from Kingdom of heaven. Your soul is precious. Heaven will rejoice everytime a soul repented. Take His yoke upon you and learn from Jesus for He is gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. His yoke is easy and His burden is light (Matthews 11:29-30). You can't go to heaven if you don't know the truth, if you don't know the way, if you don't know the author of life. And Jesus said "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me (John 14:6).

My non-Christian friends, we are all the same, we are all sinners need to be saved, we are going straight to hell, no one is righteous, not even one. We have sinned and fall short the glory of God (Romans 3:23). For that reason, Jesus came from heaven and died 2000 years ago for our salvation, to pay our death penalty, He exchanged His life, His precious blood with our eternal damnation. If you believe in Him with all your heart and surrender all to Him, He will give you Spirit of sonship, and by Him we cry "Abba, Father" (Romans 8:15).

If you read the Bible standard about who will inherit the kingdom of God, it seems impossible for mankind to overcome those things but Jesus said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible (Matthew 19:26)." For that reason we need help from God, we need His grace to be saved. We need God's Spirit inside us to enable us to walk in righteousness and holiness for the spirit is willing, but the body is weak (Matthew 26:41)." We need our nature to be changed, to be a new creation, to be born again and have Holy Spirit inside us, without Him, we will always fall. For that reason, we need Jesus in our life. If we believe by faith His resurrection power, that He died for us and raised up on the third day, that He is Son of God, the Word who became flesh, God Himself, God will pour out His Spirit to us and with Him, we can overcome the world, we are more than conquerors.

Read Bible, repent, asking His mercy and forgiveness, invite Him as personal Saviour and allow Him to rule over you, fully submitted to Him and your life will be full of noise, full of surprise, full of blessing, but also full of persecutions, especially from those hypocrites who are envy with you. "How can you be so holy, so righteous, so yada yada." They will not mock what you have said, but they will mock your personal. Do you know what to do? Bite your tongue and bless them.

My will is only this: that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father (Philippians 2:10-11). I want to see God' Spirit move among people like happened in the past that people can't stop confessing their sins and preaching the Gospel to all the nations. I want to see God conquer the world in these last final days. I want to see Restoration of the Church, Revival of the Church and Purification of the Church. I pray for the fire to come, whatever it costs. Persecution, great tribulations, etc. Let those unbelievers burn the churches where there is no Almighty God there, closed the Christian Bible studies where they teach false doctrines, banned churches that worship and teach another Gospel. But let God judge those unbelievers justly afterward.

I also pray for those unbelievers who try to prevent God's people to preach salvation and the Truth, their plans and devices will fail, they can't stop the Way of God. This is my prayers: God, remove all the hypocrites, all immoral brothers, all children of darkness from the churches, uses any means to do that and bring Your children who still lost out there, who are still confuse and do not know God, who are tired with the churches but hungry for the Truth. Let them find You and come to the true Church where God is the Head, not the pastors, elders, or groups of people. In Jesus' name, I prayed. Amen.

God bless you

Letter to Theist Friends (Why do you believe in God?)

Hi, my dear theist friends

I am glad that you believe that there is God because only a fool who says in his heart there is no God (Psalm 14:1). Lot of my atheist friends actually not a fool, but they chose to be a fool because of us. They see hypocrisy in us. We are wearing mask daily but keep saying that we love God even though our life testifies the opposite. We are the stumbling block for them. Let's examine ourselves: are we really believers or hypocrites?

My friends, I have a question for you: why do you believe in God? I have asked many people about this and many of them answer me "it is because I don't want to go to hell" "it is because I want to go to heaven"

I can somehow determine people's salvation from their answer. If they still saying "I don't want to go to hell" or "I want to go to heaven" they are most probably will go to hell. Why? Because they make "heaven" or "hell" as their idols and God is a jealous God and idolaters will not inherit kingdom of God. I am not playing God, but it is written.

1 Corinthians 6:9-10

Do you not know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor male prostitutes nor homosexual offenders nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.

Those who idolize "heaven" more than God Himself, those who have fear about "hell", they don't know God, they don't love God with all their heart, their soul and their mind. Why? Because they see God as an angry God and it is true only if you choose to be His enemies. So, my theist friends, your heart and your mind already testified about your salvation when you answer my question above: whether you are enemies of God or friends of God? If you still see God as an angry God, it means that you are still His enemies, no matter how good and righteous you are, you will always be His enemies. There are two reason why you still afraid of Him.

1. You are still wearing mask, you still serving two masters: God and mammon. You say in your mouth that you love God but in your heart you are far from Him. You continue living in sins, you are neither hot nor cold and because of that you are afraid of Him.
2. You still don't know the way, the truth and the life. You still looking for the Truth to satisfy your heart, to give you peace in your heart that your sins have been removed.

Do you know what the different between the true worshipping and fulfilling obligation?

If you still enemies of God, you will try to do good by your own might, you will help the poor because you are obligated to, you will follow Golden Rule to get points from God, you will go to temple or church or mosque because it is your obligation, because God demands it from you, you will try as best as you can, not to commit sins, you will make many commitments that last only for quite some time, you will follow tradition and sacrament in hope God is pleasing with you, you will go to sacred place in hope you will get more points, you will share about your faith with others because your Holy Book tell you to do that, you will fast to get more points, you will observing God's law carefully and said "this is sin, that is pagan, do not handle, do not touch, do not taste". You just want to collect points from your good deeds in hope that God is pleasing with you.

Don't you realize that you are having false humility and those kind of religious acts are based on human commands and teachings? Such regulations indeed have an appearance of wisdom, with their self-imposed worship, their false humility and their harsh treatment of the body, but they lack any value in restraining sensual indulgence.

Some of them will go to solitary place and exclude themselves from people because they want to live far from temptation, e.g: temple, monastery, nunnery, jungle, etc. Some of them choose not to eat some specific food not because of health reason, but because the holy book tell them to do so, e.g: cows, pigs, four-legs animal, etc. They are just fulfilling their obligation in hope God is not angry with them and in the end He will give them mercy. They are really zealous for their God. My theist friends, just be honest to your heart: are you not tired doing that obligation? How long you can continue doing that?

Now, let me tell you what the true worshipper will do. They will love God will all their heart, their mind and their soul, they will worship God with joy, happiness and laughter, even with their tears of joy, they will always want to listen to His Word written in His Holy Book by nature, they will go to fellowship because they know that God is there, ready to teach them more, they will share about God to others because they want others to have the same joy, they will not deliberately continue living in sins because it is in their nature, they will love others because God's love dwell in their heart, they will bless others even though they are persecuted, they will not selfish, greedy, and love of money, they will always want to share the blessing they have, they will not conform to any evil things, they will stand for the truth even they have to risk their life, they will defend the poor, help the needy and have compassion toward people, they will live in righteousness and holiness, they will be opened to everyone, always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres, they will overcome evil with good.

In short, they will love their God will all their heart, their soul, their mind, and their strength. And they will also love their neighbours as they love themselves. It is their nature. They don't work for it, God give them a new heart, new mind, new spirit and strengthen them by His grace through faith. It is Gift of God to those truth seekers and humble people.

How can that be possible? Jesus said, "With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God (Mark 10:27)." We will always fall and fail if we keep trying to do it by ourselves for it is not our nature. Our flesh is indeed weak, when temptation comes most of the time we will fall into it. We have sinful nature, we always want to do bad thing, to do evil thing, to satisfy our own flesh even though we know that there are lot of temptation and sins in it. We just can't do it. We know God's law is holy and His commandment is holy, righteous and good, we know everytime we transgress it, we commit sins before God, but we just can't help it. Deep inside us we know that God's Law is spiritual but we are unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin.

We do not understand what we do. For what we want to do, we don't do; but what we hate, we do. And if we do what we don't want to do, we agree that law is good. As it is, it is no longer we ourselves who do it, but it is sin living in us. We just know that nothing good lives in us, that is, in our sinful nature. For we have desire to do what is good, but we can't carry it out. For what we do is not the good we want to do; no, the evil we don't want to do---this we keep on doing (Romans 7:12-19).

If you feel exactly like that, there is a hope for you. Godly sorrow leads to repentance is now working inside you asking for help, asking how to be saved. My friends, God loves you and He doesn't want you to go to hell, you are fearfully and wonderfully made by Him. It is our sins that keep Him in hidden. God is Holy, Holy, Holy, He can't tolerate any sins, even just a little, small, tiny sin. For even though you keep the whole law and yet stumble at just one point is guilty of breaking all of it. We need His mercy to save us for we can't reach Him by ourselves. Mercy triumphs over judgment!

If you see our ancestors of old, they laid their hands on the head of goats, cows or sheep and put all of our guilts and sins to that goats, cows or sheep and let them die for our sins for without shedding of blood there is no forgiveness. Those animals are our atonement of sins. That's why in every religion, we have the shedding of blood for forgiveness (Hebrews 9:22).

But you tell me, after you transfer your guilt and sins to those animals, can you stop sinning? Will you not need to always present animal sacrifices every year? You know by yourself that you will always sin before God. For if we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us (1 John 1:8). God is just, He bound all men over to disobedience so that He may have mercy on them all (Romans 11:32). You are not the only one in this world who sin before Him, but all. There is no one righteous, not even one (Romans 3:10) for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God (Romans 3:23).

Now, don't you feel tired with your tradition, sacrament and religion? You keep doing it since you were child but your heart never be satisfied. And you always seek the truth for you salvation. My friends, God loves you. He wants you to be His children, not His enemies. He wants you to call Him "Abba, Father" that's why He sent His begotten Son, Jesus Christ to die on the cross, so that through His death, the shedding of blood for our forgiveness has been ransomed.

He is a sinless man and He is Son of God and He is God Himself. but He chose to take the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness, and being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself and became obedient to death --- even death on a cross (Philippians 2:6-8). He sacrificed His body once for all to justify our sins, to take away our sins and nail it to the cross. His blood is precious blood, He is our Lamb, He is Lamb of God. If you believe and put your faith in Him, that He has died for our sins and He resurrected, sit on the right hand of God. God will not only give you mercy, but grace.

He did it because He loves us all, His own creation. He knows that it is impossible for mankind to know the true salvation for God is Holy, Holy, Holy, but we are all sinner unless He came down from heaven above to this earth below in form of human likeness, born in Spirit. All the prophets testified about Him, "The virgin will be with child and will give birth to a son, and they will call Him Immanuel --- which means, "God with us" (Matthew 1:23). He is the Saviour of the world. He is the way, the truth and the life. No one can come to the Father, except through Him (John 14:6). He is the Word of God who became flesh. For in beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning.

If we believe in Him, we will not only receive God's forgiveness, but He will no more hide Himself from you. You will receive all the blessing that He has prepared for you since the beginning of the creation. Salvation is gift, Repentance is gift, gaith is Gift, God will not give them to you if you not draw closer to Him. If you are not humble yourselves to Him.

So my theist friends, Bible said, "submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and He will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and He will lift you up (James 4:7-10).

The word is near you, it is in your mouth and in your heart, that is, the word of faith we are proclaiming: That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you are confess and are saved (Romans 10:8-10).

Pray to Him, my friends. Go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you (Matthew 6:6). If you truly seek Him with all your heart and confess all of your sins to Him until your heart satisfy, something miraculously with start to happen inside you. River of living water will start to flow from your belly like electricity and flow swept all over your body and cleanse you. You will feel God's Presence. If you have not receive that, you are not finish confessing yet, you still hide something from Him. We are all naked in His eyes, He knows all about us, He is our Creator, He just wants us to be honest to Him.

And if you have struggled with your faith and God is satisfy with you. He will pour down His Holy Spirit, He will change your heart, from stony heart to heart of flesh, He will change your nature from sinful nature to godliness, He will renew your mind so that your freewill will work in accordance to His great will that He has predestined for you before the creation of the world. He will give you peace in your heart that you can't ask for more. You will wish you will die at that time, instead losing your salvation.

You will love your God will all your heart, your mind, your soul, and your strength, you will love your neighbours and you will be able to call Him "Abba, Father" and you will enjoy all the benefit of being children of God. Your chains will be broken. You are no more under yoke of sins.

Don't see those stumbling blocks in the churches. Many of them just confess that "Jesus is Lord" in their mouth while their heart is far from God. God will judge them more strictly for those people are hypocrites, they shut the kingdom of God in men's face. They themselves do not enter, not will let those who are trying to enter. Some of them travel over land and sea to win a single convert, and when he becomes one, they make him twice as much a son of hell as they are.

Don't let any people rob your salvation, my friends. Ask God's forgiveness and mercy with all your heart and confess it with your mouth, pray to Him and He will make you whole, He will give you Gift of God and grace. Your body will be His temple, God will dwell inside you. You will always full of love, faith and hope. Please, if you are tired doing ceremonial religion tradition, go to your room and pray, wrestle with Him until He bless you and pour out His Spirit. Before you receive that, you will always be the enemies of God.

"Today, if you hear His voice, do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebeliion (Hebrews 3:15). Surrender all, be reconcile with God through Jesus Christ that has died for you on the cross and resurrected again. And through His power of resurrection, you have hope about tomorrow, that you have overcomed your death, your flesh, your sinful nature. May the Lord give you burden in your heart to confess your sins.

I know some of you will think that this is stupid and full of foolishness. I am so sad for your soul. For since today, when you hear His voice but you chose to harden your heart, He will harden more and more. He will send you powerful delusion so that you will only believe in lie and all will be condemned because you refuse the truth (1 Thessalonians 2:11-12).

1 Corinthians 1:18

For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God.

Now, I am looking forward for you to answer my question: "Why do you believe in God?" God bless you

Letter to my atheist friends (Science = Art of Lies)

Hi, my dear atheist friends

I, personally adore you who can say boldly with such a great faith, "God doesn't exist. I don't believe in God". I was an atheist too but it only lasted for quite sometimes because I can't neglect my own existance. I have reasoned one way after another and used my own logic to deny God's presence, but I just can't. I always came to the point that Somebody must have created me. I just can't believe that my ancestor came from rock or lightning or whatever.

I really want to ask the reason why you choose to believe and put your faith on the result of experiments (big bang, evolution, abiogenesis, etc) done hundred years ago when there was no computer, no microscope electron and no incubator available? Do you know that in this age of technology there are many new discoveries have been made to refute the previous ones?

The increasing of knowledge and technologies allow people to have more access to do their own researches and publish their papers which somehow make science becoming more unreliable. One group will refute the others and they think they are right, others are wrong. You can just go to scientist forum and you will see many scientists involve in debate. For example: if you believe in "abiogenesis" then you will not support "biogenesis" and till cows come home you will never find agreement because it talks about faith, about belief. Now if you are not a scientist and never do your own experiments but you believe so much on someone's hypothesis, you are such a brave man, especially since we are saturated with unreliable "scientific" journal.

I am an engineer myself. I used to read lot of chemical journals and many of them are full of manipulated data. There are lot of unproduceable experiments and if I use them to build the industrial pilot plant, 99.99% it will blow up. They are published by unknown authors, some of them want to be famous and earn money from patents, some of them are master students or PhD students who need to hand in the result under some specific time, they are forced to do that otherwise their work will be counted failed, some of them are just want to make people confused. People have different reason and intention in publishing their own papers.

You should ask for proof and evidence, my friends. Do not just follow the crowd. Just learn from history when Copernicus opposed all people in 15th century that the sun is the center of our solar system and the shape of sun, moon, and the earth is round like ball. The crowd think that Copernicus was crazy. But you know exactly who is right: Copernicus or the crowd? The same thing happen with most of us, we believe so much that big bang, evolution, abiogenesis, etc are valid and reliable just because it is written in our elementary school and taught all over the world, but we ourselves never tested them on our own, just follow the crowd.

What will happen if you chose the wrong theories? Especially when it talks about God's eternal judgment, heaven or hell. Would you dare to risk your eternity? What if there is afterlife? Do you sincerely believe that God does not really exist? If you do, for this reason I admire your great faith. And if you have that strong faith, would you allow me to test your faith? Let's reason together and check whether you put your faith on rock or sand, my friends.

Let's start. I believe that you choose to have faith in "abiogenesis", in the "big bang theory", in the "origin of life" which say that the life happened when the lightning struck the atmosphere consist primary of CH4, NH3, H2O, H2S, CO2, CO, and PO4 and fell into primordial soup and reproduced themselves there. Have you ever checked the reliability of those experiments and theories?

My friends, it doesn't need a genius to know from our organic chemistry lesson that C, H, O, N, P, S and halogen can form functional group and our DNA, genes, cells, etc consist of these groups. These elements will form the body of biomolecules. Those who proposed this theory would always right when they say that these atoms can form biomolecules.

But they had too much wine and got drunk when they think that the atmosphere consists mostly of CH4, NH3, H2O. Why don't you just open your high school chemical book and you will know that earth's atmosphere contains roughly (%mole) 78% N2, 20% O2, 0.25%, H2O, 0.93% Ar, 0.04% CO2, and traces of H2. N2 is inert gas (can't react) so without reaction, nothing happened. No life can occur. They boldly said that life came when lightning struck these elements. Again, the reason they said that is because lightning struck is needed for energy and the primordial soup is needed for food. So body, energy and food = living creature. I can also make another theories who involve these three important things if I want too.

So my friends, why don't you ask them "where are those CH4, NH3 and H2O which they claimed to be the most in the atmosphere?" Don't be surprise if the answer you will get is: the atmosphere in 3.0 billion years ago was different. Why don't you ask them "Were you there so that you can know, were somebody in this earth 3 billion years ago?" If you are still not convinced, why don't you prove those theories by yourself with our advanced equipments? I believe you will never get even the most primitive single cell from your experiments. If you can make even the simplest living creature from nothing, it means you are God. I will worship you, my friends. But if you can't prove it, would you believe that there is God? Don't worry. I will not force you, let us continue reasoning.

Do you know what the scientists did to justify their discovery? They used the time that nobody can prove by saying the big bang happened 20 billion years ago, and our earth is in existance 4.6 billion years ago, the first primitive life existed in the earth 3 billion years ago. Their basic assumptions is: this first living cell can reproduce themselves, they need food to grow and one way or the other, mutation can occur. But don't ask them why these assumptions are valid, for they themselves can't answer it.

Again, it doesn't need a genius to figure these out.

• Because of reproduction: the next generation can appear and it continue until we have about 6.76 billion of people (estimation January 2009)
• Because of food: increasing growth is possible, from the single cell to double cells and it continue until it is about 10 trillion cells in average human adult body.
• Because of mutation: cells can change from protozoa to all those invertebrata's ordo and species and from them to fish, from fish to amphibi, from amphibi to reptile, from reptile to aves and mamals and from apes to human.

With these prerequirements and the assumptions, they think that they are now able to deny God's presence. So, my atheist friends, please don't be angry with me if I tell you that your ancestors are apes. You are the grandchildren of apes. Here is your ancestor. Does he look like you? See your face on the mirror, you should be angry with Charles Darwin, not me.

Actually, the lies can't stand and it is not difficult to refute evolution or big bang or abiogenesis theory by mathematical equations or physic. Do you know second law thermodynamic? The entropy will go to infinity, ΔS>0 which simply means the system has great tendency to go to chaotic state instead of perfection. Just use our daily life, it is easy to scatter all things rather than to collect and bind them together, is it not? It need an extra tidy works so called energy to bond and hold them together.

So you tell how can it be possible to make all the chaotic things in this universe work in order? The Big Bang theory is nonsense because they believe in perfection, instead of chaotic. It is impossible because it was void in the beginning, no sun or whatever as source of energy. How can two stars hit each other without energy? And who created those big stars?

Again, let's simple daily life if two cars are parking, without movement and driving force, will they join together? Of course not, right? At least somebody enter one car or two people enter each car and hit the accelerator pedal toward one another and BOOM, two become one. It needs energy from accelerator pedal, from combustion of oil to works for it is impossible for two become one without energy. So, you tell me how can it possible for two stars that separate far far away to hit each other without great driving force? Bible clearly answer it.

Colossians 1:15-17

He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together

Now about evolution theory, the same reasoning is used. It is our nature that it is easier to be chaotic than to work in harmony. How can mitochondria, nucleus, DNA, RNA, chromosom, golgy body, ribosom, lysosom, or whatever work in harmony if the nature teach us otherwise? Somebody must have put them together again. Just see this video and tell me is the primitive cell really primitive or our brain is to small and tiny to understand Somebody's wisdom?

"But, Alvin. We have lot of data that say the world is 4.3 billion years old. We have fossils, ancient rocks or plants or whatever and the experimental result showed us that from C14 isotope trace we can predict the age of the earth. Your Bible said the world is about 6000 years old only, that can't be. It is too young".

About the fossil, we can't argue that dinosaurs were really existed, but about when they existed, you need to ask first about the method of the experiments, are they valid or not? Let's use again our daily life, why don't you bring bones of your dead dog which died couple months ago and tested them with C14 isotope. And don't be surprise when you get the result that the age of your dog was 10000 years. My friends, you need to prove all things; hold fast that which is good (1 Thessalonians 5:21).

"Alvin, I have one final question for you. If you believe that everything created by God, who created God then?" The only answer I could give, do you know the first law of thermodynamic? What will you answer if your physic teacher ask you? If you answered "Energy can't be created nor destroyed", I believe you will get 100 point. And why you can believe such a theory but deny God who can't be created nor destroyed. He is the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. All things are created by Him. He is the source of energy, source of life. He is Almighty God.

Somebody must have created us, somebody must maintain this world to be perfectly work in harmony. Sun rises and sets everyday, season come and season go, flowers blossom and die, animals born, reproduce themselves and die and so is it with human. Our DNA, genes, cells work in comformity. If there is no God the world will always be in void, no life at all. And assuming that the world exist by itself, but still without God the world will always be in chaotic manner. It is God's Presence that makes them hold together in perfect state. The reason the world is fallen, wicked, evil like this is because of sins, men rebel against God, they want to be gods (little gods) for themselves.

My atheist friends, do you know Jesus? Either you believe that he is God or just a man, but He is indeed a perfect man, is He not? Just imagine if every Christian who says that he loves Jesus start acting like Jesus, will the world not in peace? The reason you can't acknowledge Him as God because the kingdom of heaven hasn't been given to you yet, but godly sorrow leads to repetance can work even right now inside your heart, wanting you to confess your sins and beg for mercy, but on the other hand, some people will despise this message of cross as foolishness. I am sorry for those people for they are perishing, even when they are still living.

1 Corinthians 1:18

For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God.

There are only 3 reasons why you are an atheist:

1. You never heard about God at all for nobody preach to you or you are the product of communism world who teach that there is no God.
2. You hate this world, you hate the hypocrisy of religious people who said they love God (Christians, moslems, hindus, budhist, etc) but their life is even worse than yours. You blame God for all the bad things that happen in this world, poverty, famine, war, etc. You want to have love, peace and joy, but can't.
3. You like to live in sins, you enjoy dwell there and continue sinning, but something inside your heart always disturb you, you know it is God who works through your heart and your conciousness bear witness about God's Law and your thought accusing you. And because of that accusation, that guilt, you declared "God doesn't exist", just to kill that condemnation inside you so you can enjoy living in sins forever. Bible teach me to hand you over to Satan, let Satan ruin your life even more until you are tired and start looking for God and probably you will be saved.

No matter what category you are into, the truth is: you are walking straight to hell. For even demons believe that there is one God, they even shudder (James 2:19). But how can you boldly say "I don't believe that there is God. God doesn't exist." Are you more wicked that the demons themselves? If God has prepared lake of fire for demons and their children, will you join them?

If you are evil, wicked man, you have nothing to lose, but if you are good, helpful, nice atheists who tired of this world and hate the people around you who are all liars and hypocrites, you do not deserve to be in hell just because you see "stumbling blocks" sitting in the church. They are the ones who suppose to be in hell, but not you.

God will even use you greatly to change that situation around you, to make those "christians" start behaving like Jesus. I tell you the truth. If you see "Christians" with these kind of sinful nature, go straight to them and say that they are stumbling block, they will not inherit the kingdom of God. You will be a good preacher of righteousness, but you will also be a hypocrite if you yourself haven't repented first.

Galatians 5:19-21

The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.

The more you hate the world and hate your life, the more you will be used greatly by God. What you need to do is to repent and confess all of your sins and have faith that God is exist and has sent His begotten Son, Jesus Christ to save the world and surrender all, let Jesus reign in your life.

Whether you believe or not, God is indeed exist. And He will judge you justly and when the time comes you can't argue with Him, you can't reason with Him, heaven or hell is already decided at that time, you have chance only during your lifetime, but God is great, He gives human freewill. You have your own freewill, you have wisdom, you have everything to determine your eternity, just be wise.

And to those whose heart is hard, who think that God has made mistakes and He is sleeping when He allows this world like this, let me tell you something. It is not my business to beg you to believe in God, but why don't you see Jesus' life? He also wants the people in the world to start loving their neighbours, to give than to receive, to bless than to curse, to love than to hate. But the world rejected Him, they even hang Him on the cross just because He speaks the Truth, He wants people to live righteous and holy. It is not God's will that the world is like this, God is Holy, Holy, Holy, He hates evil. It is our sins, it is our rebellious acts who want to be gods (little gods) that make this world like this.

God is not sleeping nor slumber, He is patient with us, imagine if He already destroyed this world, where will you be if heaven and hell exist? But don't worry, whether you believe God or not, this world will be destroyed with fire soon. You will no longer see this world soon.

Go and read the Bible and learn more about God, don't go to mega-churches for there are full of hypocrites. The bigger the church, the more the hypocrites. Why? Because Bible said, "for the time will come when men will not put up with sound doctrine. Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear (2 Timothy 4:3). They are lukewarm, hypocrite, serving 2 master, living in sins "Christians". They are glamour, wear sexy suit and jewellery, trusting money more than God, love their dogs more their fellow brothers. They are no different with Hollywood. You will despise God even more if you go there.

Bible also said about Jesus' true followers, "Then you will be handed over to be persecuted and put to death, and you will be hated by all nations because of me (Matthews 24:9) In fact, everyone who wants to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted

(2 Timothy 3:12). So, if you see missionaries going from one place to another, preaching about Jesus, even though they are stoned, persecuted, but still, they refuse to cease, you better learn from them, not from big, mega churches pastors whose god is in their belly and devour even the widow and weak willed people.

Be careful in choosing the church, my beloved friends: when they teach Jesus is not God, like mormon or Jehovah witnesses, or teach sacrament and tradition for salvation like Roman Catholic Church, or teach observing law like Judaism, Zionism, etc, you better stay as an "atheist" and read Bible and ask God to teach you. You will be atheist who believe in God. ^_^ Go to church where you can see true love, divine love, unity of believers, and God is their Head, though it is difficult to find, but there are still remnant of them.

If you sincerely repent and surrender all, have faith in Him, He will teach you and direct your path. Your soul is precious. You are fearfully and wonderfully made by God. Read your Bible and if you are willing to see a better world, show Galatians 5:19-21 to those stumbling blocks in the church who has made you go against God all this time. Don't let any man steal salvation from you and push you to hell. God bless you

This is my story

This is about my life until this time that I tried to put it into one article. Some people will not have interest on it, some people will just try to find my mistakes to shoot me down, some people are indeed willing to know more about me, and some people will mock me even more. Just feel free to do whatever you like, but I tell you the truth, I don't have time to reply mockery and comments from people who just want to find my mistakes. I also want to encourage you to ask first people's testimony of born again before you read and learn from them for if they don't have Holy Spirit, their teachings will be full of poison and you will get more confusion than understanding. You will put your eternity in danger because you follow wrong people.

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My friends, I want to share with you a little more about me, about the person who always disturb you with his weighty and forceful articles. I want my life to be an open book, without dark secret or hypocrisy.

About my background

I am Indonesian and was born in Christian family 25 years ago. I am now in Germany and have been here since October 2006. Like other people, the reason I came here is to pursuit a better life abroad. I wanted to change my future, I wanted to be rich, to be comfy and I wanted to escape Christian persecutions in Indonesia.

I used Chemical Engineering as my tool to pursue a better future. Through it, I got admission from TU Dortmund, Germany and since that time my adventure began. The journey that I never dreamed about, even in my wildest dreams. Now I have finished my Master degree and I have opportunity to get what I want and to be comfy with 2000€/month salary.

About my spiritual life

Since I was a child I was so thirsty about God, I always disturbed my parents, pastors, friends with questions about God and nobody could satisfy me. I have visited many churches and denominations to find God but I couldn't find Him. I read my Bible but I couldn't understand, I prayed but my prayers always stuck on the roof, I also didn't enjoy singing and worshipping God, my body was too lazy for that, but still deep down in my heart, I was so hungry for the truth.

The preachers of the churches I visited always told me that heaven is for me, that I have a blessed assurance that Jesus has paid the price for me by becoming my substitute of sins, no matter how I sinned before God after my conversion, Jesus will justify it in the end. Once saved forever saved.

To some of you who are like I was. Please read this verse:

1 John 3:9

No one who is born of God will continue to sin, because God's seed remains in him; he cannot go on sinning, because he has been born of God.

The churches taught me that what I need to do is just to pray a simple prayer by repeating what the pastor said and then he shoke my hand and hugged me with joy "Welcome to the kingdom of God, you are now child of God". He told me that I should keep my faith and start doing good deeds by following sacraments and traditions of the church, being active member, paying tithe and offering and living my Christian life well (reading Bible daily, praying, having fellowship) to repay God for His goodness. These deeds felt like obligation to me, not because of my nature has changed.

To some of you who are like I was. Please read this verse:

Matthew 7:21-23

"Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. Many will say to me on that day, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?' Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!'

Because of church doctrines, I did sincerely believe that I was saved and I will go to heaven when I died. Though I never read Bible and I continued living in sins, Jesus has paid the price for me. So when the people came to me and told me that I was a sinner, I will quote Matthew 7:1-2. "Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you." Those are indeed the good verses to shut the mouth of people who sincerely love me and want me to be saved. I had itching ears and I was a self-righteous man. I hated to be rebuked, to be critized, I was easily offended by people who talk about Jesus.

Devil has blinded my eyes, devil in me will start to react everytime I saw true child of God came to me. "Here comes the saint, the holy man, the fanatic. He will talk about Jesus again, let's run and hide." I lived in darkness but still thinking that I was fine, I was okay, I was child of light. I was deceiving myself.

To some of you who are like I was. Please read these verses:

Hebrews 10:26-27

If we deliberately keep on sinning after we have received the knowledge of the truth, no sacrifice for sins is left, but only a fearful expectation of judgment and of raging fire that will consume the enemies of God

Galatians 5:19-21

The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God

But thank be to God. In my heart something always disturbed me when I was sinning, it always condemned me by saying "You are not saved, you are a sinner, you are going straight to hell, you need to repent" but doctrines of the "church" always rebuked me when I was thinking like that. It says that by doubting my eternity, my salvation, I don't believe God and I don't have faith that Jesus' sacrifice is enough and His grace is sufficient, etc. They said that my faith is futile if I did that.

Doctrines + faith = closed system. When doctrines failed you, faith plays great role, when faith failed you, doctrines play great role. I have no deep conviction that Holy Spirit was in me, I was having form of godliness but denying its power. When people ask me, "Where is the kingdom of God?" I would automatically answered "In my heart", but I can't feel it. I was no different with other unbelievers or my life even worse than them.

To some of you who are like I was. Please read these verses:

1 Thessalonians 1:5

because our gospel came to you not simply with words, but also with power, with the Holy Spirit and with deep conviction.

James 1:22-23

Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like

And I also saw many hypocrites in the churches, who always talk about Jesus, but their life testified the opposite, but still, they kept preaching as "stumbling block". They are proud to be "predestined" to be saved, to be called before the beginning of world. They are just a happy, hypocrite Christians. "God is our Father, God is good all the time, etc". They misused the benefit of being genuine children of God and applied them all to themselves, the hypocrites. I was tired of these people, of these hyporitical liars and in fact no less than 75% people in the church are like that. And I was one of them.

To some of you who are like I was. Please read these verses:

Matthew 22:14

For many are called, but few are chosen

1 John 2:4

The man who says, "I know him," but does not do what he commands is a liar, and the truth is not in him.

1 John 4:20

If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen.

They don't care about those who are unsaved, those non-believers, they never preached, never show their faith, they continue living in sins and still they are happy, joyful Christians, who say that they love God just in their mouth, but in their heart, they are far from Him. There are good people, very nice and very helpful, they follow the Golden Rule "do to others what you want others to do to you", but they are selfish about their salvation. They want to go to "heaven" alone. They don't care about other people's salvation. Most of them have tax collector's love, they love those who love them, they respect those who respect them, but they despise the poor and the needy. And I was part of those hypocrites.

They choose to stay in quietness behind the corridor of religion tolerance, maintain "peace", they keep their "Jesus" for themselves. Everyday they interact with people, with unbelievers, but they choose to tell dirty jokes instead talking that Jesus loves them and want them to be saved. The true reason they don't preach is because they are afraid of being persecuted, afraid of losing friends, afraid of being mocked, they choose to conform to the world, to worship the evil spirits in the high places, but still, they say that "God is my Father, I am child of God". They boast so much about their flesh, their understanding in doctrines and theologies, or whatever, but nobody can see Jesus in their life. And I was one of them.

To some of you who are like I was. Please read these verses:

Luke 9:23

Then he said to them all: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me.

John 15:13

Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.

Until it came to a time where I was tired of myself and those people then I chose to be an atheist. My thought toward God was: God is a tyrant, crazy respect guy, etc. He makes some of the people to be His object of wrath and others to be object of blessing. Why He needed to create this world if He already appointed men to heaven or hell in the first place? This world will just be a drama if God already determined the output. I became the product of doctrines of the church, product of "the Christian" as religion, not as the way of life.

To some of you who are like I was. Please read these verses:

John 3:16

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life

2 Peter 3:9

The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance

John 5:17

Jesus said to them, "My Father is always at his work to this very day, and I, too, am working."

Some of my friends choose to deceive themselves by being a happy, joyful Christians forever and hates correction and rebuke, but I chose to be an atheist if the true Gospel is like that. Thank be to God, those gospels are half-truth gospels, they have some truth but they neglect other Bible verses. It will only satisfy those who have itching ears, who are now "born again" and think that "heaven" is theirs. They are happy when God has chosen them and He will protect their salvation. They think that It is God's business to keep us safe till the end and when the judgment day come and they are sent to hell, they will blame God as a liar.

Is "carry your cross, deny yourself, come and follow me" a choice or an forceful act from God? Do mankind have no freewill? They love "predestined" teaching that God will save them and destroy all the unbelievers, just because they have faith without deeds, and others have deeds without faith. The deeds that Bible always mention is love, not doing sacrament or traditions of the church, not observing law, but love God with all our heart, our mind, our soul and love our neighbours.

Galatians 5:6

For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision nor uncircumcision has any value. The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love.

I reasoned, if all of those people who have faith alone in Jesus, but have no love, will be saved and enter the kingdom of God, 2.1 billions of people will be there, what the difference between heaven, the holy place and the earth, the fallen world? Even the hollywood, porn stars or everyone who keep sinning can enter heaven just because once in their lifetime they said the sinner prayer and because of that prayer, they have transferred all the guilt of their sinful acts to Jesus.

They make Jesus as their servant, as their scapegoat. That "jesus" is so poor and need to be pitied, that "god" is unfair, he judged the ancient world and destroyed them all and saved only eight people, but now he saved 2.1 billions of "christians". Something wrong with those doctrines of Bible. Bible always says that God is unchanging God, that only a remnant will be saved, that many are called but few are chosen. We need to strive to enter that narrow gate. Only those who walk like Jesus, who carry their own cross daily, who live in righteousness and holiness, who deny themselves again and again, who left all things behind and follow Christ and hate his own life will be saved. Praise the Lord for His justice.

But these people crucify Jesus on the cross again and again. Monday-Saturday, they sin before God, Sunday they confess their sins and happy again, they do this until they die. The churches misquoted the Bible for their own justification. They never teach people about sins, hell, judgment, etc because they are afraid of losing flocks, losing their income, etc.They just want to satisfy people's itching ears. They will fall into the hand of angry God. Thank be to God, I have come out from that religious institution that full of hypocrisies and I know the true Gospel of Christ that heaven is only for the chosen ones, who really give their life for Christ, not for mediocres or hypocrites. The more I read Bible, the more I chose not to be the big fans of the church. I chose to have practical fruits of Spirit and if possible avoid teaching about doctrinal issue, but learn from daily walk with Christ and from my Bible.

The churches are messed up. I find it is very difficult to find the true church where God dwells inside and I believe that it can't be in those mega-churches for Bible said that in the last days people will gather for themselves false teachers and false prophets to satisfy their itching ears and many will be deceived by them and the true believers will be persecuted, mocked, even sincerely killed by people who think that they are offering sacrifice to God. The true born again Christians will be called "heretic" if the continue preaching about Jesus in the Bible, if they keep telling those who sinned against God to be in danger of hell. But on the other hand, those who preach another "jesus" will be called man of God, servant of God, yippie kay yay...

My past

As a young child, I went to Sunday school diligently, I loved to hear the Bible stories and believe in everything my teachers told me. I was so innocent and pure but with time, my logic started to develop and my flesh started to ask for satisfication. My life was becoming worse and worse and because of my heart always condemning me and the churches always said that "I am saved, I am child of God", I started to think that religion is the opium of people and I am still thinking the same even until now. Religious system are the beast and it was riden by a woman through her Ecumenical movement, her adulterous acts. This woman is a city who sits on seven hills in Rome, the great whore of Babylon (Revelation 17).

I committed many sins, especially behind my closing door. I watched porn, masturbated, told dirty jokes, lied to my parents, stole from them and I had girlfriends and continued committing sins. People will see me as good person, good Christian because I wore my mask very well. I could hide my dark secret closely and it was just between me and God.

But still, deep down in my heart, I was looking for God. Even though in my heart I was an atheist, I still went to the church, just to satisfy my parents for they always forced me to the church. I was also tired going to the pulpit for altar call when messages rebuked me. I moved forward more than 3 times and accepted Jesus as my Saviour again and again. I just know that I was a sinner and needed to be saved, but I can't fight my flesh, my sinful nature. I always fall away and continued sinning. At that time I just wanted to be saved but I didn't want to surrender all. Jesus was my Saviour but not my King. I was the king of myself. From that experience I knew that even though the people gave 99.9999% for God and 0.0001% for themselves, they are still not yet child of God. He wants all of our heart and our life.

If I see my past, I pity my atheist and non-believer friends. They are absolutely right, there are lot of hypocrites and stumbling blocks in the churches and those who sit on Moses' seat are hungry for money, for power, for applauses, for their god is in their belly. I just couldn't see when I was part of them, I was blind but now I see. The churches need to be purified from all of those hypocrites and stumbling blocks. Many people chose to be enemies of God not because they hate God, but because Christians churches are full of hypocrites and stumbling block.

My encounter with God

When I first arrived in Germany, the life was so difficult, I was not used to live alone, without parents and friends. The life here was totally new, I had culture shock and missed my home a lot. My heart started asking about God again and I started needing His help again, I started to go to the church even though I could not understand the language. I was ao thirsty to know Him again. I started reading my Bible, the thing that I never did before. And God saw my heart. Praise the Lord.

One day I met my college and he preached about Jesus that made godly sorrow lead to repentance arose in my heart. He invited me to come to fellowship on Sunday. I thank God for that. God has not given up on me. During the fellowship I gave my life to Christ. I began to love reading Bible, to go to fellowship, to pray, etc.

Ít took me 6 months struggling of faith before I got confirmation from God Himself. I was in the retreat in Italy, God came to me and touched my heart. I was broken for I could feel His presence, it was so good, it was so marvelous and I wanted to dwell in that mood forever. He satisfied my thirst with river of the living water, something started to flow from my belly like electricity and filled my whole body, I could feel that my body burned. At that day I began to commit my life to Him more than before, I said "Be it unto me according to Your will, God". And at that time, He gave me vision, purpose of my life, He wanted me to go back to Indonesia and preach about His kingdom.

I said to Him, "God, do You really want me to go back to Indonesia? You don't want me to go for mission impossible, right? You don't want me to look for death by confronting people to repent toward God and have faith toward Jesus Christ, right? God, You alone know the situation in my country, I want to escape from that, but now You send me back. We are the biggest moslems country in the world, many churches are closed down everyday, we can't preach in public and talk to those who already have their own belief about Jesus but now you want me to be boldly preach about You, You want me to die young, God."

I still reasoning with Him, "And not only that, God. The churches are messed up. I learned from my past when I travelled from one church to others, most of them teach doctrines, not Gospel, even when they teach gospel, they teach another gospels, Prosperity Gospel and New Age Gospel, not Jesus Christ is the way, the truth and the life. No one can come to the Father, except through Him (John 14:6), not "seek you first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added to you (Matthew 6:33)". They make the salvation is wide opened, even the wicked, the evildoers will go to heaven because Jesus has died for them. Jesus' blood was so cheap, just by repeatly saying a prayer of repentance, we are all now children of God. Now you want me to oppose those pastors, preachers and those who sit on Moses' seat. You are indeed want me to commit suicide".

I kept asking Him, "Why me, God? I am engineer, not preacher, I want to have comfy life, not be persecuted, I want to live long, not die young. I want to have family and be happy, what if when I married and You sent me to dangerous place and my wife will say "My husband, do you want me to be a widow in this young age?" Should I say to her, "Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the things of God, but the things of men?" God, I am a normal guy, I have flesh desire, I am tempted in many ways, You alone knows my past, I was addicted to porn and masturbation, now it would be very difficult for me to find a wife who is willing to support my mission. I am ruined, I am a dead meat."

I was afraid, I told Him all my worries: about persecution, about comfort life, about wife, famiily and ask Him what should I do, etc. And He answered me directly. He gave me Scripture from 1 Chronicles 16 and Ephesians 5:22-33.

About my future: Bible said, "He remembers his covenant forever, the word he commanded, for a thousand generations, the covenant he made with Abraham, the oath he swore to Isaac. He confirmed it to Jacob as a decree, to Israel as an everlasting covenant: "To you I will give the land of Canaan as the portion you will inherit (1 Chronicles 16:15-18)."

About persecution: Bible said, "He allowed no man to oppress them; for their sake he rebuked kings: "Do not touch my anointed ones; do my prophets no harm (1 Chronicles 16:21-22)." I will not die until I finish my mission and fully satisfied and ready to see the Lord.

About my task: Bible said, "Declare his glory among the nations, his marvelous deeds among all peoples (1 Chronicles 16:24)" and also "Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word, and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless (Ephesians 5:25-27). God wants me to preach to unbelievers and also purify His church and prepare for His second coming.

After that day, I was totally changed and became a new person, my ambition, my selfishness, my pleasure were all changed, renewal of my mind started to happen in me. Since that day, my freewill worked in parallel with what God has predestined about me before the creation of the world. I surrender all, I allowed Him to have free course in me.

My preparation

I got confirmation from God and received Holy Ghost Baptism on 28 October 2007 and since that day, He trained me with solid food. He allowed the devil to cause great problems to my family back in Indonesia. Within one day, all our properties were taken away by the bank. Our house, our car, our bank deposit, everything.

My father was a bank manager, he has worked for 32 years and one day, his bank was robbed by insider, his vice manager took about $400000 from the bank and put it into some projects and he was cheated and suffered loss, the money were all gone. The owner of the back demanded my father's responsibility and not only that, he was accused to be involved.

I just know that God has something through this situation. My father is in prison now, he has been there for more than 5 months, my family live only by grace of God, but I rejoice that through this situation, my faith is growing, my family is purified.

Once my father almost commited suicide because the burden he had, God delivered him, my mother was seriously ill, God healed her, my parents thought about divorce, God made them solid and unseparated, my sister missed her thesis defence because the day of her presentation was just after she heard the bad news and her heart was down, but God touched her supervisor's heart and she is now working well, my brother had problem in his study and 99% he had to stay in the same level from another year, but God gave him wisdom and he passed the final exam with good grade and his grade was sound and fine. My life in Germany was only by His grace, I working while studying. And during my thesis I got scholarship, somebody just come to me and offer help. Even though my bank account is never more than enough, but God knows how to provide me.

If you know me since May 2007, the first time I published my article, don't be surprise if you notice how often I wrote articles while I need to work, to study and do my thesis, and to preach while my family is in trouble and my father in prison and the police and the court are troublesome. It is not about me, but God in my life.

This one last year is just for my preparation, I have not even started. My spiritual battlefield is in Indonesia. I write articles to teach myself, it is my best way to learn from God and I thought I should share them with people. If you think I don't teach myself, I will not argue with you, but I would like to invite you to come and see my life.

My ministry

My mission is not an easy task but I have been doing it faithfully. I challenged RCC about their Holy Father, Pope as antichrist and their "mother and child worship" as paganism teaching, I challenged them to prove me from Bible about purgatory, celibacy, pray to and for the dead, confessing sin to priest and be forgiven by them, etc.

Who is the Pope so that he can define 7 new sins, is he not playing God? If you have wisdom, translate his title VICARIVS FILII DEI to latin number and you will find 666. (I = 1, V = 5, C = 100, L = 50 and D = 500, other than that is 0). And see this inverted cross sign, antichrist symbol.

God allowed me to go deep into Catholicism and I offended so many of them. Though my intention was to go against that institution, that office of papacy, that antichrist church, but many people just can't differenciate between "doctrines+faith" and "true salvation". I just see my past when many of them mocked me and kicked me out from their contacts. They don't understand, their eyes are still blind. I just believe that the seed that I have sown, will not go wasted.

But some of those who have make oath to their Holy Church who worship Queen of Heaven, Mother of God, the Jesuit Order started to make havoc and condemn me. Do I conform? Conform to where? Do you think it is my will to die young? God give me great burden in my heart about them. But if I say, "I will not mention him or speak any more in his name," his word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot (Jeremiah 20:9). There was a time I was afraid and weary, I almost gave up, I spent hours writing one articles but the result is mockery and persecution.

I also challenged those hypocrites who sit on seat of Moses in the "Christian" churches as "super-apostles" not to lord over their flocks but to serve them, not to satisfy what people's itching ears want to hear, but to speak the Word of God. And to those "Christians" to show their faith with love, help the poor, defend the weak, stand for the truth, even they have to lose their life. I also received many rejection from my own friends, the friends I played with, the close friends, even my girlfriend. They disowned me. Will I conform? Conform to where? Jesus alone who has the words of eternal life. I believe and know that He is the Holy One of God.

I also challenged moslems to know more about Jesus and start asking questions about Muhammad, is he really the prophet of God when all the prophets in Old testament were the Jews, how can someone from Arab claimed that he was even the greatest? If God is everywhere, why they must face the direction of Kaaba for praying? Why God can make a mistake when He sent His angel to ask illiterate man to read, the angel even choke him anf force him to read. God knows everything and His presence filled the universe, so why this prophet teach otherwise? They through the spirit of Jihad want to make their religion the biggest in the world, should I run for my life? Run to where? Jesus teaches me to bless those who persecuted me, to forgive them because they don't know what they are doing, to love my enemies.

I challenged atheist and those who worship idols to know the true and living God, Almighty God, I used wisdom, logic, reasoning, etc just to win them to Christ. If they are who created God, I ask them about the first law of thermodynamic: energy can't be created and can't be created nor destroyed. If they believe in that law, why they can't believe in God?

I challenged those who believe in reincarnation, which says that the bad guy will become animals or plants and the good guy will increase their status in the afterlife. See the world, the world is getting wicked but there are more people than before. The world should lose its mankind population and animals and plants population should increase in this time for all the bad guys transform to animals or plants.

I challenged those who worship idols and ask them if somebody bring axe or baseball stick and destroy their "woody", "stony" or "goldly" idols, who will be angry, those "woody" "stony" "goldly" gods or their followers? Why people need to defend gods who can't even defend themselves? If they can't defend themselves, how can they answer your prayers? how can they save your soul from hell?

Will the people not hate me? You know by yourself that faith is sensitive issue, people can sincerely kill somebody who offend them so much. As I said again and again, I have been bought by the precious blood, my heart is already fully satisfied and if I chose to be selfish, to die is gain. I will not argue with God if somebody handcuffed me, stoned me, or even beheaded me. Though I am a human being, who have fear, but fear is spirit, and it is not from God, worry is sin, I believe that I will not die until my mission has finished and when the time is coming, He will strengthen me. Maybe God has prophecied about me when I even has not saved yet. I have been baptized and my baptism name is Stephen, the first martyr. Actually I want to see Jesus come with my own eyes, not when I have already fell asleep. But can I choose my death?

I don't care about religion tolerance for I love everybody and want them to be saved, to know the truth and be set free. Religion, sacrament, tradition, idols can't save us, but God alone through His begotten Son, Jesus Christ, the Word who became flesh, God Himself.

My new life

My life is now full of noise. I am happy for that. This life is no more boring. I have been called "heretic" "children of darkness" "false teacher" "false prophet" "fool" "fanatic". I care less about that for I don't judge myself, I only work for my Master, Jesus Christ. He is the One who will judge me. I have signed my dead contract, I hate my life and I don't want to live in this fallen, wicked world. For me, to die is gain for I will see my Saviour and be with Him for eternity. Why should I stay longer in this world? This world is not worthy of me. World full of problems, vanities, troubles, and evil. The reason I live is for Christ, I can't be selfish and think only my own salvation. There are lot of blind and fool people around me, they are the lost sons and daughters of my Lord, they are my brothers and sisters who chose to move out from the home I need to call them back.

Some of them like to be rebuked and they will love me, some of them dislike my rebuke and start mocking me and they will sincerely hate me and start making havoc and discredit me. And that's also part of my task. He said, "Go and tell this people, "Be ever hearing, but never understanding, be ever seeing, but never perceiving. Make the heart of this people calloused, make their ears dull and close their eyes. Otherwise they might see with their eyes and hear with their ears, understand with their hearts and turn and be healed (Isaiah 6:9-10).

As Jesus brought sword to separate His children and children of darkness, my message will just "repent" or "perish" not undecided or purgatory, "hot" or "cold" not lukewarm, "Jesus" or "mammon" not both, "children of God" or "children of darkness". And it is not my task to use beautiful words that full of the cunning and craftiness of men in their deceitful scheming to deceive you. I will speak as plain as possible. I will never use dictionary or sematic or whatever to justify myself. I will not speak on my own, but use my Bible, the Word of God. I will always quoted "Jesus said" "Bible said". The Bible stands and has authority for it always "yes" and "amen". Either you follow and got saved or move away and perish. But still people try to justify themselves through sematic or dictionaries, whatever.

That's a little information about me. So my friends, I don't care about your opinion toward me, you can call me whatever you like, I will not beg anybody to read my articles, I wrote for myself, to teach me more. Bible said,"Let him who does wrong continue to do wrong; let him who is vile continue to be vile; let him who does right continue to do right; and let him who is holy continue to be holy (Revelation 22:11)."

• It would be stupid for me to leave Germany and my comfort life, my career with 2000€ per month, my everything but I worship God in vain all this time.
• It would be stupid for me to use my precious time to tell you something unbiblical and in the end I go to hell and your blood is on my head.
• It would be stupid for me to shake your foundation of faith and rebuild in the same foundation again.
• It would be stupid for me to shorten my lifetime, to be hated by telling you something unbiblical. What will I gain?
• It would be stupid for me if I am mocked or even killed because I teach heresies, not because they see Jesus in me rebuke, reproof, correct them.

As Pharisees hated Jesus without reason (John 15:25), many people also sincerely hate me. You tell me when I asked money from you, when I took God's glory for myself, when I spoke not from the Bible? If my interpretation is not in accordance with you, it doesn't mean that you are right and I am wrong or vice versa. If you are Christians, you should know that we are running the race, some of you have reached further and they try to help you. Both of us should bring it to the Lord or it will be like a student who tell his professor "you are wrong". Again, I am not saying that I am right and you are wrong or vice versa, but please bring it to the Lord.

By their fruits you will recognize the false prophets and these are the fruits of Spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control (Galatians 5:22-23). False teachers and false prophets are not seen from how big is their church, congregation, how many books they have published, how long they have been in Christ, from which denomination they are, how famous they are. Maturity in Christ can be seen from their fruits, not their seniority or other quantities measurement.

And these are the fruits of sinful nature: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies (Galatians 5:19-21).

• If preachers teach you to idolize money like prosperity preachers (Joel Osteen, Creflo Dollar, and other televangelists), they practice idolatry.
• If preachers teach you about miraculous healing like Todd Bentley and then he divorced his wife, or they also not only be able to heal but also prophecy, but none of his prophecies have been fulfilled like Benny Hinn, who even sell spiritual gifts on his website: gift of anointing for $75, gift of healing, gift of deliverance, etc, they practice witchcraft.
• If preachers teach you to support Zionism and send troops to kill each others in Middle East War like John Hagee, they have hatred.

I just want you to be careful with those super-apostles, as I said again and again, in the last days people will gather around themselves teachers who can satisfy their itching ears. Those false prophets and false teachers will be loved by them and the true born again Christians will be persecuted and condemned, called heretic. Just be careful. Test my spirit always. Don't easily call me "heretic" or whatever because you see my interpretation is different. What if I have Holy Spirit inside me? You will have sinned against the Holy Spirit, you will have grieved the Holy Spirit. Check my fruits first and rebuke me if I am wrong. I love to be rebuked and I will love more those who rebuke me for they have saved my life, saved me from worship God in vain.

If you think that I am a fool. Bible said, "The message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God (1 Corinthians 1:18). I am not a fool, but I chose to be fool for this Gospel. If I can boast about myself and ask you, "have you ever seen a foolish man got MSc degree from Germany?"

I have no bad intention, but I love you with all my heart. I want you to be saved but how can somebody be saved if they don't know that they are still unsaved? if they don't know what sins they have to repent for? Why people angry when I bring light to them so that they can see how dirty they are? But this is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed (John 3:19-20).

I have counted my cost and as the Bible said that only a remnant will be saved, I just believe that my contacts will reduce even more. But don't worry, this guy will leave Germany very soon and come back to his country and I just want to give you more awareness to test the spirits and open your eyes more about the situation in Christianity. I will care less about whether people will like it or not, but I will increase my fire into my writing for all this time, I keep trying to hold myself. But since I don't have much time left, I will preach like no tomorrow.

My friends, I will not declare to you and advertise myself more than I should do. If I boast more than this, I will have committed sins. I just want you to test my spirit, see my fruits and always ask the Lord, "God, is this mad guy, Alvin, teach me the truth or heresies?" You have your own freewill. And if you think that my messages are from God, you better start acting like Jesus otherwise I am just a voice in the wilderness, preaching about righteousness and holiness, repentance toward God and faith toward Jesus Christ in preparing the way of His Second Coming that will happen very soon. God bless you

Signs of the Times

Are you good at reading the signs of the times?

Jesus said you know how to forecast the weather by observing the cloud formations, but your cannot interpret the signs of the times in which you live.

Some live where they spend a lot of time during the year watching the weather reports for the tropical storms and hurricane tracking, but very few people are preparing themselves for eternity.

The context of the illustration was a day in which Sadducees and Pharisees came to Jesus asking for a “sign from heaven.” After referring to their ability to forecast the weather by looking at the sky, He said He would give them only one sign, “the sign of Jonah.” Then Jesus told His disciples, “Be on guard against the yeast of the Pharisees and Sadducees.”

The word Pharisees means “separated ones.” They lived their daily lives in strict observance of the Law of Moses and the oral commandments of the scribes. They believed all the right things as Jewish people. They would have been outstanding citizens and good church members in our day.

Why was their teaching wrong? Basically it was the way they handled the Scriptures. They wanted to manipulate the signs so they could have their preconceived kind of political Messiah. Jesus' teachings and their political ideas clashed. Their interpretations were wrong.

The Pharisees believed in revelation of God, but they wanted to add their own humanistic legalistic teaching to God’s revelation. Jesus came with the good news of God’s pure saving grace, but they thought they could earn a right relationship with God with their good works.

On the other hand, the Sadducees took away from God’s revelation. They refused to believe God’s Word, miracles, angels and the resurrection of the dead. Their agenda was whoever dies with the most toys in this life wins. They used religion to accomplish that goal.

The Pharisees tried to live by the law rather than by God’s free grace. They wanted to add to Christ’s work by their own good works and virtue. Trying to live by good works and be justified by grace alone through faith alone in Christ alone is completely incompatible.

The Pharisees and Sadducees were unable to understand because they did not want to understand. They refused to believe on Christ.

How will we survive in a wicked and adulterous generation in which we live?

The only sign our generation needs is the sign of Jonah which is a reference to the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ.

People are unable to believe on Jesus Christ today because they do not want to believe on Him.

We live in evil times and we need to be saved. The world system in which we live is hostile to Jesus Christ and His righteousness by grace through faith. Jesus said, “I have chosen you out of the world” (Jn. 15:19). The present age is evil and hates God’s revelation in His Word and Jesus Christ.

However, the Bible is very clear that today is the day of salvation. God has done everything for you in the death of Christ and on that basis is ready to pardon and forgive you of all your sins.

God has given us time to repent and believe on Christ and be saved. However, the time of opportunity is drawing to an end. It is time to repent and turn to Christ. Your opportunity will not last forever. The day of God’s judgment will come and it will be too late. Your opportunity to be saved will be gone and you will be lost forever.

Are you able to interpret the signs of the times well enough to repent of your sins and trust in Jesus Christ for your salvation? Your salvation now is nearer than when we first believed. Believe on Him today and be saved. "And there is salvation in no one else; for there is no other name under heaven that has been given among men by which we must be saved" (Acts 4:12).


by Wil Pounds (http://royj788.multiply.com/journal/item/437)

Have burden, no resources?

My friends, do you have great burden about people around you? Do you want to help those people who are in need, poor, fatherless? Do you want to help people who are hungry, cold, without shelter, disaster victims, etc? If your heart is moved to help them, I rejoice with you for God has put something inside your heart, which is love toward others.

Many of us have burden to help people but we have no resources and it seems impossible to be done. "Who am I? I am nothing, I am the least among the people" you asked. My friends, if this case happened to you, I want you to stop thinking like that, stop putting God inside your box, stop limiting Him. Do you know that with God all things are possible? You should be thankful for that burden, it is the purpose of your life, it is your vision. For the Bible said, "Where there is no vision, the people perish: but he that keeps the law, happy is he (Proverb 29:18).

There are a lot of people who don't know the purpose of their life, and because of that, they just follow the crowd. They don't know what to do, where to go, etc. They have no direction in life, just try to figure out with their own strength what best for their own future. Worries, problems, sorrows, regrets, short-time joy will always accompany them. People who have no purpose of living are like robot, outwardly they are moving, but inwardly they are dead. Something is always missing in their heart, they can't be fully satisfied. They are chasing after the wind, and will always be like that until they die.

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If you don't have any burden about people, if you don't have any vision, you better go and ask God. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord, he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does (James 1:6-8).

God will always put something looks impossible in our eyes as our vision. Who has ever imagined that Moses will lead Israelites out of Egypt, the Red Sea will be divided into two so that Israelites can pass through, Jericho walls will fall just because Israelites go marching around them for seven days, Gideon will win the battle with just 300 people to fight multitude of people that no one can count, David will beat 9 feet champion, Goliath, just with a sling and a stone, etc? God wants to teach us about faith and He chooses the despised, the weak, people who think they are nobody to be His servants.

God makes human full of weaknesses, just a breath, because through that weaknesses, He can show to the people how strong He is, how great He is, how mighty He is. It is all about His name to be glorified. He loves those who are humble and He is the One who will lift them up. God is jealous God, when He sees man take His glory, He will punish them. Just imagine if you have made very good work by your own hand, but somebody else boasting as if it is his work and start discredit you, what will you do? Will you not deal with him justly? The same thing happen with God. This universe and everything in it created by God, so when someone acting and playing god, He will surely punish them.

He hates pride, He hates people who take His glory for themselves. As He made Nebuchadnezzar lived like a beast for 7 years because he bragged, His angel struck down King Herod because he took the glory of God for himself, God punished David when he tried to number the fighting men he had, when he tried to boast about his strength, not God's.

So, my friends, if you think you are incapable of doing anything without God, if you love God with all your heart, your mind and your soul, if you love your neighbours, if you fear the Lord, you are most probably will be used by Him to do great things for Bible said, "If anyone thinks he is something when he is nothing, he deceives himself (Galatians 6:3). Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up (James 4:10).

We are nothing, but Jesus inside us is more than anything, we are weak but Jesus inside us is powerful, we are despised and lowly but Jesus inside us is King of kings, Lord of lords, all authority in heaven and on earth has been given to Him. The more we allow God to have free course in us, the more we will see heaven come down to earth in our life. The more we are full of Jesus, the more we have access to the storeroom in heaven. It is not about us, it is all about Jesus in us. If you believe and have faith that Jesus inside you is capable in doing all things, even resurrect dead people and you ask with the right motive, for His name to be glorified, not for your flesh to be popped up, you will see miracles happen in your life through your faith.

Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us (Isaiah 6:8)?" Some people will answer "Here am I. Send me!" Some people will answer "Lord, first let me go and bury my father (Matthew 8:21)." To those people who refuse and make excuse before God, they have missed their chance to be extra-ordinary people, to be more than conquerors. God will raise another person whose heart is ready.

As Mordecai told Esther when God wanted to use her to save her people but she was afraid by saying "Do not think that because you are in the king's house you alone of all the Jews will escape. For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this (Esther 4:14)?"

Are you a student? Are you a housewife? Are you a manager? Whatever position you have, if God has put burden inside you, it is time for you to move, no more keep silent and start preparing yourself for His work and you will see things happen. Until when you will wait? Until you see angel come to you? until your sickness be healed first? until you see miracles happen in your life first? To those people who ask signs and wonders before they move, you can die waiting for miracles will happen if you practice your faith, not being idle.

As Pharisees demanded signs even though Jesus did miracles everyday, some of us are behaving exactly the same, we forget what God has done in our life, we still expect something bigger to happen. To those people Jesus pointed them to the sign of Jonah when he was 3 days and 3 nights in fish's belly, and in your case, Jesus was pointed you to His death and His resurrection power, He pointed you to His cross, to salvation from God. He wants you to repent, confess your sins, surrender all and have faith in Jesus Christ first before you are used greatly by Him. If you keep asking signs, you better repent or die waiting.

There is a story about two farmers who expecting the rain to water their fields. Both of them believe in God and both of them pray earnestly, but one of them go and preparing his field, work hard for it so that when the rain come, the land is ready to absorb the water, another one just stay in his room doing nothing. Who do you think will get the blessing from God? And what kind of farmer are you?

Now, if you really have faith and love toward people, if you really want to be used by God greatly, if you ready and have counted the cost. It is time for you to practice your faith. It is God's way to give you according your faithfulness. He will not give you immediately something big, for you will end up boasting about yourself. Bible said, "'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness (Matthew 25:21)!'

Bible said, "The king's heart is in the hand of the LORD; he directs it like a watercourse wherever he pleases (Proverbs 21:1)". My friends, you should not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself (Matthew 6:34). God will bring people to support and help you, God will give you wisdom about how you will do your vision for His work. Just be faithful and know that God hates lazy people, Bible said, "If a man will not work, he shall not eat (2 Thessalonians 3:10)."

What you need to do is to be like a little boy who came to Jesus with five small barley loaves and two small fish. It is Jesus who will multiply it, not you, not me, not us, but Jesus inside us. What we need to do is to have faith like a little child who think that my Father in heaven is able to do all things which in our eyes are impossible. Don't see with your physical eyes, but see with eye of faith.

Don't think that miracles only happened until book of Acts. Our God is unchanging God, His Word remains forever. What He has done in the past, He is doing it right now and He will do it in the future. Jesus even said, "And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well (Mark 16:17-18)."

Are you a believer? If you are, please start acting like Jesus. Bring and surrender all your talents, your ability, your knowledge, your ambition, your passion, your skill, etc to God and don't be surprise if you excel in everything multiply. Daniel and his friends, Joseph, Esther, David, Solomon, and those who fear the Lord always be extra-ordinary people, they shine brightly. Do you want to be one of them? Humble yourself before God, surrender all to Him and tell Him to do whatever He pleases to discipline you, to mold you, to purify and cleanse you so that you will be an instrument of noble purposes, so that you are prepared and useful to do His work.

2 Timothy 2:20-21

In a large house there are articles not only of gold and silver, but also of wood and clay; some are for noble purposes and some for ignoble. If a man cleanses himself from the latter, he will be an instrument for noble purposes, made holy, useful to the Master and prepared to do any good work

Find your vision and purpose of living in God and start doing it with faith. God bless you

Show me your faith

My friends, especially Christians who said they love God will all their heart, their soul and their mind, I want to challenge you to prove your faith. I have met many Christians who said that they have faith in Jesus but I can't see Jesus in their life at all. Many of them behave no better or even worse than unbelievers. To those people I would suggest to change their status from "Christian" to "stumbling block" because if they insist to claim themselves as "Christian", God will judge them more strictly.

We can talk and quarrel about words and doctrines about faith till cows go home, but people need something practical, not theoretical, not just in the mouth and full of hypocrisy. They must be able to see our faith through our life. Bible said that we must be the light of the world and the salt of the earth. Let our light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven (Matthew 5:13-16).

So allow me to ask you something, "What good is it, my brothers, if a man claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save him? Suppose a brother or sister is without clothes and daily food. If one of you says to him, "Go, I wish you well; keep warm and well fed," but does nothing about his physical needs, what good is it (James 2:14-16)?

Do you know that faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead? But some of us will say, "You have faith; I have deeds." To those people, Bible again said, "Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by what I do". My friends, if you believe that their is one God, you are still no different with the demons, they even shudder (James 2:14-19).

These pictures reflect the daily life in my country, Indonesia. I believe that it also happens around the globe, or even in our neighbourhood. Let me ask you, my friends: Do they work? Yes, in fact they work really hard. Do they have enough? No, they don't. They live in poverty. Whose fault is that? Government? Corruption? No, it is our fault as Christians, who claim ourselves as ambassadors of Christ, children of light. Our life doesn't reflect our faith, our life doesn't reflect that Jesus is in us.

About corruption, you tell me how many Christians work in the government or institution? Do they stand against corruption? No, many of them don't. They conform or even they have the biggest share. Bible said, "Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is --- His good, pleasing and perfect will (Romans 12:2).

Daniel was put into den of lions because he didn't want to defile himself and act against God. Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego were thrown into fiery furnace because they refused to worship idol, Mordekhai was threatened to be hung on a gallows because he didn't kneel down and honor men, but God alone. Early Christians even though they were threatened not to speak any longer about Jesus, they refused. Some of them persecuted and some of them died martyr. All of them refused to conform even though they had to pay the price with their blood. Bible said, "The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life (John 12:25)".

Now, how about you, my Christian friends? Do you choose to be rather persecuted or to conform? Many of us because we are afraid of losing job, afraid of persecution, afraid of being mocked by people, we begin to conform and try to justified ourselves, etc. My friends, do you know if you do that, your faith is dead? Do you realize that you are the seed which fell among the thorns and it is highly possible you will end up in lake of fire? Do you know that by conforming and involved in the corruption, you make your people suffer? Are they not your brothers and sisters? Many of them are lost and under yoke of the devil, will you not go to them and break their yoke or will you take advantage from their bad situation? My friends, please show me your faith.

About poverty, you tell me how many Christians who are rich? Do they help the poor and the needy? Statistic says that only a few of Christians is doing that, what about the others? They just want to be richer and richer by oppressing the poor. Do you know that love of money is root of evil? If you know that, why do you like prosperity gospel so much? Why do you go to church just to receive God's blessing, not His rebuke? "Say with your faith that at the end of this year, you will have Mercedes SL500 in your garage" said the prosperity preachers.

My friends, what is your money for? Jesus said, "I tell you the truth, it is hard for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven. Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God (Matthew 19:23-24).

Why? Because if money can satisfy all your need, why do you need God? When you are sick, you will go to the doctor, not God. When you need advice, you will go to your consultant or your lawyer, not God. When you need help, you will go to your wealth manager, not God. When you want something, you will go to your assistant, not God. When you need to spend time with God, you will be too busy for that. For you, time is money. You put God in your box, you make Him small in your eyes. Money is your god and you love money more than you love God. Bible said, "For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also (Matthew 6:21)". My friends, please show me your faith.

Bible said, "If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing (1 Corinthians 13:1-3). Bible also said, "If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen. And he has given us this command: Whoever loves God must also love his brother (1 John 4:20-21)".

