God's Way is not My Way

English version: http://alvinsu.multiply.com/journal/item/134

Aku mempunyai satu orang teman yang menolak untuk percaya kepada Tuhan sejak dia melihat begitu banyak penderitaan di dunia ini. Dia melihat lebih dari 160 ribu orang mati saat tsunami, lebih dari 65 ribu orang mati di Sichuan Province, China. Banyak orang mati karena perang, kelaparan, bencana alam, dsb.

Dia lalu datang dan menantang diriku, 'Alvin, dimanakah Tuhanmu? Tunjukkan kepadaku Tuhanmu? Apakah Dia benar-benar hidup? Jika Dia benar-benar hidup, mengapa Dia membiarkan hal2 seperti ini terjadi?' Aku dapat merasakan kesedihan yang mendalam di hatinya, dia merasa tidak berdaya dan terbeban saat dia mengetahui berita gempa di negaranya, China. Banyak orang mati, orangtua kehilangan anaknya, anak kehilangan orangtuanya, menjadi yatim piatu. Tanpa rumah, tanpa makanan, tanpa bantuan. Ketika aku melihat berita tersebut, aku pun menangis dalam hatiku, dan berseru kepada Tuhan, 'Tuhan, bantulah orang2 ini, berikan kelegaan kepada mereka, biarlah mereka mengenalMu, tunjukkanlah kasihMu kepada mereka, my God and my Saviour.'

My friends, aku mengerti dengan sangat perasaanmu kepada Tuhan. Kamu ingin kedamaian, cinta kasih, masa depan yang lebih baik, tapi kamu tidak dapat menemukannya, malah kamu hanya semakin melihat penderitaan dimana2, orang semakin hidup dalam kesusahan. Mereka menangis, mereka depresi, mereka menjadi letih lesu, mereka membutuhkan bantuan. Dan karena kamu tidak pernah mengenal siapa Tuhan yang sebenarnya itu, adalah mudah untuk kamu menyalahkan semuanya kepada Tuhan. Meski di dunia ini ada yang namanya Tuhan dan Iblis, yang tidak terlihat. Tapi kamu hanya ingin menyalahkan Tuhan bukan Iblis.

Saat ini aku tidak sedang mencoba membela Tuhanku, siapakah aku ini? Tuhanku adalah Tuhan yang hidup, Dia dapat membela diriNya sendiri, bahkan Dia berkuasa untuk melakukan apapun juga terhadap mereka2 yang melawanNya. Dia adalah Tuhan yang dapat menghancurkan tubuh dan jiwa dalam api neraka. Dan melalui artikel ini, aku hanya ingin membagi sedikit pemahaman mengenai Tuhan. Aku ingin kamu mulai belajar mengerti yang namanya God's way (Jalan Tuhan).

Ada sebuah kisah mengenai seseorang yang selalu mengeluh dan komplain kepada Tuhan. Dia tidak pernah puas dengan semua hal yang dia terima selama hidupnya, dia selalu menyalahkan Tuhan untuk semua hal2 buruk yang terjadi di hidupnya. Lalu Tuhan mengirim malaikatNya untuk menemui orang tersebut melalui mimpi.

Dalam mimpinya, malaikat Tuhan membawanya mengunjungi 3 rumah yang berbeda. Pada rumah pertama, mereka mengunjungi sebuah rumah yang sangat nyaman, pemiliknya menyambut mereka dengan riang. Dia berkata, 'Hi, Saudaraku, selamat datang di rumahku. