Apology letter for non-christian friends (Church messes up)

My beloved non Christian friends (moslems, hindus, buddhists, atheists, idol worshippers, etc), I want to ask apology for the condition of the churches today. I know it is not my position to represent the whole churches in the world. I am just nobody, just a voice in wilderness, just a young man who has great desire to know Almighty God and when I found Him and know His unfailing love, I want to share it with you so that you will know that God loves you and want you to be saved.

I was born in Christian family and I was so thirsty about God, I kept looking for Him but I can't find Him. With time, my logic and my understanding developed, and I could see the situation around me better. The more I used my logic and understanding, the more I was tired of being "Christians", being "hypocrites". I saw the condition of the churches and despised them, I even despised myself for my hypocrisy. I chose to be an atheist and hated the churches.

My non-Christian friends, I would always be in agreement with whatever you say about the churches for many of them are not the churches at all. I thank God because He separated me from the churches so that I can see from outside about the situation inside the churches and it is terrible. I was blind when I was part of it, but the moment God opened my eyes, I become to know the reason why people hate the churches. I am very grateful to Him that in my great disappointment about the churches and Christianity, He called me back, He captured and satisfied my heart, He showed His great love to me that make me always wonder and stand in awe, "How great Thou art". I have Almighty God as my Father. Can you imagine that?

My friends, God really wants to lavish His great love to you, to take your burdens, your problems, your painful experiences, your dark secrets, your nightmares, and everything that you find it is difficult to face. He wants to say to you, "My child, don't worry, don't be afraid, I will bring deliverance for you. I will fight for you, you need only to be still (Exodus 14:14). He said "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. You are His creations and He wants to be your Father. He loves you with all His heart.

This Almighty God is the One who created this universe, including us. Even though we are just a breath, a person among 6.7 billions of people, far smaller than sun, moon or other planets, but in His eyes we are the most precious creatures for He created us in His own image (Genesis 1:27). We are fearfully and wonderfully made by Him (Psalm 139:14), our hairs are numbered by Him (Matthew 10:30), He knows everything (1 John 3:20). He knows our past, present, and future. He know our pains, our joys, our problems, our success, everything. We are not a mistake, we are not a scum of the earth, we are not an object of mockery, we are God's possession. He put His wisdom in making us. Just see our thumb-print, there is no other person in this planet has the same thumb-print as we are. We are special in God's eyes, my beloved friends.

I, personally, want to ask apology from you for the condition of the Christianity and churches around the world. The Bible standard about the Christianity, and the church has been diluted. We are no different than "happy, joyful Christians" who love God when everything works perfect and disown Him when things happened on the opposite side, when temptation comes and persecution rise up, we fall away. We are hypocrites and liars. We are selfish, wretched, poor, pitiful, blind, naked but still we claim "I am rich".

We are the most dividing Body in the world. We have more than 39000+ denominations and each of them claiming themselves to be the best. We have faction and dissension and Bible clearly says that most of us will go to hell. God will judge us more strictly because we are behaving as stumbling block and shut the kingdom of God from you.

Galatians 5:19-21

The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.

Many of us said, "I follow Luther" "I follow Calvin" "I follow Wesley" "I follow Arminius" "I follow Moody" the Bible said that when we behave like that, we are worldly, we are carnal, we are infant in the Lord (1 Corinthians 3:1-4). Some people said, "I am Baptist" "I am Charismatic" "I am Pantecost" "I am Orthodox". Again, we have faction and Bible said that we will not inherit the kingdom of God.

The fact that there are more than 3 different church' names within one street hold service at the same time is untolerable. They compete among themselves for people, for building, for money, etc. Each of them says that they are the only one who handle the truth correctly. Many of them put their own name as the name of the church. Do they want to glorify their names or God' name?

My beloved friends, the churches today are not what Jesus wants. He prayed His last dying prayer to the Father for His disciples "May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that You sent Me and have loved them even as You have loved Me (John 17:23). Jesus wants us to be one so that the world will see that God really dwells among us, that Jesus is really Immanuel, which means "God with us" till the end of the age. But as you can see, each day we just divide ourselves more and more.

Bible demands from us that within the church everybody should serve each others, the strong help the weak and each of us should please our neighbour, for Christ didn't please Himself (Romans 15:1-2). The rich help the poor as Christ that though He was rich, yet for your sake become poor. At the present time your plenty will supply what they need, so that in turn their plenty will supply what you need. Then there will be equality (2 Corinthians 8:14). Pastors, evangelists, teachers, workers, apostles are their servants not their lords (Luke 22:26). Jesus said, "Whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be slave of all. For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life as a ransom for many (Mark 10:43-45).

But the situation inside the churches right now is far from being in unity and we don't have love and compassion about people, we don't care about the needy and the poor, we don't defend the weak, we just selfish, power-hungry, crazy-respect people. We have tax collector's love who love only people who love us and respect people who respect us. We demand something in return from them. My friends, I don't know how to fix this mess but please don't see Christianity from the churches today, but see it from Jesus Christ. Just imagine if all those who say that they love Jesus is start behaving like Jesus, behaving as one body, behaving as brothers and sisters, practicing their love, will the world not in peace?

We claim that we are children of light, and the world is in darkness, the problems, troubles, tribulations we face right now is not because the world behaving as the world, they are in darkness since beginning, but because we, the ones who claim to have light, didn't go to the world and show our light, our true identity as Christ ambassadors in the world. We are lazy, idle, busibodied, self-righteous, proud, selfish Christians. We choose to put our light under the bowl because we are afraid of losing friends, being persecuted, being disowned by people. We don't have heart like Daniel and his three friends who chose to be persecuted instead conform to the world. They chose to stand for the truth instead bowing down to the world.

We know that Jesus is the way, the truth and the life. No one can come to the Father, except through Him (John 14:6), we know that salvation is Gift of God, we know that God is a jealous God and He hates sins, idols, pride. We know that wide is the gate and broad is the road that lead to destruction and many enter it. We know many of you are walking straight to hell unless someone stop you and bring you back to God. We know that He loves you and want you to come to Him, repentance toward God and faith toward our Lord Jesus Christ. We know that God also want you to enjoy all the benefit as the children of the Living God. We know about that very well but we choose to go to heaven alone, we choose not to tell you about this, we are afraid of persecution that we might receive from you. We choose to let you stay in darkness and die without salvation. We do not want to share our light and forever we will be a "happy, joyful Christians" who love God when everything goes perfect, but hate Him when we are persecuted because of His name.

My friends, I know that you also have desire to know Almighty God, you struggle here and there, you wish you can meet God in the church and learn from Christians about God, but when you see how the "Christians" live, those who claim to be Christ disciples, their life is even worse than unbelievers and not only that; you even see many pastors, preachers, evangelists, priests in the news: do poligamy, homosexuality, immorality, money fraud, make name for themselves, and all the sins that maybe you will never find outside the churches.

My beloved friends, I know how your feeling, I know your opinion toward institution so called "church", toward people so called "Christian" for I was in your position. But let me speak out with all my heart about those who claimed to be "Christians", to be "pastors", to be "leaders of the church" but have no love toward each others, no forgiveness, no self-control, and keep on sinning, etc; all of the are hypocrites. Jesus opposed them so much, Jesus wanted them to act in righteousness and holiness, to be a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless. He wanted us to express our faith through love. It is not Jesus' will that the Christianity like this. We are too far from the Bible standard. The churches mess up. The church is not a building, the church is the body of believers which Head is Jesus Christ.

Matthew 7:21-23

"Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. Many will say to me on that day, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?' Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!'

There are many Pharisees and Scribes in the churches in form of pastors, preachers, evangelists, etc. Jesus said to them, "The teachers of the law and the Pharisees sit in the Moses' seat. Everything they do is done for men to see. They tie up heavy loads and put them on men's shoulders, but they themselves are not willing to lift a finger to move them. They make their phylacteries wide and the tassels on their garments long, they love the place of honor at banquets and the most important seats in synagogues, they love to be greeted in the marketplaces and to have men call them "Rabbi" (Matthew 23:2-7).

Do not call anyone on earth "father", for you have one Father and He is in heaven (Matthew 23:9). But the fact that many of us call man as Pope (Papa, Father, Holy Father), Vicar of Christ (Christ's Representative). We are deliberately taught by that institution to blaspheme God, we are deliberately taught to follow men (preacher, pastor, priest, pope) more than God, to honor them more than God. We are taught to follow teaching, sacraments and tradition of men instead follow God's Word. God is a jealous God, He will never share His glory to His creations.

They shut the kingdom of heaven in men's faces, they themselves do not enter, nor will they let those enter who are trying to. They travel over land and sea to win a single convert, and when he becomes one, they make him twice as much a son of hell as they are (Matthew 23:13-15).

My friends, do not allow these men to shut the kingdom of heaven from you, do not allow these men to make you twice as much a son of hell as they are. They are making converts, not disciples. They make people to always depend on them, not God, to follow men, not God. They never tell people to read their own Bible and learn from God. They don't want people to have their personal relationship with Him. They want people to always focus on their teaching so that they can direct them as they like. They want people to keep give them money so that they can buy private jet, luxury house, expensive cars, etc and pay their bills.

My beloved friends, you do not deserve to go to hell because you hate these kind of practices, because you are tired of their hypocrisy. Do not let these people steal your eternity. Jesus also opposed them and want them to serve people not lord and rule over them. Jesus loves you and wants you to be saved.

They said, "If anyone swear by temple, it means nothing, but if anyone swears by gold of the temple, he is bound by his oath". They also said, "If anyone swears by the altar, it means nothing, but if anyone swears by the gift on it, he is bound by his oath (Matthew 23:16-18)."

They don't care about people salvation, they just want people to flock into their churches and paying tithe and offering. They twisted the Word of God for their own benefit, they make road to salvation wider just to please people's itching ears, they always preach about blessing, about love, about peace, about freedom, about power, about gift of God, about prosperity, about money, about anything good that you can even be found in the world. If people can find the teaching of the churches in the world, why they should go to the church?

These "preachers" know very well that if they preach like Jesus or Paul preached only a remnant will stand till the end and it doesn't need a genius to know that their income is the function of the number of the people in the church. The more they are liked by the people in the world and many new converts come to the church, the richer they will be. Pastors, preachers, evangelists are the good business in making money, especially when we have economic crisis like today.

They have power over people, they have "word of God", many people see them as "God's servants" and because many people are too lazy to read the Bible and can't discern the spirits, whether they are ferocious wolves under sheepskin or true men of God, they can use that advantage to deceive them, take advantage from them and gain glory for themselves. They publish their own books, CDs, casettes and sell them in the church while they are preaching. People just walking around during the service distributing the things. God rebukes them. What do you think, my friends, they are doing good business or God's business?

They even don't care about their own salvation, they don't know that they will be judged more strictly (James 3:1) and it would be better for them to have a large millstone hung around their neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea (Matthew 18:6). They shut the kingdom of heaven in men's faces, they themselves do not enter, nor will they let those enter who are trying to.

They are like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside but on the inside are full of dead men's bones and everything unclean. On the outside they appear to people as righteous but on the inside they are full of hypocrisy and wickedness (Matthew 23:27-28)". To those people, Jesus said, "Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites!!!

My non-Christian friends, do not let these hypocrites and pharisees rob your salvation. That is not what Jesus wants. He wants you to be saved, He wants the Christians start behaving like Him, walk in His path, follow and obey Him. But we love to be on our own. We are gods (little gods) of ourselves we are kings of ourselves. I know some of you are looking for the truth but you can't find it and when you see the Christian, you despised them and because of that, many of you chose to be atheists, you hate this world, you tired with the people, you hope you can find the answer, but you can't. I was like that before until Jesus came and saved me. He loves me so much and He loves you too, my friends.

And the conditions of the churches are not better than their pastors, teachers, etc. The churches mess up. Please don't be alarmed, my friends. God allow that to happen. Bible said "No doubt there have to be differences among you to show which of you have God's approval (1 Corinthians 11:19). Many of us believe in everything our pastors, preachers say because we are too lazy to open our Bible and Bible said, "If a blind man leads a blind man, both will fall into a pit (Matthew 15:14)." Many of us follow blind men but we trust them as "men of God". It is God's mistake or our mistake when we end up in hell because we are too lazy? Not only that, we also have itching ears, somehow we can "differenciate" between "men of God" and "heretic".

If the preachers always talk about money, prosperity, blessing, wealth, freedom, little gods, you be you and not be what God wants, we will clap our hands and say "Wow! Awesome message, it blessed me! He is a man of God, indeed. I will come to this church next week. Finally!! I have found my church where my "faith" could grow". The "faith" they are talking about is like this "Declare with your faith, believe in your heart that in the same date next year, we will have new Mercedes in our garage" or "if you give tenth of your income, God will reward you multiply, give your money to the pastors and the churches and see what will happen. God will bless you abundantly".

But when they talk about judgment, sins, hell, being like Jesus, carry your cross daily, deny yourself, follow Him, they will say "This is a hard teaching. Who can accept it (John 6:60)? He is "heretic" "false teacher", let us shut him up. They try to kill them as their forefathers did to the prophets. Jesus said to them "You snakes! You brood of vipers! How will you escape being condemned to hell? Therefore I am sending you prophets and wise men and teachers. Some of them you will kill and crucify; others you will flog in your synagogues and pursue from town to town. And so upon you will come all the righteous blood that has been shed on earth, from the blood of righteous Abel to blood of Zechariah son of Berekiah, whom you murdered between the temple and the altar. I tell you the truth, all this will come upon this generation (Matthew 23:33-36)

Why don't you read the Bible and find out the Truth by yourself? I tell you the truth from 2.1 billions Christians, there are only a remnant that will be saved, most of us will go to hell. Bible said, "Many are called, few are chosen (Matthew 22:14). God said, "these people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. They worship me in vain, their teaching are but rules taught by men (Mark 7:6-7). Many of us wearing mask to the churches. Many of us behaving as a good man but inside us full of selfishness, jealousy, envy, hatred, no mercy, no forgiveness, no love. We just want to be called "children of God" but we act no different from "children of darkness".

Do you want to know the Bible Standard about true genuine Christians, Jesus' disciples? Please read carefully these 3 verses and see from your Christian friends and if they still have these qualities and claimed to be "children of God", go and oppose them.

1 Corinthians 6:9-10

Do you not know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor male prostitutes nor homosexual offenders nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.

Galatians 5:19-21

The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.

Revelation 21:8

But the cowardly, the unbelieving, the vile, the murderers, the sexually immoral, those who practice magic arts, the idolaters and all liars—their place will be in the fiery lake of burning sulfur. This is the second death."

My friends, I am not making the way to kingdom of God to be so narrow, but it is the Bible standard, those mega-church preachers and prosperity preachers are the ones who make salvation is so cheap, precious blood of Christ is unworthy. The Christianity you see today are not Christianity Jesus wanted, we are far from being the radiant church, being the body of Christ. Please, don't see Christianity from the churches today but see it from the Bible, see how Jesus lived, how He died for you, for us to be saved, how He resurrected on the third day and because He lives, we have hope, we have future that after we died, we will also resurrect with Him to the Father's house in heaven.

My beloved friends, if you are not a big fans of the church, neither do I. Let's shake our hand and oppose their wrongdoing. If you repent and put your faith in Jesus Christ. God will give you power to change things. Stop putting your faith in stones or woods or animals or trees or human beings. They can be prophets, wise men, learned men, kings, saints, or whoever. They are all dead. Only Jesus who sinless and live forever, He resurrected on the third day after He died for our sins. He Himself the image of invisible God, the radiance of God's glory and the exact representation of His being, sustaining all things by His powerful word (Hebrews 1:3).

God loves you and want you to be saved. Do not allow hypocrites and stumbling blocks in the church to hinder you from Kingdom of heaven. Your soul is precious. Heaven will rejoice everytime a soul repented. Take His yoke upon you and learn from Jesus for He is gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. His yoke is easy and His burden is light (Matthews 11:29-30). You can't go to heaven if you don't know the truth, if you don't know the way, if you don't know the author of life. And Jesus said "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me (John 14:6).

My non-Christian friends, we are all the same, we are all sinners need to be saved, we are going straight to hell, no one is righteous, not even one. We have sinned and fall short the glory of God (Romans 3:23). For that reason, Jesus came from heaven and died 2000 years ago for our salvation, to pay our death penalty, He exchanged His life, His precious blood with our eternal damnation. If you believe in Him with all your heart and surrender all to Him, He will give you Spirit of sonship, and by Him we cry "Abba, Father" (Romans 8:15).

If you read the Bible standard about who will inherit the kingdom of God, it seems impossible for mankind to overcome those things but Jesus said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible (Matthew 19:26)." For that reason we need help from God, we need His grace to be saved. We need God's Spirit inside us to enable us to walk in righteousness and holiness for the spirit is willing, but the body is weak (Matthew 26:41)." We need our nature to be changed, to be a new creation, to be born again and have Holy Spirit inside us, without Him, we will always fall. For that reason, we need Jesus in our life. If we believe by faith His resurrection power, that He died for us and raised up on the third day, that He is Son of God, the Word who became flesh, God Himself, God will pour out His Spirit to us and with Him, we can overcome the world, we are more than conquerors.

Read Bible, repent, asking His mercy and forgiveness, invite Him as personal Saviour and allow Him to rule over you, fully submitted to Him and your life will be full of noise, full of surprise, full of blessing, but also full of persecutions, especially from those hypocrites who are envy with you. "How can you be so holy, so righteous, so yada yada." They will not mock what you have said, but they will mock your personal. Do you know what to do? Bite your tongue and bless them.

My will is only this: that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father (Philippians 2:10-11). I want to see God' Spirit move among people like happened in the past that people can't stop confessing their sins and preaching the Gospel to all the nations. I want to see God conquer the world in these last final days. I want to see Restoration of the Church, Revival of the Church and Purification of the Church. I pray for the fire to come, whatever it costs. Persecution, great tribulations, etc. Let those unbelievers burn the churches where there is no Almighty God there, closed the Christian Bible studies where they teach false doctrines, banned churches that worship and teach another Gospel. But let God judge those unbelievers justly afterward.

I also pray for those unbelievers who try to prevent God's people to preach salvation and the Truth, their plans and devices will fail, they can't stop the Way of God. This is my prayers: God, remove all the hypocrites, all immoral brothers, all children of darkness from the churches, uses any means to do that and bring Your children who still lost out there, who are still confuse and do not know God, who are tired with the churches but hungry for the Truth. Let them find You and come to the true Church where God is the Head, not the pastors, elders, or groups of people. In Jesus' name, I prayed. Amen.

God bless you

Letter to Theist Friends (Why do you believe in God?)

Hi, my dear theist friends

I am glad that you believe that there is God because only a fool who says in his heart there is no God (Psalm 14:1). Lot of my atheist friends actually not a fool, but they chose to be a fool because of us. They see hypocrisy in us. We are wearing mask daily but keep saying that we love God even though our life testifies the opposite. We are the stumbling block for them. Let's examine ourselves: are we really believers or hypocrites?

My friends, I have a question for you: why do you believe in God? I have asked many people about this and many of them answer me "it is because I don't want to go to hell" "it is because I want to go to heaven"

I can somehow determine people's salvation from their answer. If they still saying "I don't want to go to hell" or "I want to go to heaven" they are most probably will go to hell. Why? Because they make "heaven" or "hell" as their idols and God is a jealous God and idolaters will not inherit kingdom of God. I am not playing God, but it is written.

1 Corinthians 6:9-10

Do you not know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor male prostitutes nor homosexual offenders nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.

Those who idolize "heaven" more than God Himself, those who have fear about "hell", they don't know God, they don't love God with all their heart, their soul and their mind. Why? Because they see God as an angry God and it is true only if you choose to be His enemies. So, my theist friends, your heart and your mind already testified about your salvation when you answer my question above: whether you are enemies of God or friends of God? If you still see God as an angry God, it means that you are still His enemies, no matter how good and righteous you are, you will always be His enemies. There are two reason why you still afraid of Him.

1. You are still wearing mask, you still serving two masters: God and mammon. You say in your mouth that you love God but in your heart you are far from Him. You continue living in sins, you are neither hot nor cold and because of that you are afraid of Him.
2. You still don't know the way, the truth and the life. You still looking for the Truth to satisfy your heart, to give you peace in your heart that your sins have been removed.

Do you know what the different between the true worshipping and fulfilling obligation?

If you still enemies of God, you will try to do good by your own might, you will help the poor because you are obligated to, you will follow Golden Rule to get points from God, you will go to temple or church or mosque because it is your obligation, because God demands it from you, you will try as best as you can, not to commit sins, you will make many commitments that last only for quite some time, you will follow tradition and sacrament in hope God is pleasing with you, you will go to sacred place in hope you will get more points, you will share about your faith with others because your Holy Book tell you to do that, you will fast to get more points, you will observing God's law carefully and said "this is sin, that is pagan, do not handle, do not touch, do not taste". You just want to collect points from your good deeds in hope that God is pleasing with you.

Don't you realize that you are having false humility and those kind of religious acts are based on human commands and teachings? Such regulations indeed have an appearance of wisdom, with their self-imposed worship, their false humility and their harsh treatment of the body, but they lack any value in restraining sensual indulgence.

Some of them will go to solitary place and exclude themselves from people because they want to live far from temptation, e.g: temple, monastery, nunnery, jungle, etc. Some of them choose not to eat some specific food not because of health reason, but because the holy book tell them to do so, e.g: cows, pigs, four-legs animal, etc. They are just fulfilling their obligation in hope God is not angry with them and in the end He will give them mercy. They are really zealous for their God. My theist friends, just be honest to your heart: are you not tired doing that obligation? How long you can continue doing that?

Now, let me tell you what the true worshipper will do. They will love God will all their heart, their mind and their soul, they will worship God with joy, happiness and laughter, even with their tears of joy, they will always want to listen to His Word written in His Holy Book by nature, they will go to fellowship because they know that God is there, ready to teach them more, they will share about God to others because they want others to have the same joy, they will not deliberately continue living in sins because it is in their nature, they will love others because God's love dwell in their heart, they will bless others even though they are persecuted, they will not selfish, greedy, and love of money, they will always want to share the blessing they have, they will not conform to any evil things, they will stand for the truth even they have to risk their life, they will defend the poor, help the needy and have compassion toward people, they will live in righteousness and holiness, they will be opened to everyone, always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres, they will overcome evil with good.

In short, they will love their God will all their heart, their soul, their mind, and their strength. And they will also love their neighbours as they love themselves. It is their nature. They don't work for it, God give them a new heart, new mind, new spirit and strengthen them by His grace through faith. It is Gift of God to those truth seekers and humble people.

How can that be possible? Jesus said, "With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God (Mark 10:27)." We will always fall and fail if we keep trying to do it by ourselves for it is not our nature. Our flesh is indeed weak, when temptation comes most of the time we will fall into it. We have sinful nature, we always want to do bad thing, to do evil thing, to satisfy our own flesh even though we know that there are lot of temptation and sins in it. We just can't do it. We know God's law is holy and His commandment is holy, righteous and good, we know everytime we transgress it, we commit sins before God, but we just can't help it. Deep inside us we know that God's Law is spiritual but we are unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin.

We do not understand what we do. For what we want to do, we don't do; but what we hate, we do. And if we do what we don't want to do, we agree that law is good. As it is, it is no longer we ourselves who do it, but it is sin living in us. We just know that nothing good lives in us, that is, in our sinful nature. For we have desire to do what is good, but we can't carry it out. For what we do is not the good we want to do; no, the evil we don't want to do---this we keep on doing (Romans 7:12-19).

If you feel exactly like that, there is a hope for you. Godly sorrow leads to repentance is now working inside you asking for help, asking how to be saved. My friends, God loves you and He doesn't want you to go to hell, you are fearfully and wonderfully made by Him. It is our sins that keep Him in hidden. God is Holy, Holy, Holy, He can't tolerate any sins, even just a little, small, tiny sin. For even though you keep the whole law and yet stumble at just one point is guilty of breaking all of it. We need His mercy to save us for we can't reach Him by ourselves. Mercy triumphs over judgment!

If you see our ancestors of old, they laid their hands on the head of goats, cows or sheep and put all of our guilts and sins to that goats, cows or sheep and let them die for our sins for without shedding of blood there is no forgiveness. Those animals are our atonement of sins. That's why in every religion, we have the shedding of blood for forgiveness (Hebrews 9:22).

But you tell me, after you transfer your guilt and sins to those animals, can you stop sinning? Will you not need to always present animal sacrifices every year? You know by yourself that you will always sin before God. For if we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us (1 John 1:8). God is just, He bound all men over to disobedience so that He may have mercy on them all (Romans 11:32). You are not the only one in this world who sin before Him, but all. There is no one righteous, not even one (Romans 3:10) for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God (Romans 3:23).

Now, don't you feel tired with your tradition, sacrament and religion? You keep doing it since you were child but your heart never be satisfied. And you always seek the truth for you salvation. My friends, God loves you. He wants you to be His children, not His enemies. He wants you to call Him "Abba, Father" that's why He sent His begotten Son, Jesus Christ to die on the cross, so that through His death, the shedding of blood for our forgiveness has been ransomed.

He is a sinless man and He is Son of God and He is God Himself. but He chose to take the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness, and being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself and became obedient to death --- even death on a cross (Philippians 2:6-8). He sacrificed His body once for all to justify our sins, to take away our sins and nail it to the cross. His blood is precious blood, He is our Lamb, He is Lamb of God. If you believe and put your faith in Him, that He has died for our sins and He resurrected, sit on the right hand of God. God will not only give you mercy, but grace.

He did it because He loves us all, His own creation. He knows that it is impossible for mankind to know the true salvation for God is Holy, Holy, Holy, but we are all sinner unless He came down from heaven above to this earth below in form of human likeness, born in Spirit. All the prophets testified about Him, "The virgin will be with child and will give birth to a son, and they will call Him Immanuel --- which means, "God with us" (Matthew 1:23). He is the Saviour of the world. He is the way, the truth and the life. No one can come to the Father, except through Him (John 14:6). He is the Word of God who became flesh. For in beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning.

If we believe in Him, we will not only receive God's forgiveness, but He will no more hide Himself from you. You will receive all the blessing that He has prepared for you since the beginning of the creation. Salvation is gift, Repentance is gift, gaith is Gift, God will not give them to you if you not draw closer to Him. If you are not humble yourselves to Him.

So my theist friends, Bible said, "submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and He will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and He will lift you up (James 4:7-10).

The word is near you, it is in your mouth and in your heart, that is, the word of faith we are proclaiming: That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you are confess and are saved (Romans 10:8-10).

Pray to Him, my friends. Go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you (Matthew 6:6). If you truly seek Him with all your heart and confess all of your sins to Him until your heart satisfy, something miraculously with start to happen inside you. River of living water will start to flow from your belly like electricity and flow swept all over your body and cleanse you. You will feel God's Presence. If you have not receive that, you are not finish confessing yet, you still hide something from Him. We are all naked in His eyes, He knows all about us, He is our Creator, He just wants us to be honest to Him.

And if you have struggled with your faith and God is satisfy with you. He will pour down His Holy Spirit, He will change your heart, from stony heart to heart of flesh, He will change your nature from sinful nature to godliness, He will renew your mind so that your freewill will work in accordance to His great will that He has predestined for you before the creation of the world. He will give you peace in your heart that you can't ask for more. You will wish you will die at that time, instead losing your salvation.

You will love your God will all your heart, your mind, your soul, and your strength, you will love your neighbours and you will be able to call Him "Abba, Father" and you will enjoy all the benefit of being children of God. Your chains will be broken. You are no more under yoke of sins.

Don't see those stumbling blocks in the churches. Many of them just confess that "Jesus is Lord" in their mouth while their heart is far from God. God will judge them more strictly for those people are hypocrites, they shut the kingdom of God in men's face. They themselves do not enter, not will let those who are trying to enter. Some of them travel over land and sea to win a single convert, and when he becomes one, they make him twice as much a son of hell as they are.

Don't let any people rob your salvation, my friends. Ask God's forgiveness and mercy with all your heart and confess it with your mouth, pray to Him and He will make you whole, He will give you Gift of God and grace. Your body will be His temple, God will dwell inside you. You will always full of love, faith and hope. Please, if you are tired doing ceremonial religion tradition, go to your room and pray, wrestle with Him until He bless you and pour out His Spirit. Before you receive that, you will always be the enemies of God.

"Today, if you hear His voice, do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebeliion (Hebrews 3:15). Surrender all, be reconcile with God through Jesus Christ that has died for you on the cross and resurrected again. And through His power of resurrection, you have hope about tomorrow, that you have overcomed your death, your flesh, your sinful nature. May the Lord give you burden in your heart to confess your sins.

I know some of you will think that this is stupid and full of foolishness. I am so sad for your soul. For since today, when you hear His voice but you chose to harden your heart, He will harden more and more. He will send you powerful delusion so that you will only believe in lie and all will be condemned because you refuse the truth (1 Thessalonians 2:11-12).

1 Corinthians 1:18

For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God.

Now, I am looking forward for you to answer my question: "Why do you believe in God?" God bless you

Letter to my atheist friends (Science = Art of Lies)

Hi, my dear atheist friends

I, personally adore you who can say boldly with such a great faith, "God doesn't exist. I don't believe in God". I was an atheist too but it only lasted for quite sometimes because I can't neglect my own existance. I have reasoned one way after another and used my own logic to deny God's presence, but I just can't. I always came to the point that Somebody must have created me. I just can't believe that my ancestor came from rock or lightning or whatever.

I really want to ask the reason why you choose to believe and put your faith on the result of experiments (big bang, evolution, abiogenesis, etc) done hundred years ago when there was no computer, no microscope electron and no incubator available? Do you know that in this age of technology there are many new discoveries have been made to refute the previous ones?

The increasing of knowledge and technologies allow people to have more access to do their own researches and publish their papers which somehow make science becoming more unreliable. One group will refute the others and they think they are right, others are wrong. You can just go to scientist forum and you will see many scientists involve in debate. For example: if you believe in "abiogenesis" then you will not support "biogenesis" and till cows come home you will never find agreement because it talks about faith, about belief. Now if you are not a scientist and never do your own experiments but you believe so much on someone's hypothesis, you are such a brave man, especially since we are saturated with unreliable "scientific" journal.

I am an engineer myself. I used to read lot of chemical journals and many of them are full of manipulated data. There are lot of unproduceable experiments and if I use them to build the industrial pilot plant, 99.99% it will blow up. They are published by unknown authors, some of them want to be famous and earn money from patents, some of them are master students or PhD students who need to hand in the result under some specific time, they are forced to do that otherwise their work will be counted failed, some of them are just want to make people confused. People have different reason and intention in publishing their own papers.

You should ask for proof and evidence, my friends. Do not just follow the crowd. Just learn from history when Copernicus opposed all people in 15th century that the sun is the center of our solar system and the shape of sun, moon, and the earth is round like ball. The crowd think that Copernicus was crazy. But you know exactly who is right: Copernicus or the crowd? The same thing happen with most of us, we believe so much that big bang, evolution, abiogenesis, etc are valid and reliable just because it is written in our elementary school and taught all over the world, but we ourselves never tested them on our own, just follow the crowd.

What will happen if you chose the wrong theories? Especially when it talks about God's eternal judgment, heaven or hell. Would you dare to risk your eternity? What if there is afterlife? Do you sincerely believe that God does not really exist? If you do, for this reason I admire your great faith. And if you have that strong faith, would you allow me to test your faith? Let's reason together and check whether you put your faith on rock or sand, my friends.

Let's start. I believe that you choose to have faith in "abiogenesis", in the "big bang theory", in the "origin of life" which say that the life happened when the lightning struck the atmosphere consist primary of CH4, NH3, H2O, H2S, CO2, CO, and PO4 and fell into primordial soup and reproduced themselves there. Have you ever checked the reliability of those experiments and theories?