If it is difficult for you to love other people, to forgive people, to bless those who persecute you, you are not yet children of God. For the Bible said, "Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love (1 John 4:8). If you love your money more than people, if you love your pets more than human beings, if you love your status, your position, your work more than people, if you love those who love you, are not even the tax collectors doing that? When you start conforming to the world and become one of them, the love of the Father is not in you. The world and its desires pass away, but man who does the will of God lives forever (1 John 2:17).

My friends, if right now you hold high status in the society, if right now you have great wealth, I said this with love to you, you better stop thinking about yourself and start helping those who are in needy. He who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with his own hands, that he may have something to share with those in need (Ephesians 4:28). Stop doing corruption and stealing from people, you have committed great sin everytime you took part in that dirty money. And to those who are rich, if you want to know the reason why you keep working non-stop and never satisfied enough, it is because you are under God's curse.

Ecclesiastes 2:26

To the man who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God

If you have Jesus in your life, you will not care about wealth, about people's opinion, about persecution, etc for His grace is sufficient, Jesus is more than enough. Your heart will be fully satisfied. Bible said, "The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field. "Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it (Matthew 13:44-46).

When you have known the true Gospel, the true God, your heart will finally find its rest. In this world we are trying to satisfy our heart desire, we look something to fill the hole in our heart. It can only be filled with love of God and once your heart is complete, you will learn the secret of being content in every cases, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want, you can do everything through Him who gives you strength (Philippians 4:11-13). You will not worry about tomorrow, you shall not in want, you will depend on God 100%, you will rejoice in every situation for God is always be with you and your heart is just full of joy. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us (Romans 5.2-5).

So, my friends, Bible said again and again that our deeds are not observing Law, are not doing sacraments or traditions, are not following golden rules, etc but love. For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision nor uncircumcision has any value. The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love (Galatians 5:6).

For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love (2 Peter 1:5-7). Do you read that? Faith is the foundation and love is your goal. Faith without love is dead.

1 Timothy 1:5

The goal of this command is love, which comes from a pure heart and a good conscience and a sincere faith.

Paul, Peter, and James always put stress on love to accompany our faith and if you have those qualities in increasing, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. But if anyone does not have them, he is nearsighted and blind, and has forgotten that he has been cleansed from his past sins (2 Peter 1:8-9).

Before you are able to love others, you need to learn first about goodness, about knowledge, about self-control, about perseverance, about godliness, about brotherly kindness, then you will be able to start loving unconditionally. My friends, if you can't love others you better ask God to give you more wisdom, more grace or you better repent first, there is still hope for you. But if you don't want to love people, you better change your status from "Christian" "children of God" to "stumbling block" "children of darkness" because you behave like your father, the devil, you lie like him, you cheat like him, you murder like him, you steal like him. There are only 2 options for you, "repent" or "perish", "start loving" or "drop your faith". God bless you

Do you love the world?

My friends, are you not tired of this world? Do you enjoy living in this world? Do you really love this fallen and wicked world? If you are not enjoying living in this world, let's shake hand, I feel the same too.

All things here is meaningless, chasing after the wind. When you slow down your pace, start looking around and thinking about what this life is all about, you will be surprise when you realize that you are going nowhere.

• Some of us just wasting our time being idled or busibodied without progress at all. My friends, you should differenciate between hardworking and diligently hitting your head on the wall. Maybe people see you as hardworker, but inside you, you have no idea what you are doing, where you are goind, etc. You have no purpose of living, no direction of going. You just follow the crowd and they also have the same problem like you. It is just like Israelites of olds, walking round and round in the desert for 40 years and they thought that they were becoming closer and closer to their goal which in fact, they went nowhere and just waited for death to come. Follow the crowd till death.

• Some of us think that we use time efficiently, we work without rest, 7x24 hours a week is not enough. We labor so much, we save a lot of money, we chose to abandon our eyes' pleasure, we just want to store and store our wealth, but we never realized that we will leave this world naked, bring nothing to eternity and we will leave all those we have toiled for to the one who come after us, and who knows whether he will be a wise man or a fool. You worked hard for it, but he is the one who enjoy your labor.
• Some of us think that we are wise enough, we study hard, we have good grade, some of us put our eggs on different baskets, we invest in many sectors. But when economic crisis hit, great depression come, banks collapsed, future trading collapsed, your degree means nothing, nobody is able to hire you, you are too expensive for them. And if you are an investor, your money will just become like toilet tissue, all of your labor will just run waste. Are you not chasing after the wind?
• Some of us are pursuiting our heart desires, but what are they? Today we want A, then we work hard for that and finally we are able to buy it, but in short future we start feeling bored with A, then we start wanting B, bored, want another one again and again, until it reaches Z then come back to A again. We never get satisfied enough, all this life is just chasing after the wind.
• Some of us are trying to have more pleasure. But you just find that all of them just momentary. Cigarette is good only for 3 minutes, alcohol, drugs and sex are good only for quite some time, what else? Being on the top only give you satisfication for a while, just until somebody replace you. Your pride, your joy never last forever. Look at the cups that you have worked for, that you were so proud of them, they are now covered with dust and mean nothing.

Having all your eyes want is just chasing after wind, for if you see your cupboard, how many clothes that you have but you never wear them? if you see your storeroom, how many junks are there? You saw an advertisement about clothing, you go to the shop, though the cloth didn't suit you, but 10 of 10 of your friends said "good and it suits you", so you bought it, but in your heart you have no confident to wear it, and now that cloth hang in your cupboard untouched. It becomes waste of money, does it not?

You are trying to be someone else by having dual personalities, you just want the world to notice that you are alive. Many people are like that, they are wearing mask all days long. Their appearance looks good, looks strong, looks nice, but in their heart full of sorrow, pain, hatred, jealousy, they are so weak, but they don't want to show their weakness to anybody else, they think they should behave like the world, "no place for the second", they thought. Pride and hypocrisy surrounded you.

Are not all things wearysome, more than one can say? The eye never has enough of seeing, nor the ear its fill of hearing. What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again, there is nothing new under the sun (Ecclesiastes 1:8-9).

It seems that all the people in the world are exaltly running like mouse in the wheel. We thought we running fast, but in fact, we just make ourselves exhausted without any progress at all. People work for food, food for health, health for work and it goes round and round until we die. People finished their problem today, tomorrow they will face another problems, problems solved and problems come again and again. All this life is just full of problems and troubles. Born, grow up, go to school, go to university, look for job, build a family, try to be comfy, get old, and die. That's the phases that most of the people in the world do, and each phase has their own problems and troubles. Are you not tired of this life, my friends? Why you keep trying to figure out this life by your own strength? How long can you still carry your own burden without any help from others? What is your purpose of living?

Can't you see that people around us are so funny and foolish? They are glad in doing evil, they behaving like beast, not human being. They cheat people, oppress people, harm people. They are just selfish, ruthless, senseless, heartless and faithless. No love, no mercy, no justice, no forgiveness. We can see all of bad stuffs around us. We see people living in poverty when some other live in palace, just because they are born like that. But this is our world, our fallen and wicked world. I wonder if somebody can love this world so much?

If you think that I am trying to make you hopeless, honestly speaking, that's my intention. I want you to see and start thinking, what are you doing in this world? I have asked this question to lot of people, and most of them seem even don't know what they are doing. They life for today, they are short-sighted, they don't know what to do, just follow the crowd. No ambition, no confident, no faith, no hope, and just trying to be like the world.

My friends, if your age right now 25 years old, the same like me, and assume that you will live until 75 years old, what will you do for the rest of 50 years? Life is already difficult and it would be more and more difficult. Until when you will continue wearing mask, my friends? Are you not tired doing that? You really need help, my friends. You are not as strong as your appearance.

Why don't you start asking for help? Do you know that God loves you and want to help you? If you trust and put your faith in Him, if you surrender all to Him and allow Him to have free course in your life, your life will never be the same again, heaven will come down to this fallen and wicked world, you will see things differently. Your heart are fully satisfied. Your life will be full of noise. You will be just different person.

You are fearfully and wonderfully made by Him. In a large house there are articles not only of gold and silver, but also of wood and clay, some are for noble purposes and some for ignoble (2 Timothy 2:20). You have your own purpose, either for noble or ignoble. Or if you see your body, eyes to see, ear to hear, mouth to speak, etc, we also have different role and nobody can do better than us for we are specially designed by God for His work. Each of us has divine purpose of living from God. The fact that we don't know what it is, is because we never ask Him, we don't even know Him, but He is our Creator.

As human put wisdom in making chair for its purpose to be able to hold people who sit on it, God also put His wisdom in making us, there is no one in this world who has the same thumb-print like us, genes, DNA, even between twins. It would be stupid if you don't appreciate what He has done in making you, plastic surgery or botox, etc is just another wearing mask. Are you not tired of this deception? Why don't you ask God to show you what He wants you to do? Why you are here?

He is our Father in heaven, hit our knee, start asking questions to Him with all of our heart and He will answer, seek, ask and knock and you will be satisfied. Some of us can't feel God's Presence because we have mountain of sins, we are sinner but God is holy. God hide His face from us, we need to repent and ask His forgiveness, believe in His Word who became flesh, Jesus Christ or you will be looking for answer that can only be found in Him. He is the way, the truth and the life, no one can come to the Father, except through Him. Go and ask His help, He has waited for so long and very much willing to help you.

"The word is near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart," that is, the word of faith we are proclaiming: That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved (Romans 10:8-10).

If you are tired of this world and hate this world, you are most likely love by God, He will do something and use you greatly. For the Bible said, "Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For everything in the world—the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does—comes not from the Father but from the world. The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever (1 John 2:15-17).

I just want to tell you that life without God is meaningless and the more you hate the world, the more you will be loved by God. What you need to do is this: Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up (James 4:7-10).

Ephesians 5:15-17

Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is.

God bless you

How to have abundant life?

My friends, I just want to share my experience last week when I went outside and looked the snow around, I saw its beauty and immediately God started ministering to me again. I began to see that when the snow cover the place, no matter how dirty, how bad and how stinky the things are, they become white and pure.

When I saw the garbage in front of my dorm which usually so dirty and full of rubbish, they are now fully covered. When I saw the cars in the parking lot, I just can't differenciate between the good and the bad, between the expensive and the normal, between the new and the old, between the clean and the dirty for the snow covered them all.

God reminded me about Bible verse that says "Come now, let us reason together," says the LORD. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool (Isaiah 1:18)

God loves us so much, He is our Father in heaven. He wants us to be saved, not to perish. He wants to give us a gift: Salvation. As the snow covered all the type of cars: good, bad, clean, dirty, expensive, cheap, new and old. God will cover all of our sins with His love IF ONLY we believe in His Son, Jesus Christ who has died on the cross for our sins. His precious blood in the cross purifies us. He doesn't care from which background we come from, He is our Creator and He shows no favoritism (Romans 2:11).

• No matter how good we are, we still commit sins before God for the Bible said, "There is no one righteous, not even one, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God (Romans 3:10, 23)" If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us (1 John 1:8). We need justification from God through the blood of Jesus Christ.
• No matter how bad, dirty we are, God will forgive us IF we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9).
• No matter how rich we are, we can't buy our salvation. For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your forefathers, but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect (1 Peter 1:18-20).
• No matter how poor we are, we can still get salvation from God, for it is the gift of God, it is for free. For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—not by works, so that no one can boast (Ephesians 2:8-9).
• No matter how strong, how clever, how wise we are, we still need Jesus Christ for the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength (1 Corinthians 1:25).
• No matter how weak, unlearned and despised we are, we can have salvation for God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before Him (1 Corinthians 1:27-29).

My friends, this salvation is offered to everybody. Jesus came to save the world, not just Christians. In fact, many Christians are behaving as stumbling blocks instead of being as children of light. Many "Christians" are walking straight to hell, they are lukewarm, they are serving 2 masters. To my non-Christian friends, please do not allow those stumbling blocks shut the kingdom of God from you. God loves you and want you to be saved.

But God will only give to the people who are honest to Him, who admit their wrongdoing and their incapability to stand alone, who ask for help from God. And then, in that moment He will show Himself strong, He will do something great in your life. We are all naked in His eyes. He knows all about us even all of our dark secrets that nobody knows. Confess all of your sins and be honest with Him until your burden taken away, until you have nothing to hide and to shame. I just believe that when you do that with all your heart, you will be a different person, you will find your peace of heart for the very first time.

You will be a new creation (2 Corinthians 5:17). Your spirit will be quickened (Romans 8:11), your eyes will be opened, the scales will fall down from your eyes (Acts 9:18). Your nature will change from sinful nature to godliness (Romans 8:9), you will have renewal of your mind (Romans 12:2), your heart will change from heart of stone to heart of flesh (Ezekiel 11:19). He will write His Law and Commandment in your new heart, no more on 2 blocks of stone. You will know by yourself whether you sin before Him or not. If you have something not right with Him, your heart will condemn you and it feels so unbearable, you will immediately go and confess your sins to Him, otherwise your spirit will starve to death and your soul will be thirsty. We can't do anything without Him and it will continue for all of our lifetime and little by little we walk toward perfection, toward holiness. And we didn't work for it, it is gift of God. Our nature, our pleasure has changed and we just want to please Him and make Him happy. It gives us lot of joy to live this Christian life.

When you have love of God inside you, when you have Holy Spirit inside you, you will start walking like Jesus for the Bible said, "Whoever claims to live in Him must walk as Jesus did (1 John 2:6). You will have faith, hope and love. You will love your God will all your heart, your soul, your mind, your strength and you will also love your neighbours, including your enemies. You will have compassion and love toward people. Your life will be beautiful, colourful and full of noise.

You just can't stop telling people about your new life with God. You will tell people to come to Jesus and have this great experience. Great Commission is not a burden at all, it is your nature. You just want to sing and praise God all the days, reading Bible, praying, etc. You always want to keep in touch with your Father in heaven. My friends, If you don't have this feeling, you better hope not to go to kingdom of God.

• Imagine, if right now you can't open your mouth to sing praise and worship, what would it be in His kingdom? In the church service which only 2 hours a week, you are tired and lazy, Wouldn't His kingdom be a miserable place for you because there you will praise worship Him all days long for eternity?
• Imagine, if right now you don't want to listen to God, to read Bible, Word of God, in His kingdom you will always listen to His Word all days long for eternity. Wouldn't it be a miserable place for you?
• Imagine, if right now you never talk to Him, you don't even know what to talk in prayers, in His kingdom what language will you speak, do you want to be mute there for eternity? Wouldn't it be a miserable place for you?
• Imagine, if right now you hate your neighbours just because of their skin colour or races or their poverty, their behaviour, what will happen when you enter kingdom of God and you will see people come from all around the world with their own characters but one God, one faith, one unity, and only you alone who have faction and racism. Wouldn't it be a miserable place for you?

Living a Christian life is joyful, happy, colourful, and full of noise, you can't ask for more, you will be fully satisfied and you don't want to come back to your past life that full of misery, problems, troubles, and short-term happiness. Bible said, "The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field. "Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it (Matthew 13:44-46). You will do anything you can to keep your new life instead come back to your past, miserable life.

Have you seen heartbeat monitor? If you are dead, it will be always constant, no movement at all, just a line, but since you were dead but now you are alive, your spirit is quickened, you will have many upside down in life.

That means your life will be full of noise. You will meet people who are kindly enough to lower their level from "normal" to "stupid" just to teach you about patience, you will find people who will persecute you just because of your faith by calling you "fool" just to bless you more, you will lose a lot of friends because they see you are different and no more one of them, just because God want you to tell you that "Bad company corrupts good character (1 Corinthians 15:33)". That's your life now, but you have Almighty God, the only One who is faithful, He will never leave you nor forsaken you. He is just more than enough.

I have a favourite Bible verse, it says "It shall come to pass... " My happiness will come to pass and change to sadness, my sadness will come to pass and change to happiness. My life will full of hills and mountains. There will be time for everything, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to be silent and a time to speak, etc.

Jesus makes me whole. If you don't have this kind of life, you better repent and ask God's forgiveness, have faith in Jesus Christ and see things will happen. God bless you

Footsteps on the snow

My friends, it is winter time in the place where I live right now and since last 2 weeks the temperature has dropped to -11°C and it's started to snow. God taught me something from this natural event. He asked me, "how is the snow, son?" "It is so beautiful, white, pure and clean, Dad" "Yes, son. Now I want you to start walking. Don't be idle and just enjoying the snow. You will get cold and you could even die if you stay there for your lifetime. Do you remember the parable of 10 virgins? You better keep your lamp burning, don't be idle nor slumber. You are running the race, so keep on moving, son" "Where, Dad?"

Then God teach me parable. "Look at footsteps in front of you. Consider it as Jesus Christ's footsteps, son. Walk in it and follow Him anywhere He goes."

So, I follow that steps like a little child jumping from one footstep to another. I watched them closely. I kept following that footsteps until I came to the crossroad. That footsteps led me to the right, but I want to go to the left for I was going to work. So I went on my own way. That's the first lesson from God.

He said, "Son, if it not that I am teaching you, if it is about your spiritual walk in Jesus' path, you would have missed the way to come to Me. Do you remember when Jesus said, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me?" There is no other way to come to Me, son. You must follow and obey Him but you chose to follow your own way, not to follow Christ will all your heart. I don't like it, son."

