Hari2 bersama Tuhan

15 April 2007, hari pertama gua menjalani idup dalam tuhan
gua bener2 pengen serius dalam pengenalan akan tuhan
gua mulai bisa mengucap syukur en mengerti kenapa tuhan taro gua di jerman
gua mulai bisa menghargai bimbingan tangan tuhan

If you knew me for a long time, you will see something really change in my life
gua yg dulunya nyolot, percaya diri berlebihan,
merasa dirinya paling hebat, paling pinter
gua rasa jalan gua ke jerman itu semata2 usaha gua sendiri
gua punya nilai bagus waktu S1, GRE, TOEFL smua memenuhi standar
en jadilah gua sekarang di jerman, Tuhan jg berperan sebagian kecil

but, since then, I realize, how stupid I am..
this brain I have, this wisdom I have, the health I have, and everything I have
even the money I used, if there are not from God..from whom?????

These are gifts from God to my life,
even I can still breath up until now, this really only by grace
gimana kalo tuhan panggil gua waktu gua kecelakaan motor kmrn2
tangan kanan en kiri gua uda pernah patah, gigi gua ilang 2, dagu gua dijahit
maut datang deket banget sama gua..berkali2 tuhan selamatin gua

Alvin, kenapa kau begitu bodoh selama 23 taun ini???
kenapa loe ga pernah jadiin tuhan yg terutama di idup loe?
kenapa loe cuma datang sama tuhan klo loe butuh en bersyukur klo loe lagi happy?
do you know, how terrible you are?? you make God grieve so much with your life
thanks God..Dia masih sabar sama diri gua ini
Dia selalu kasih gua waktu utk balik, en skrg gua mau bilang
'God, this is me, this is Alvin, since today, I want to dedicate my life onto You'
'Do whatever You want in my life, I believe in You with all my heart, my body, my brain.'
'I love you Jesus, you are my God, my Savior, my Lord.'
'If you can use anything Lord, you can use me.'
Do something through my life..to please You..to repay Your mercy in my life'

JESUS, YOU ARE MY GOD, MY SAVIOR, MY LORD, I humble myself onto you.