My friends, it doesn't need a genius to know from our organic chemistry lesson that C, H, O, N, P, S and halogen can form functional group and our DNA, genes, cells, etc consist of these groups. These elements will form the body of biomolecules. Those who proposed this theory would always right when they say that these atoms can form biomolecules.

But they had too much wine and got drunk when they think that the atmosphere consists mostly of CH4, NH3, H2O. Why don't you just open your high school chemical book and you will know that earth's atmosphere contains roughly (%mole) 78% N2, 20% O2, 0.25%, H2O, 0.93% Ar, 0.04% CO2, and traces of H2. N2 is inert gas (can't react) so without reaction, nothing happened. No life can occur. They boldly said that life came when lightning struck these elements. Again, the reason they said that is because lightning struck is needed for energy and the primordial soup is needed for food. So body, energy and food = living creature. I can also make another theories who involve these three important things if I want too.

So my friends, why don't you ask them "where are those CH4, NH3 and H2O which they claimed to be the most in the atmosphere?" Don't be surprise if the answer you will get is: the atmosphere in 3.0 billion years ago was different. Why don't you ask them "Were you there so that you can know, were somebody in this earth 3 billion years ago?" If you are still not convinced, why don't you prove those theories by yourself with our advanced equipments? I believe you will never get even the most primitive single cell from your experiments. If you can make even the simplest living creature from nothing, it means you are God. I will worship you, my friends. But if you can't prove it, would you believe that there is God? Don't worry. I will not force you, let us continue reasoning.

Do you know what the scientists did to justify their discovery? They used the time that nobody can prove by saying the big bang happened 20 billion years ago, and our earth is in existance 4.6 billion years ago, the first primitive life existed in the earth 3 billion years ago. Their basic assumptions is: this first living cell can reproduce themselves, they need food to grow and one way or the other, mutation can occur. But don't ask them why these assumptions are valid, for they themselves can't answer it.

Again, it doesn't need a genius to figure these out.

• Because of reproduction: the next generation can appear and it continue until we have about 6.76 billion of people (estimation January 2009)
• Because of food: increasing growth is possible, from the single cell to double cells and it continue until it is about 10 trillion cells in average human adult body.
• Because of mutation: cells can change from protozoa to all those invertebrata's ordo and species and from them to fish, from fish to amphibi, from amphibi to reptile, from reptile to aves and mamals and from apes to human.

With these prerequirements and the assumptions, they think that they are now able to deny God's presence. So, my atheist friends, please don't be angry with me if I tell you that your ancestors are apes. You are the grandchildren of apes. Here is your ancestor. Does he look like you? See your face on the mirror, you should be angry with Charles Darwin, not me.

Actually, the lies can't stand and it is not difficult to refute evolution or big bang or abiogenesis theory by mathematical equations or physic. Do you know second law thermodynamic? The entropy will go to infinity, ΔS>0 which simply means the system has great tendency to go to chaotic state instead of perfection. Just use our daily life, it is easy to scatter all things rather than to collect and bind them together, is it not? It need an extra tidy works so called energy to bond and hold them together.

So you tell how can it be possible to make all the chaotic things in this universe work in order? The Big Bang theory is nonsense because they believe in perfection, instead of chaotic. It is impossible because it was void in the beginning, no sun or whatever as source of energy. How can two stars hit each other without energy? And who created those big stars?

Again, let's simple daily life if two cars are parking, without movement and driving force, will they join together? Of course not, right? At least somebody enter one car or two people enter each car and hit the accelerator pedal toward one another and BOOM, two become one. It needs energy from accelerator pedal, from combustion of oil to works for it is impossible for two become one without energy. So, you tell me how can it possible for two stars that separate far far away to hit each other without great driving force? Bible clearly answer it.

Colossians 1:15-17

He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together

Now about evolution theory, the same reasoning is used. It is our nature that it is easier to be chaotic than to work in harmony. How can mitochondria, nucleus, DNA, RNA, chromosom, golgy body, ribosom, lysosom, or whatever work in harmony if the nature teach us otherwise? Somebody must have put them together again. Just see this video and tell me is the primitive cell really primitive or our brain is to small and tiny to understand Somebody's wisdom?

"But, Alvin. We have lot of data that say the world is 4.3 billion years old. We have fossils, ancient rocks or plants or whatever and the experimental result showed us that from C14 isotope trace we can predict the age of the earth. Your Bible said the world is about 6000 years old only, that can't be. It is too young".

About the fossil, we can't argue that dinosaurs were really existed, but about when they existed, you need to ask first about the method of the experiments, are they valid or not? Let's use again our daily life, why don't you bring bones of your dead dog which died couple months ago and tested them with C14 isotope. And don't be surprise when you get the result that the age of your dog was 10000 years. My friends, you need to prove all things; hold fast that which is good (1 Thessalonians 5:21).

"Alvin, I have one final question for you. If you believe that everything created by God, who created God then?" The only answer I could give, do you know the first law of thermodynamic? What will you answer if your physic teacher ask you? If you answered "Energy can't be created nor destroyed", I believe you will get 100 point. And why you can believe such a theory but deny God who can't be created nor destroyed. He is the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. All things are created by Him. He is the source of energy, source of life. He is Almighty God.

Somebody must have created us, somebody must maintain this world to be perfectly work in harmony. Sun rises and sets everyday, season come and season go, flowers blossom and die, animals born, reproduce themselves and die and so is it with human. Our DNA, genes, cells work in comformity. If there is no God the world will always be in void, no life at all. And assuming that the world exist by itself, but still without God the world will always be in chaotic manner. It is God's Presence that makes them hold together in perfect state. The reason the world is fallen, wicked, evil like this is because of sins, men rebel against God, they want to be gods (little gods) for themselves.