"Many people are like that, they have gone on their own ways and led astray. They didn't listen to Me anymore, son" "But, Dad they still have faith in You, they still go to church every Sunday service, etc" "Don't be deceived, son. These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. Their worship of me is made up only of rules taught by men (Isaiah 29:13)."

"They go to church just for the 'acts of righteousness', fulfilling their obligations and tradtions, for making connection, for getting something benefits from people there, they followed doctrines taught by men, they have delight in false humility." They have lost connection with the Head, Jesus Christ (Colossians 2:18-20), but the worst part is that they still believe that they are my children. They are not, son. They have fallen away. They have failed the test. My name was blasphemed among the Gentiles because of them (Romans 2:24). They are stumbling blocks. They are the seeds fell into rocky and thorny places. Many are called, but few are chosen (Matthew 22:14).

"Do you know what will I do, son?" I will say to them, "Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. Many will say to me on that day, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?' Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!' They are hypocrites, son. Don't be like them."

"My son, I still want to teach you more. Look, here is another footsteps. Try to follow it again and I will teach you another lesson." Then I followed it again. In the beginning I can see the steps clearly, but later on I saw so many footsteps ahead of me. Lot of people walking around there. I began to confuse. I missed the steps, I forgot how the footprint looked like and in the end I totally lost them. That's the second lesson from God.

He said, "My son, if it is not the teaching, if it is your spiritual life, you will have followed wrong gospel. Why? It is because you are ignorant. I told you to keep watching, to prove all things; hold fast that which is good (1 Thessalonians 5:21) but you didn't do it. My son, I want you not to believe in every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God because many false prophets have gone out into the world (1 John 4:1). Examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith; test yourselves. Do you not realize that Christ Jesus is in you—unless, of course, you fail the test (2 Corinthians 13:5)?

Always prove all things, test the spirits and examine yourself, son. You must keep your faith expressing itself through love (Galatians 5:6). As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead (James 2:26)."

"Son, there are lot of weird "gospels" our there. There are "prosperity gospel", "mother and child worship gospel", "new age gospel", "gospel of traditions" "gospel of works" "gospel of law" "angel worship gospel" "saints worship gospel" "scientology gospel", "gospel for dummies", etc. Paul said, "I am astonished that you are so quickly deserting the one who called you by the grace of Christ and are turning to a different gospel—which is really no gospel at all. Evidently some people are throwing you into confusion and are trying to pervert the gospel of Christ. But even if we or an angel from heaven should preach a gospel other than the one we preached to you, let him be eternally condemned" (Galatians 1:6-8)! Do you read that, son? There is only one True Gospel. Now do you see son how devil has overpowered the world even the churches?" "How, Dad?"

"There are 39000+ denominations out there and each of them claim to be the "true gospel". The truth can't be that many, can it be, son?" "Yes, Dad, they have factions and You said that those who have this behaviour will not inherit kingdom of God (Galatians 5:19-21). What should I do then?" "Read your Bible, learn from Me and start behaving like Jesus, son. I give you simple rule: If you see Jesus in somebody else and you have Jesus in you, you are one, you are brothers and sisters, you are My children, regardless which denomination they come from. You can still have service in the denominational churches, e.g: baptist, charismatic, pentacostal, presbyterian, mennonite, etc, but I don't want you to be involved in their faction and then you begin to think that you know all and the best. I just don't like it, son."

Ecclesiastes 7:16-17

Do not be overrighteous, neither be overwise—why destroy yourself? Do not be overwicked, and do not be a fool—why die before your time?

Son, I am too great to be understood. All of you only see parts of Me, pieces of Me. Like blind men touch the elephant. One touched the foot and said, "wow, what a great tree", another touched the nose and said, "wow, what a big octopus", another touched the trunk and said, "wow, what a strong rhino" another touch the tail and said, "wow, what a hard pipe". You see from different angle of diamond, but the same God, with the unity of faith in Jesus Christ. For that reason, I want unity of believers, the true Church, so that all of you can come together and put all your puzzles and start describing Me with more insight and people in the world will be shock and they will notice that I really sent my Son, Jesus Christ, and as I have loved Jesus, I also have loved them and want them to be saved. Remember My simple rule: if you see Jesus in somebody else and you have Jesus in you, you are one, you are brothers and sisters, you are My children."

John 17:23

May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me.

"Last lesson for today, son. Look, there are 3 different footprints in front of you. One is Jesus', one is yours, one is devil's. Only if you follow Jesus' path, you will come to me. The rest, either you follow your own way or even more, you follow the devil by becoming slave to sins, both of them will lead you to hell. Where do you want to go, son: kingdom of God or hell?"

Matthew 7:13-14

"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.

"Of course I want to go to Your dwelling place, Dad. I long to see You" "In that case you should follow Jesus Christ, son. But you must remember what Jesus said, "If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated Me first. If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you. No servant is greater than his master.' If they persecuted me, they will persecute you also. If they obeyed my teaching, they will obey yours also (John 15:20). In fact, everyone who wants to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted (2 Timothy 3:12). Jesus said, "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it (Matthew 16:24-25)".

"My son, you have to carry your own cross daily, object of mockery, despised by the world, you will be hated, persecuted by the world. Many people will mock you, harm you, in fact, a time is coming when anyone who kills you will think he is offering a service to God (John 16:2). For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God (1 Corinthians 1:18).

"Have you counted the cost to follow Jesus, son? Many Christians failed the test, their faith has long died. They can't stand being persecuted by their family, their friends, their colleges, their relatives, etc. They have now conformed to the world, not have renewal of their mind. They are dead and dry bones, son. It would be very difficult to bring them back, if it is not impossible, for they have escaped the corruption of the world by knowing Jesus Christ and again entangled and overcome, they are worse off at the end than they were at the beginning (2 Peter 2:20). Of them the proverbs are true: "A dog returns to its vomit, and "A sow that is washed goes back to her wallowing in the mud (2 Peter 2:22).

"Keep running and follow the rule so that you will not be disqualified. My grace is sufficient. Put your faith in Me, everytime you are weary and burdened, come to Me, get refreshed and continue moving again. I love you and I will always be with you till the end of ages, son." "I love you too, Dad. Dad, please hold my hand, don't leave me alone. Rebuke me sharply, shout to my ears, do whatever You think it is the best to bring me back to my track, I don't want to lose You, I don't want to worship You in vain, discipline me, Dad. I truly mean it. I just want to be holy as You are holy (1 Peter 1:16), I want to be perfect as You are perfect (Matthew 5:48). Guide me, help me, replenish me, my Perfecter of faith, Almighty God. Love you, Dad."

It is blessed to give than to receive

My friends, do you know something about the Dead Sea? It is one of the world's saltiest bodies of water with 33.7% salinity. The Jordan River is the only major water source flowing into the Dead Sea and there are no outlet streams. The sea is called "dead" because its high salinity prevents macroscopic aquatic organisms, such as fish and aquatic plants, from living in it, though minuscule quantities of bacteria and microbial fungi are present (Source: wikipedia).

Again, God taught me something from this nature fact. "My son, do you know about the Dead Sea?" "No, Dad. Why?" "Look at it, son. It is dead, it has no fish, no aquatic plants, no macroscopic organisms. No life in it." Do you learn something, son? "No, Dad. Teach me!" "Listen, son. I don't want you to be like that. As dead sea always receive from other sources but never given out, then it became dead and no life in it. How many blessing you have received from me, son?" "A lot, Dad" "How many of those blessing have you shared with other people, especially to those who are needy?" "Hmm, not so many, Dad." "Do you want to be like the Dead Sea, son?" "Of course not, Dad. Please increase my faith."

"Son, I want you to have life, not dead, to have fruits inside you, not dead bones. Do you know what are those?" "Tell me, Dad" " Here they are, son. The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. (Galatians 5:22-23). I want you to have those qualities inside you so that you will not be like the Dead Sea. I want you to bear fruits, son. Remain in Me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in Me. Learn from me and follow my commandment and you will bear your fruits. Carry your own cross daily and don't worry about anything for my grace is sufficient; what you need to do is just start practicing it" "Oke, Dad. I will practice it now".

God is great. He always teaches me through something around me that I can easily understand. He asked me, "Son, do you know where every good and perfect gift come from?" "Dad, your Word said, 'It is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows (James 1:17)" "Good, you know it, son. If you have already acknowledged that is it I, Almighty God, who gives you everything, it is not because of your might, but because of my grace for you, now listen and obey me, son 'freely you have received, freely give' (Matthew 10:8) and it is more blessed to give than to receive (Acts 20:35)." "That's difficult, Dad."

"Do you want to be like the Dead Sea, son? Do you think I am a liar when I said "he who gives to the poor will lack nothing, but he who closes his eyes to them receives many curses (Proverbs 28:27)? Do you hear about my servant David? Do you know what he said? He said, "I was young and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging bread (Psalm 37:25). He was the great king of Israel, son. I raised him up because He loved me with all his heart, he is the man after My heart. I want you to be like him. He proclaimed that never ever happened, even once, in his lifetime that I, God Almighty, am unfaithful. He himself testified about that. Would you still have doubt in Me, son? I am not unjust; I will not forget your work and the love you have shown Me as you have helped My people and continue to help them (Hebrews 6:10). Son, go and help the poor!"

"But how, Dad? I don't have any resources at all." "What is in your hand, son?" "Little cake, Dad" "Son, let me ask you something. I have a big cake for you in My hand. Actually I want to bless you even more with this big cake. But your hand is too tight in keeping what you already had, son. How can I give you?" "Yes, Dad. My hand is already full, I don't have enough space to have both. I can't receive more from you, Dad. I should give my little cake up first, I need to give it to somebody first, so my hand will be empty then I can receive from You." "That's exactly what I want you to do, son." "Give all you have to help My people. Remember this: Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously. The more you give to My people, the more I will bless you, son." "Ok, Dad. I will go and practice it. Guide my path, Dad." "I will, son. Keep moving, keep getting closer to Me, son. I want to see you grow. I am waiting for you in the finish line." "Thanks, Dad. You are so good to me."

Mark 10:29-30

"I tell you the truth," Jesus replied, "no one who has left home or brothers or sisters or mother or father or children or fields for me and the gospel will fail to receive a hundred times as much in this present age (homes, brothers, sisters, mothers, children and fields—and with them, persecutions) and in the age to come, eternal life.

My friends, I have heard many testimonies about giving out and God bless them abundantly. I know a man who gave his precious Bible to his neighbour as God said to him "Why it is difficult to give your Bible to people who want to understand more about Me but it is easy for you to spend your money on your pleasure?" Then this man chose to obey what God commanded him to do and he bought the new Bible for $4.73. He said to me, "Alvin, God is great. Last 2 weeks I gave my precious Bible to somebody. Now I rejoice, it is not only because my neighbour start to read the Bible but also I have now a new pair of shoes. Somebody just give them to me. God bless me so much. I hope my neighbour will be touched by God and the person who gave me shoes will be blessed too by God.

He continued saying, "I joined in the Christian retreat for 3 days with my old shoes. Then somebody who sat next to me saw my shoes and she was touched to give me her husband's new shoes. She asked me about my size and she was the one who even rejoiced when she knew my feet size, "Wow, that's my husband's size. Brother, if you don't mind, would you wait for us here. We will go to our room and bring the shoes to you. Please take a look and if you like it, the shoes are yours". You know what, Alvin? I received the very good shoes. Praise God. He continued, "And you know what? Giving the Bible to people is now my new hobby. I have bought my Bible three times. The second time I gave my Bible to somebody, I got hand gloves from God again. I really need it for it is so cold here. I wish there is another person who need Bible". ^_^" This friend of mine is blessed by God so much. I am happy for him.

Another friend of mine gave me testimonies about his mother whose husband has lost his job for more than one year, she doesn't have any income at all but God sustain her family's life. Her faith is so strong, she believes in God and she even kept given out to those who are more needy than her and God blesses her and her family so much. They can continue living without begging any bread, God takes care all their needs. People just come from nowhere and help them. Bible has proven itself to be Word of God and God is faithful. Bible said that, "The king's heart is in the hand of the LORD; he directs it like a watercourse wherever he pleases (Proverbs 21:1)". God really direct people to help His children who love Him and obey His Commandment.

The last testimonies I heard from her is that she and her family are now allowed to stay in the rent house for free. Actually, she doesn't have much money left and she knows that she will be in trouble if until this end of month she can't pay the rent. But again, God is great. The owner of the house suddenly came to her and God touched his heart and instead of asking for rent, he allowed her to live in the house as long as they treat the house as their own house or in the future somebody want to buy that house. The owner promised to give her 2 months to look for house when that time comes. She just believe that God is involved and will always involve in every matter of life.

These people practice what the Bible said, not just understand it. For the Bible said, "Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it—he will be blessed in what he does (James 1:22-25).

My friend, do you know the secret to be blessed by God? Jesus said, "Be careful not to do your 'acts of righteousness' before men, to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven. So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you (Matthew 6:1-4)."

There is a story in the Bible where Jesus saw the rich putting their gifts into the temple treasury. He also saw a poor widow put in two very small copper coins. "I tell you the truth," he said, "this poor widow has put in more than all the others. All these people gave their gifts out of their wealth; but she out of her poverty put in all she had to live on (Luke 21:1-4)."

My friends, stop making it about yourself, but about God. God will not look at your hypocrisy, but your heart. If you give to people or to God just because you want to be acknowledged by lots of people, you already get your reward, my friends. You will not receive God's blessing at all.

Actually, where your money comes from? Is it not from God? You owe your health, air to breath, time to life, sunlight to live, water and food to drink, etc to God. And what is your money for? Can it buy happiness, comfort, joy, etc? Recently, the world's 94th-richest person and Germany's fifth-wealthiest by Forbes magazine (2008), Adolf Merckle, committed suicide. He had $9.200.000.000 in his deposit but still committed suicide. What do you learn from this case, my friends?

Jesus said, "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also (Matthew 6:19-21)."

So, my friends, where is your heart? Heaven or earth? Naked a man comes from his mother's womb, and as he comes, so he departs. He takes nothing from his labor that he can carry in his hand (Ecclesiastes 5:15).

How to store up treasures in heaven? Love unconditionally. Many of us have tax collector's love, not divine love from God. Jesus said, "For if you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect (Matthew 5:46-48).

The more you are blessed by God, the more He demand something for you to share with others. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others. Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus: Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself and became obedient to death—even death on a cross! Therefore God exalted him to the highest place and gave him the name that is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father (Philippians 2:3-11).

2 Corinthians 8:9

For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that though he was rich, yet for your sakes he became poor, so that you through his poverty might become rich.

God bless you

Why some rich and others poor?

My friends, what do you think when you see these pictures? Do you think they deserve it? Do you think they want to be in that position? Do you think it is their fault that they were born in poverty? Have you ever thought that the food that lay waste in your plate can feed them? The clean water you use for washing your expensive cars can satisfy their thirsty? The money you spend for your plasma TV 42" or pleasure can save their lives? The bed you sleep every night can contain many of them? The clothes in your cupboard can cover their body from cold and nakedness? Everyday they struggle to live, to eat, to drink, my friends. Do you think they want to be like that?

They are not drunk, they don't waste their money for pleasure, they just don't have enough, even for their primary needs. They are just childrens and old people and others are uneducated people, who used more of their power and skill to earn money. Do you think they want to be uneducated? Do you think they lack of ambition? Nobody wants to be stupid, everybody want to improve, but they just don't have a chance.

Everyday in their life, they have to choose between living or education, between cloth or food. They don't want to be in that position, but they have to. They don't know to whom they should ask for help, they put off their pride and start begging. Can you understand them? My friends, I am not talking about those who are poor because of lazy or addicted, please don't give them food. For Bible said, "If a man will not work, he shall not eat (2 Thessalonians 3:10)." But how about those who work hard, but still in needy, just because the circumstances are so bad? How about those family who father is sick and can't go to work but they need something to eat? How about those family who need to pay for hospital fee otherwise their mother's life is in danger? They are really needy, they need your love.

I lived in Indonesia for 23 years, some people are lazy, they deserved to be poor, but some are dilligent but no jobs available, no people give them chance, the corruption is so bad, and they have many children to feed. Then, you blame them for having many children. If you do that, God will also rebuke you as He did to me couple of months ago. He rebuked me, "Alvin, if you see a new-born baby, be rejoice for I, God Almighty, has not given up on men. No matter they betray and provoke me, I will keep giving new life in hope they will come to the knowledge of the Truth. I am the One who give them life, not you, Alvin, who are you O, man to talk back to God? I just silent. Fear of the Lord surrounded me.

I am talking to those who claimed themselves as Christians, claimed to be ambassador of Christ. Listen to what Bible said, "What good is it, my brothers, if a man claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save him? Suppose a brother or sister is without clothes and daily food. If one of you says to him, "Go, I wish you well; keep warm and well fed," but does nothing about his physical needs, what good is it? In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead" (James 2:14-17). Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world (James 1:27).

My friends, you spent much money for your pets, your bought them house, shirts, ribbons, and pet's food that even more expensive than human food. You care your cats and dogs more than human being. You treat your dogs as children but you treat human as dogs. Something wrong with your brain, my friends. Have you ever considered yourself just lucky? You could also be in that position, could you not?

Why some rich and others poor?