My atheist friends, do you know Jesus? Either you believe that he is God or just a man, but He is indeed a perfect man, is He not? Just imagine if every Christian who says that he loves Jesus start acting like Jesus, will the world not in peace? The reason you can't acknowledge Him as God because the kingdom of heaven hasn't been given to you yet, but godly sorrow leads to repetance can work even right now inside your heart, wanting you to confess your sins and beg for mercy, but on the other hand, some people will despise this message of cross as foolishness. I am sorry for those people for they are perishing, even when they are still living.

1 Corinthians 1:18

For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God.

There are only 3 reasons why you are an atheist:

1. You never heard about God at all for nobody preach to you or you are the product of communism world who teach that there is no God.
2. You hate this world, you hate the hypocrisy of religious people who said they love God (Christians, moslems, hindus, budhist, etc) but their life is even worse than yours. You blame God for all the bad things that happen in this world, poverty, famine, war, etc. You want to have love, peace and joy, but can't.
3. You like to live in sins, you enjoy dwell there and continue sinning, but something inside your heart always disturb you, you know it is God who works through your heart and your conciousness bear witness about God's Law and your thought accusing you. And because of that accusation, that guilt, you declared "God doesn't exist", just to kill that condemnation inside you so you can enjoy living in sins forever. Bible teach me to hand you over to Satan, let Satan ruin your life even more until you are tired and start looking for God and probably you will be saved.

No matter what category you are into, the truth is: you are walking straight to hell. For even demons believe that there is one God, they even shudder (James 2:19). But how can you boldly say "I don't believe that there is God. God doesn't exist." Are you more wicked that the demons themselves? If God has prepared lake of fire for demons and their children, will you join them?

If you are evil, wicked man, you have nothing to lose, but if you are good, helpful, nice atheists who tired of this world and hate the people around you who are all liars and hypocrites, you do not deserve to be in hell just because you see "stumbling blocks" sitting in the church. They are the ones who suppose to be in hell, but not you.

God will even use you greatly to change that situation around you, to make those "christians" start behaving like Jesus. I tell you the truth. If you see "Christians" with these kind of sinful nature, go straight to them and say that they are stumbling block, they will not inherit the kingdom of God. You will be a good preacher of righteousness, but you will also be a hypocrite if you yourself haven't repented first.

Galatians 5:19-21

The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.

The more you hate the world and hate your life, the more you will be used greatly by God. What you need to do is to repent and confess all of your sins and have faith that God is exist and has sent His begotten Son, Jesus Christ to save the world and surrender all, let Jesus reign in your life.

Whether you believe or not, God is indeed exist. And He will judge you justly and when the time comes you can't argue with Him, you can't reason with Him, heaven or hell is already decided at that time, you have chance only during your lifetime, but God is great, He gives human freewill. You have your own freewill, you have wisdom, you have everything to determine your eternity, just be wise.

And to those whose heart is hard, who think that God has made mistakes and He is sleeping when He allows this world like this, let me tell you something. It is not my business to beg you to believe in God, but why don't you see Jesus' life? He also wants the people in the world to start loving their neighbours, to give than to receive, to bless than to curse, to love than to hate. But the world rejected Him, they even hang Him on the cross just because He speaks the Truth, He wants people to live righteous and holy. It is not God's will that the world is like this, God is Holy, Holy, Holy, He hates evil. It is our sins, it is our rebellious acts who want to be gods (little gods) that make this world like this.

God is not sleeping nor slumber, He is patient with us, imagine if He already destroyed this world, where will you be if heaven and hell exist? But don't worry, whether you believe God or not, this world will be destroyed with fire soon. You will no longer see this world soon.

Go and read the Bible and learn more about God, don't go to mega-churches for there are full of hypocrites. The bigger the church, the more the hypocrites. Why? Because Bible said, "for the time will come when men will not put up with sound doctrine. Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear (2 Timothy 4:3). They are lukewarm, hypocrite, serving 2 master, living in sins "Christians". They are glamour, wear sexy suit and jewellery, trusting money more than God, love their dogs more their fellow brothers. They are no different with Hollywood. You will despise God even more if you go there.

Bible also said about Jesus' true followers, "Then you will be handed over to be persecuted and put to death, and you will be hated by all nations because of me (Matthews 24:9) In fact, everyone who wants to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted

(2 Timothy 3:12). So, if you see missionaries going from one place to another, preaching about Jesus, even though they are stoned, persecuted, but still, they refuse to cease, you better learn from them, not from big, mega churches pastors whose god is in their belly and devour even the widow and weak willed people.

Be careful in choosing the church, my beloved friends: when they teach Jesus is not God, like mormon or Jehovah witnesses, or teach sacrament and tradition for salvation like Roman Catholic Church, or teach observing law like Judaism, Zionism, etc, you better stay as an "atheist" and read Bible and ask God to teach you. You will be atheist who believe in God. ^_^ Go to church where you can see true love, divine love, unity of believers, and God is their Head, though it is difficult to find, but there are still remnant of them.

If you sincerely repent and surrender all, have faith in Him, He will teach you and direct your path. Your soul is precious. You are fearfully and wonderfully made by God. Read your Bible and if you are willing to see a better world, show Galatians 5:19-21 to those stumbling blocks in the church who has made you go against God all this time. Don't let any man steal salvation from you and push you to hell. God bless you