It is God's will to give you wealth and the other poverty or vice versa. Rich and poor have this in common: The LORD is the Maker of them all (Proverbs 22:2). Do you think God is unjust by making other poor and other rich? Listen to what Jesus said to the rich young man, "If you want to be perfect, go, sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me." But when the young man heard this, he went away sad, because he had great wealth. Then Jesus said to his disciples, "I tell you the truth, it is hard for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven.

Do you think Jesus is lying when He said that it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God? Just ask yourself, do you love your money or God more? Do you serve God or mammon?

There was a rich man who was dressed in purple and fine linen and lived in luxury every day. At his gate was laid a beggar named Lazarus, covered with sores and longing to eat what fell from the rich man's table. Even the dogs came and licked his sores. The time came when the beggar died and the angels carried him to Abraham's side. The rich man also died and was buried. In hell, where he was in torment, he looked up and saw Abraham far away, with Lazarus by his side. So he called to him, 'Father Abraham, have pity on me and send Lazarus to dip the tip of his finger in water and cool my tongue, because I am in agony in this fire. But Abraham replied, 'Son, remember that in your lifetime you received your good things, while Lazarus received bad things, but now he is comforted here and you are in agony (Luke 16:19-25).

This is the warning for the rich man who has no love toward the poor, you are in danger of hellfire. If you think it is joking, you can go on thinking like that, but at least I have warned you. I know some of you don't like to be rebuked or warned or reproof that's nobody care about you. Consider it as my care and my love toward you to bring you back to the knowledge of the Truth. Again, you can mock me with whatever you like for Bible has warned me, "Do not rebuke a mocker or he will hate you; rebuke a wise man and he will love you (Proverbs 9:8). My friends, if you still insist that those mega-churches with Prosperity Gospel and their super-apostles is the "true gospel" and mine is a hard teaching, who can accept it (John 6:60)? Just wait and see. God will open the book on the Great White Throne Judgment and He will make you remember this day. Just think about it.

Many of us treat the church as den of thieves, not house of prayer. We make money there, we make connection there, we make business there. We think that church is the most profitable bank, we give 10% of our income and God will make it prosper, hundred-fold. Do you think God is your wealth manager? Do you think God will make you prosper even though He know your hands are full of blood? Bible said, "Wash and make yourself clean. Take your evil deeds out of My sight! Stop doing wrong, learn to do right! Seek justice, encourage the oppressed. Defend the cause of the fatherless, plead the case of the widom (Isaiah 1:16-17).

You are slapped in the face by your prosperity teachers but you keep smiling. They are not shepherd, but butcher. They want your money not your salvation. They use your itching ears to satisfy you and they make you think that you are already in heaven. Yes, my friends, you are in "heaven", imaginary heaven, heaven that never exist, created by "cut" and "paste" the Bible, remove all those things who talk about sins and hell. Your Bible is just Psalm 23 and Malachi 3:10 and Revelation 21. Nice, is it not?

Some of us treat the fellowship with God as tradition, obligation, giving tithe and offering, attending every Sunday fellowship in hope that God can be mocked by your pretending. You are so funny, my friends. God has this whole universe, what is your money, your gold, your silver, your precious stone for Him? Is He poor? Is He need something from your wealth?

What He wants is your repented heart, you with all your heart worship Him and He will bless you. He loves you and created you with His wisdom, you are special, nobody in the world has the same apperance like you, even the twins. You are fearfully and wonderfully made by Him. He even sent His begotten Son, Jesus Christ, died on the cross for your sins. He just want to have fellowship with men again that has been broken because of our sins.

In garden of Eden, everyday God came to Adam and Eve and had fellowship with them. God took care everything for them, He created everything perfect for them, but still they rebeled. Men wanted to be king for themselves, they didn't want to submit to God. Do you blame our situation to Adam and Eve? Look at yourself, don't you do the same thing? Do you not rebel against God? We are rebellious nations, but still, He keep calling us again and again, in hope godly sorrow work to repentance to salvation come into our heart and we start love Him with all our heart, our mind, our soul, and our strength.

Is it too much for you to give you all your heart and start loving Him and His other creations, your neighbours, your enemies? Is it too much for you when He ask you to love unconditionally, even though He has loved you will all His heart, He has blessed you during your ignorance and He will bless you more if you come back home and if you love your neighbours.

Repent and start doing right or drop your "Christian" status and perish. God is a jealous God. He is jealous when He sees you put your trust on idols which are: your money, your business, your wealth more than Him. He is jealous when somebody take His glory for Him. He is the One who created you but you worship idols and baals made from stones, golds, woods, etc. Is it not stupid, my friends? You want prosperity, you want happiness, you want pleasure then you make gods for them. God of wealth, god of prosperity, etc with their own names: Tsai Shen Yeh (China), Dedun (Egypt), Pluto (Roman), Ganesh (India), etc. These gods make you work like hell and never get satisfied.

Do you know the reason why you keep working and working without rest but still unsatisfied? It happened you are under God's curse. Listen to what the Bible said, "To the man who pleases Him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner He gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God (Ecclesiates 2:26). Whoever loves money never has money enough; whoever loves wealth is never satisfied with his income. This too is meaningless (Ecclesiates 5:10). Moreover, when God gives any man wealth and possessions, and enables him to enjoy them, to accept his lot and be happy in his work --- this is a gift of God (Ecclesiates 5:19).

Do you know that it is God's gift? How many of you who actually rich and have everything, but still, want to be richer and richer? You are under God's curse, my friends. By the way, what is your money for? Will you bring your money to death? Naked a man comes from his mother's womb, and as he comes, so he departs (Ecclesiastes 5:15).

People who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge men into ruin and destruction. For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs (1 Timothy 6:9-10). But godliness with contentment is great gain (1 Timothy 6:6).

Do you worship the Almighty God, whose Presence filled this Universe or you worship mammon who can be contained into this little idols, who can't speak nor breath? Some people never see the devil with their on eyes, can you see now, my friends? Open your eyes and see.

So, if those gold, wood and stones are idols who can't give wealth, how the way of Almighty God in giving you wealth and riches? Remember this: Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously. Each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver (2 Corinthians 9:6-7).

This is the way of God Almighty, the True and Living God. You must give before you receive, not you receive a lot then give very few, in that case, it is called stingy, greedy. And God hates those things. I have seen many rich people who love God so much, they give out all their wealth for the poor, but God keep blessing them, they become richer and richer. I am not surprise for that, for God's promise is applied.

God wants the rich to help the poor. He also said, "For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul (Mark 8:36)? Bible again and again said about equality. Read how the early churches behaved in Acts 4:32 "All the believers were one in heart and mind. No one claimed that any of his possessions was his own, but they shared everything they had."

Our desire is not that others might be relieved while you are hard pressed, but that there might be equality. At the present time your plenty will supply what they need, so that in turn their plenty will supply what you need. Then there will be equality, as it is written: "He who gathered much did not have too much, and he who gathered little did not have too little (2 Corinthians 8:13-15)."

God wants you to share and help the poor so that there might be equality. If you can't do it, ask God to give you more wisdom, otherwise your serving of mammon make camel to be easier to go through the eye of a needly than you enter the kingdom of God.

Jesus gave us parables of the sheep and goats (Matthew 25:34-40) "Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.' I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'

If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen (1 John 4:20). My friends, are you a liar? Do you really love God? Do you really love your neighbours? He who oppresses the poor shows contempt for their Maker, but whoever is kind to the needy honors God (Proverbs 14:31).

Do you know that those poor people are tool from God to bless you even more? Do you know that whatever you did for them, you did for Jesus? Do you know that God is not unjust, He will not forget your work and the love you have shown Him as you have helped His people and continue to help them (Hebrews 6:10).

My friends, why it is difficult for you to help those who are in needy? Bible said, "Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil, cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patinent in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with God's people who are in need. Practice hospitality (Romans 12:9-13).

I am not commanding you, but I want to test the sincerity of your love by comparing it with the earnestness of others. For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that though he was rich, yet for your sakes He became poor, so that you through His poverty might become rich (2 Corinthians 8:8-9). My last question: Is money your god? Do you have love toward people? God bless you

What is in your mind, brothers?

My brothers, do you really know about yourselves? Do you really know about your weaknesses and strength? Some of us will never know because we are ignorant and some of us had been in that position and God opened our eyes and now we can see how wicked is our kinds. I was one of that guy. I know that men are different, but from my experiences I am pretty sure that we are more or less similar, for men understand each others better.

Brothers, it is our nature to be a hunter, to be a fighter. Since the fallen of the world, God has cursed the ground so that through painful toil, man will eat of it all the days of his life. Man need to remove all thorns and thistles before man plant crops, man have to hunt animals for food and man also need to fight with wild animals to protect their people or fight another men from another tribes to defend their territory. Because of that, men learn how to improve themselves better, to increase their physical strength more, to plan strategies well, to work in group but also to be a single fighter and to be senseless. Our world is tough, hard and wild.

We need strategies to defeat and trap our prey and once we capture it, proud and satisfiction filled our heart. We need to learn how to work together with other men not because we want to help each other, but just because we have the same purpose. Inside our heart, we want to be the best, we want to be the leader. We learn how to "use and manipulate" other people who are weaker than us. We have law of jungle, the stronger rule the weaker and the strongest one is the king.

Each of us want to be the best even though there are lots of people stronger than us, but we keep thinking, "today I lost but tomorrow I will win" it continues for the rest of our life, some people are tired keep thinking like that and willing to serve the stronger, agree with them; but some people still have that kind of mind, frictions will always be involved among men. Never satisfied and ambitious, that the words to describe men.

In home, because we have worked hard all days long, we just want to be served and enjoy the rest of the day, so that in the next day we can work well again. We don't want to hear any problems arise from home, "I am tired looking for prey and now you don't allow me to rest" said the men. Because we always deal with animals and enemies out there, our heart is so hard, so senseless. We don't want to understand people's problem. "I have no interest on it. That's non of my business". That's mostly happen in men's mind.

Our pride is too much. We don’t want to lose, we don’t want to show our weaknesses, we don’t want somebody take over us, we want to rule, we want to be the best. When we go home after hunting with other men and start dividing our prey, we start making agreement. I worked harder than you, I should get more than you. We can't share equally. We want to be the best, we want to get the most. Men are selfish, don't care much about others.

Because we are trained to be a hunter, our eyes are so good. We can see our prey from far away. Nothing can escape from our sight and we will start to react immediately when something catch our eyes. It also becomes our weakest problem for we easily tempted with something that catch our eyes, we can't believe in something until we see it first. We use our logic and understanding in reasoning for we have been trapped by enemies, we have lost lots of prey when we are not careful, we have almost died when we made wrong decision.

Because of that, we must first sit down and think not only twice but again and again. We wouldn't believe our ears and heart, but we believe so much in our eyes. We are good in making long-term planning and decision, but we are so dumb in making decision in short time. My brothers, when you have serious problem that need to be fixed soon, just call your wife or your mother and let her guide you for women are good on it and it works well. Again, I talk in general, women and men please don't be angry with me. ^_^ I just want us to understand each other better. As I have written about our sisters, now I just want to talk about men in general. Actually, I am an engineer, not psycholog. I used to deal with laboratory stuff and reactor not human being, but God opened my eyes wider.

Now I want to ask you, my brothers about what is in your mind when you see gir? Do you see her as an object of pride or someone you need to protect? Do you see her as an object for your mating period or someone to live together until the rest of your day? Do you see her as a slave in home or as a mother of your children and suitable helper and manager in home? Do you see her with love or with lust?

Be careful with with your eyes. If you see only from appearance, you will be deceived. Not all the women out there honest and have good heart, the same thing with men out there. But still, I would encourage you to love them unconditionally. I believe, no matter how wicked the people are, they still have heart and if you can touch their heart deep inside them, they will open theirselves to you and you will be a good friend. It is better to have friends rather than have enemies, is it not? You are in the middle of wolves, therefore be as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves (Matthew 10:16). Do not rebuke a mocker or he will hate you; rebuke a wise man and he will love you (Proverbs 9:8).

If you still see girl as an object not a person, if you have lust not love and if you still can't control yourself, you still have lots of beast inside you, you are not a man yet, you are a boy.

If you pick up a wife just because she is adorable, sexy, beautiful. And just because of that you marry her, I believe that after you married her for 4 months, you will see the woman who sleep next to you as a "flesh meat". Your lust is no more there, you have satisfied yourselves during this 4 months period, and now you find her is not so adorable, is not so sexy, is not so beautiful. You treat her as an object more and more, you tried to satisfy yourselves, but you never try to satisfy her. When you do that, do you realize that you treat her as an object not as a person? And not only that, your hunting ability, your adrenaline start to be active again, one prey has finished, you are looking for another one. You need to satisfy your pride again. So if you love women because of their apperance, you put yourself in danger of committing adultery and divorce.

My brothers, when you see adult movie, can you feel that your eyes captivated you? You can't stay away from it. You just want to continue watching. Lust start to arouse inside you and automatically you lock your room and start masturbating. And it affects your life, your mind so that when you go outside the room, you just looking for prey, "big boob" "nice rack" "tight butt" and all those dirty stuff. Are you not a beast, my brothers? Do you want to be free from that addiction?

Maybe you say that it is normal, not addiction, not sin for almost all men do that. If you keep insist saying that, why you need to lock the door and use your earphone or mute the voice? Why you are afraid to tell your parents about that? Again, if you still insist that normal, please masturbate pubilcly, don't do it in darkness, show it to the light. If you are ashamed of it, that mean it is not normal and it is sin. I was one of them and I don't want to deceive myself more. My Saviour, Jesus Christ has set me free. Glory be to God.

My brothers, I had tried to make many commitments in my life. I have burned my CDs again and again, I have emptied my hard-disk from it, I have confessed to pastors, friends, even parents but still it didn't work. After some time, I came back to my old habits and I did double than before. I pitied myself. I was lost and helpless.

I tried to struggle with my own might, my own power but my flesh is so weak, I had always been defeated by my beast, by animal inside me. Thanks be to God, even though I was ignorant, I never harmed people with my animal instinct, I almost failed but God protected me. I know some of us have fallen for we all have sinned and lost the glory of God, we are all sinner, no one is righteous, not even one. We did that in our ignorance, but now since we know that we are not a beast, that we are human being with clear mind, we should behave like a man. Women or girls are like a buttlefly, they are beautiful but weak, they want to be chased but they fly unpredictly. Those who can capture them are wise.

It is just stupid for men to be jealous. It would be better for them to trust and believe his beloved. To protect and to understand her than to show up and boast about yourself and try to proclaim "We are the best among men, choose us". We are not the frogs on mating period, who will try to make noise and get women's attention. We are not the birds who fly here and there to show how skillful we are. We are there to love and to protect.

I believe if you have those quality in you, woman will love you more, she will submit herself to you without force. Man should love woman as he loves himself and she will trust you and no matter there are lots of "better" men around her, she will never leave you. Woman and man are created to be faithful one another. Jealous comes from pride. We can't accept that somebody better than us and try to get our beloved's attention. Jealous is God' right for He is the One who marvelous, omnipotent, nothing can be compared with Him, it is His right to be proud and boastful, not ours.

Anger is cruel and fury overwhelming, but who can stand before jealousy (Proverbs 27:4)? Jealousy is more dangerous than anger and God forbid. The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God (Galatians 5:19-21).

It is not that women are difficult to be understood, or men are difficult to be understood. It because we, men and women are different in nature. God create us to help each others, to be suitable helper. What we need to do when we can't understand each other is: try to communicate often, try to open our heart and be honest one another. LOVE is the key.

Women, please don't harass men's pride for it is sensitive for them and please behave yourselves, if you don't want to endanger yourselves from the beast inside him, please do not ever tempt him. Once lust start to arouse inside him, you will be an object, not a person unless that person can control himself well. Bible said, "If they can't control themselves, they should marry, for it is better to marry than to burn with passion (1 Corinthians 7:9)". But don't be surprise if your marriage will be so boring and routine. Because it happened because of lust, not love, pure love, divine love as Christ dwell in your family.

Brothers, if you still doing masturbation regularly, I know it is very difficult to be free from it. It feels so good, it feel so good. But what happened afterward? You will think "that was it? Why it was so short. I am not satisfied" then you do it more and often. I believe that inside your heart, something condemning you again and again and in your mind it will say "how stupid are you, just because 30 seconds esctacy, you sin before God and you are in danger of hell" Is that what written in your mind?

Jesus said, "But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart (Matthew 5:28). Brothers, do you know this verse? And do you not know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor male prostitutes nor homosexual offenders nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God (1 Corinthians 6:9-10).

Where are you right now, brother: heaven or hell? Will you inherit the kingdom of God? "Ah, Alvin, you make the heaven so narrow, you are false teacher." Brothers, I have warned you, when you meet God on Great White Throne and are judged by Him, He will open a book and He will make you remember of this day. You better repent or you will perish.

It is not my task to beg you to repent, it is not my job to speak with sweety talk to introduce you to Christ. My task is to preach the Gospel, bring you the truth. And Bible said, "Let him who does wrong continue to do wrong; let him who is vile continue to be vile; let him who does right continue to do right; and let him who is holy continue to be holy (Revelation 22:11)."

But brothers, if you are willing to be saved but you always fall into sins because your animal instinct is so strong. Bible said, "Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak (Mark 14:38)." If you have Holy Spirit inside you, you should be able to fight against your ownself. But if your spirit is dead, you will never really that you are beast in human form until your spirit is quicken and now your eyes are opened. You now see that inside you, 2 laws are applied: law of God and law of sin. You do not understand what you do. For what you want to do you do not do, but what you hate to do you do. Your sin is living in you. Please read Romans 7:7-26 for better understanding.

My questions are: Do you already have Spirit of God inside you? Do you able to win over your flesh? Which one is stronger: your Spirit or your flesh? Or do you notice that you are a sinner, not even yet saved? When you notice that, I rejoice for godly sorrow works repentance to salvation is moving in you. Repentance, Salvation, Faith are Gift of God, it is not because of your works, not also because of your traditions, but because God wants to give them to those who are humble, who are honest to Him, confess their sins and want to surrender all, allow Him to rule over you 100%.

Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up (James 4:8-10).

What you need to do is: go to your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. He will give you a chance to start fresh again. You will be a new creation, He will erase your guilt, your past, your bad memories into abundant life, joy and happiness. For the very first time, peace will start to flow in your heart. Peace that you can't get from the world. Peace from God only, peace that your sins are forgiven and remember no more.

Ask Jesus to give you His eyes, His mind, His heart. I did that and He gave me, I see my sisters with pure love, I don't have lust over them, I treat younger women as sisters and older women as mothers, with absolute purity, but I called them all "my sisters". God dealt with me a lot through trial and self-denial and now I see better, I will weep for those porn actresses for they are children of God who are lost. I know their heart is broken, but they don't have remedy, we need to share with them our light. Again, it is not because of my might, but because God give me richly, I learn how to be selfless and allow Jesus to take over me. I just love Him with all my heart, with all my soul, with all my strength, with all my mind. God bless you all

Your sisters under attack

My sisters, is your heart broken? Do you have lots of painful experiences in your life? Do you wish there is time machine to bring you back? Do you wish you can start your life refresh again? I know that feeling, sisters, It hurts, it hurts so much. But, sisters, do you want to be in that position until you die? Don't you want to erase that feeling forever?

Sisters, hold on. Somebody understands your situation and He is willing to help you, He will also satisfy you and take away your pains. But please sisters, no matter my words convict you again and again, take courage and read it till the end for today is your deliverance day. Your time-machine has come. Just have courage, sisters. 10 minutes reading could change your painful moments you have been through all this while.

My friends, we are all sinner, no one is righteous, we have sinned and lost the glory of God. Nobody is better than the others. But somebody has seen the light and his life changed, and others are still looking for the light to change their life. I want to share this light to you so that you will join me in happiness and joy.

My friends, there are lots of things God has done in my life and how He changed me. If He is able to change me, He is also able to change you, sisters. Sisters, I want to share this light to you, to share this peace to you, to share my love to you, that come from God. This is my heart letter, sisters. I really want you to be free from your guilt and your dark secret in your heart. Please read my love letter for you till the end.

I have seen a lot of bad things happened in this world, especially to my beloved sisters. Somebody has robbed her, somebody has lied to her, somebody has taken something so precious from her, somebody has treated her as an object, somebody has cheated her with sweety talks and thrown her up like a rubbish afterward.

She was just an innocent girl who see the world as something beautiful, she was just too young to understand what happened, she was just too pure to see wicked things in the world, but something terrible happened to her and afterward, things around her start to change, her glass-house is broken; nobody cares about her, nobody loves her, instead everybody despises her. Hold on, sisters. somebody will help you. You are not alone.

It happened because of lust so-called "love", it happened because of those wicked, childish boy, so called "boyfriend", it happened because the feeling of loneliness and envious inside you and it happened in your teen ages, but it hurts till now.

You was a teenager, you didn't want to be called "girl" anymore, but you are not yet a "woman". You were looking your self-identity, you wanted to be different, you wanted somebody to feel your presence and know that you exist. Your friends started to be a couple, boyfriend-girlfriend relationship. You were envy too, you wanted to have one, even though you didn't need him and your parents forbid you. But still, you were ignorant, you dated with him behind your parents' back. You didn't know and you are not ready to have relationship, but you want your self-existence to be acknowledged by people around you. Everybody did the same thing, including me.

Some of your parents are too busy with their business, they don't care about you, some of them just trust your development into the school. They just think, "I have chosen the best school in the town, and I expect my daughter to be the best." That's all. Some parents are so selfish, some of them are so busy to care about you, some of them just think about themselves, some of them never teached you something important for the teenager like you, sex.

Your body started to change, girls' breast is getting bigger, you started to have hairs in some part of your body, girls began to have monthly period, boys start to dream and their voice is changed, but your parents never tell you anything about it. It is tabboo, especially in eastern countries. Because of that, you were confuse, you tried to learn by yourself, you asked yourfriends, you bought adult movies and you started to poison yourselves with that kind of mind. You see the ecstasy of them and you want to practice them. Boys began to masturbate and once they felt it, they will become addicted to it. Girls, were so innocent, they didn't like to see that, but once they had boyfriends. This little, childish boy tried to force you to practice what he has seen in the adult movie.

Sisters, it was your dream to have a prince charming riding a white horse, bringing you flowers and rescue you from the black dragon and says, "Would you marry me?" It is your dream to sleep in the glass-tomb until a handsome prince from far away kingdom comes and kiss you gently and marry you and have everlasting joy.

Sisters, whether you admit or not, but it was your dream since you are a child to have only one man in your life and marry him, you believe that the first love never die. And Bible said that woman are created from man' rib. It is natural that woman and man can only have one true love. For woman is somebody's rib and man has lost one of his ribs in behalf of woman. Everybody has his own soulmate out there. I, myself, have lost one of my ribs for God has made a woman for me too and she is somewhere out there, 1 of more than 3 billions women.

If you learn from biology about blood transfusion, blood type B can't be transfused into somebody who has blood type A because the immune system of the recipient will start to active and it will kill and remove those "strangers" out of the body. They can't be united. The same thing with bones. You can't put any rib randomly into your body, because it will hurt the owner of the body and also the rib itself. They can try to manage it but still, they will have lots of friction and hurt each other. They can continue to be like that till the end of their life, with cost: they will suffer painful experiences unless Somebody comes to intervene and reunite you, change both of you into new creations. There is nothing impossible for God. If you have difficult marriage because of your ignorance in the past, bring this case to God, and He will heal you.

If it just the matter of physical body, it will recover soon, but this is the matter of heart, it is a painful moment when the one whom you put your trust, betray you, despise you, leave you, etc. It hurts so much and it is so difficult to be removed. I have tried to joke with my life, I put my life as an "experimental-mouse", I did trial and error with my heart. Try to find my best's rib to fit my body. In the end, it just hurt my heart again and again.

So, I started to ask God, for it is hopeless to find 1 of more than 3000000000 women in the world. I don't have 9 lives to life, I don't have backup heart to change my pains. But I have God as my Father, who know the best for me. He has prepared her for me and will give me on His perfect timing. Yes, men can do that, but how about women? Men can learn from the past, but women, when something precious of her has been robbed, who can give her back? Sisters, be strong, keep reading.

Because of childish things so called "boyfriend and girlfriend", because of lust which you are mistaken as "love". You start to endanger your future. The innocent girl, out of love and purity, give everything to her boyfriend, because she just think that he is her prince charming. She loved him so much and she was so afraid of losing him. She mistaken "lust" as "love", she mistaken "sin-partner" as "boyfriend". Once in her life time, he forced her to show him her love, he forced her to give him a special present, her virginity. He used sweetly talk and her ears become so weak, her heart melt, her body can't be controlled. She fell into his trap and she gave him her everything, her world, her pride, her crown, her life.

My sisters, I know deep in your heart, virginity is the most important thing you have. It is your crown, it is your integrity and you will only give it to somebody you love so much, you just so pure and innocent, you think your boyfriend will marry you afterward. Both of you trapped in something called "lust" and both of you become "sin-partner". You give the most valuable thing you have, your ownself. You trust your future, the rest of your life into his hand. You never realize that he is not ready, you never realize that he is so wicked and evil, you never realize that he is so shameless. After he took the most important thing in you, your virginity, he just changed to be another person, or even worse, he went to his friends and boasted "I scored her", some of them even distribute video about your private moment. Some of them left you when he knew that you were pregnant. Let God judge them strictly.

Men are selfish. I am a man myself, it is part of my past. We don't know the effect start to happen in women's life afterward. She will start to despise all men, she will start to hate men, she will start to harm men, she lost her faith, her confident on men. Men are beast. Some of them became lesbians and some of them became unsettled. "Who will marry me? Nobody wants me anymore". The only tool you can use to bring man to you is by selling yourself cheap.

Sisters, if you are in this situation. Keep strong, hold on, you will be delivered from this situation. Keep reading.

Unconciously, devil has pierced deeper into your misery. He lied and robbed you even more. Something evil started to raise in your heart, it says "I will make men suffer, I will make men kneel down under me, I will make men chase me like crazy, I will seduce men, I will destroy the happiness of other couple by stealing the man and make him my slave."

You unconciously start selling yourself cheap, you will change partner like you change your clothes, you will have sex with every man who want to be your boyfriend. They just come and go in your life. You treat him as an object, he treat you as an prostitute. Both of you using each other, just because hatred in your heart. Devil has lied to you, sisters. Stop ruining your life. You are fearfully and wonderfully made by God. You are daughter of King, Almighty God. You are not supposed to dwell in that position at all, at all. Come back to your sense and go back home to your Father. He will help you.

Don't deceive yourself by saying "Hymen is just a hymen. Nothing valuable from it. It is not a big deal." I know, deep down in your heart it is the most important thing, because it is your crown, it is your pride, once you don't have it any longer, once you give to the wrong person, your life will never be the same again. Your glass-house is scatter into pieces, your heart is broken, and hurt so bad. You began to despise those who still have it. You envy them and you want them to join you so that they will understand your feeling. Again, devil has put his grips on you.

Sisters, please don't ruin yourselves any longer, don't harden your heart any longer, I know my words convicted you again and again. I want you to be saved from this terrible feeling for your lifetime. You need help, sisters. You need somebody who understand you. You need somebody who care about you. I do care, sisters. I want you to have a new life, happy and joyful. I know a person who has time-machine for you. He will change your life miraculously and take your guilt instanteneously. His name is Jesus.

Sisters, do you know that you are precious? Do you know that God put His wisdom in making you? You are so beautiful and adorable. You are not a failure, you are not a mistake. Sisters, please don't let anyone deceive you and hurt your heart anymore. Please stop hurting your heart more and more. God want to heal you no matter how bad your situation is. You are created by Him, He will help you, sisters.

I know your heart is too fragile, I know it is hard for you to continue reading. But Jesus does care about you. There are lots of stories in the Bible where He saved women and make them whole. Mary of Magdalene, Samaritan women who has 5 husbands, Jesus loves them all, He also loves you. He wants to give you a new heart. He wants to erase your pain. He is God, sisters. He knows the very hair of you, He knows your dark secret deep down in your heart. He just wants you to be honest with Him and with yourselves. Stop ruining your life, sisters. Please, you are not suppose to be in that position, you are too valuable to be there.

Sisters, everybody makes mistakes at time of his ignorance, especially when we are so young and innocent. We are not ready to face this wicked world alone but we rebeled against our parents and asked them to allow us move from the home. I know many of us regret this and wish you will be in your home with your parents a little longer until you are ready. But, it's not the time to regret, but the time to heal. God will give you new heart.

What you need to do is: go to your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. He will give you a chance to start fresh again. You will be a new creation, He will erase your guilt, your past, your bad memories into abundant life, joy and happiness. For the very first time, peace will start to flow in your heart. Peace that you can't get from the world. Peace from God only, peace that your sins are forgiven and remember no more.

You will think that it is stupid, but I have been in that position and I am a new person now. Sisters, do you really want to dwell in that position for all your life? Hating yourself and other people? Deceived by Satan and keep selling yourself cheap? I don't want you to stay there, and Jesus even love you more than me. He wants you to come back home, to be His belongings. He will take care of you and allow nobody hurt you anymore. He is faithful, sisters. You are His daughter who are lost. He is looking for you and knocking at your heart's door.

Just be honest to God, tell Him everything, He will listen and He will never condemn you, He is your Father. He loves you so much, sisters. Come back home. I love you too, sisters. Please, humble yourself and be honest to God, confess your sins and ask His help, ask Him to change your life, surrender all to Him. And you will be born again into a new creation, the old has passed, the new has come. Your deliverance has come, your salvation has come. Please, don't lose this opportunities. God bless you.

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Parents, please educate your children, supply anything their need (moral, knowledge, wisdom, love) before you send them out from home. Many of them are not ready, the world is too wicked for them, they will easily become prey of wolves. Teach the the Word of God.

Men, do you realize what you have done? Do you know that some of you have ruined your sisters' life? Imagine your own sister, who has flesh and blood like you, was robbed by somebody else, will you not be angry? So, please guard your way in relationship with your girlfriend. Don't let "girlfriend" change to "sin-partner". Actually, I don't agree with this kind of relationship. You are not making trial and error with your life, are you? You are not a beast, are you? You are human being with clear mind, are you not? You can control your body, can't you? Don't say "I am on my mating period, I need to be satisfied." You better read the Bible. Immorality, adultery will not inherit the kingdom of God.

Matthew 18:6

But if anyone causes one of these little ones who believe in me to sin, it would be better for him to have a large millstone hung around his neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea.

My sisters who still so young, don't allow any man take your virginity, until he married you. Once you lose it, you will regret it and your life will change from good to bad, from bad to worse. You are somebody's rib. Take care of it, guard it till your marriage, so that you can say to your husband, "My darling, I have guarded myself, just for you. i love you." That's your dream, your prince charming will not force you and seduce you. He will wait so that you will not be ashamed.

Brothers and sisters in the Lord, see around you. The world is wicked. The survey has stated that 90% the girls have lost their virginity before they married. You know what will happen? Do you know the reason why they change partner so often? It is because she hates man and want him to be her slave. She need your help, your understanding, your care, your love, the divine love from God. Bring healing and deliverance to them. They are ruining their life without they know it. You whose eyes are opened, please come to them and save them, they are our sisters who lost. Help them.

Brothers, if you love a woman who is not virgin, will you condemn her? Please brothers, everybody makes mistaken, everybody was ignorance once. We are growing, brothers. Love doesn't see how perfect she is, Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres (1 Corinthians 13:4-7). Please forgive her and be married with her.

Arise, men and women of God, our sisters are under attack, bring deliverance for them. Care for them, love them, tell them about Jesus, tell them that God loves them and wants them to be saved.

God bless you

What are you New Year's Resolutions?

2008 has passed, 2009 has come. I believe that most of us have made a new resolution for this year. I want to ask you something, "what are your new year's resolutions?"

• I will study harder so that I can have a better opportunity in finding job
• I will find a good job so that I can supply myself
• I will work more diligently so that I will get a raise
• I will become rich so that I can buy whatever I want
• I will buy a new car so that I can show it to my friends
• I will go on vacation so that I can enjoy myself

Are those resolutions written in your paper? That's good, my friends. Nothing wrong with that, most of the people in the world do the same thing. That's just normal and it means that you are ambitious, you want changes, and you want to improve more and more, and you are worldly.

But can I ask you something? Did you make the same resolutions last year? How many of them were fulfilled? Did you still keep focusing on them after one month? Maybe you have committed to lose 10 kg weight, to do more sport, to improve more, you tried and tried until you got tired; in the end, resolutions for one year just applied for one month or even one week. Then you just came back to your old habits. Nothing improved.

"Okay" you said, "I will improve this year". Some of you are now more optimistic and you make other resolutions. You specifically wrote that you will improve in matter of A, B and C. "The things that failed me last year must succeed this year, nothing can stand against me" you said. "If last years I failed to save $10000, so this year I have to save $20000 to re-compensate last year stagnancy and this year target". What an ambitious man you are.

My friends, I just have one advice for you. Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil. Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins (James 4:13-17).

So, instead of boasting every New Year and not be able to cope with it. You better learn how not to focus on yourself. "I will..." "I will..." It is not all about you, it is all about Him, It is all about Jesus Christ. You must be selfless, not selfish. Bible said "He must increase, but I must decrease (John 3:30)."

My friends, Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.

Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. Because of these, the wrath of God is coming. You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator. Here there is no Greek or Jew, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave or free, but Christ is all, and is in all.

Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity (Collosians 3:1-17).

Please, my friends. Start focusing on things above. Commit yourself to be more like Jesus and put to death whatever belongs to your earthly nature, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience as your resolutions for your daily walk in Christian life started from today. It is for your own good. You should start to be rich toward God.

Jesus told this parable: "The ground of a certain rich man produced a good crop. He thought to himself, 'What shall I do? I have no place to store my crops.' "Then he said, 'This is what I'll do. I will tear down my barns and build bigger ones, and there I will store all my grain and my goods. And I'll say to myself, "You have plenty of good things laid up for many years. Take life easy; eat, drink and be merry." "But God said to him, 'You fool! This very night your life will be demanded from you. Then who will get what you have prepared for yourself?' "This is how it will be with anyone who stores up things for himself but is not rich toward God (Luke 12:16-21)."

Imagine if this situation happened to you. Would it not be so stupid, my friends? So, you better make resolution "What God wants from me to do?" "What God wants from me to improve?" ""Do I already like Jesus?" "Can people see Jesus in me?" etc. Be more like Jesus. God bless you.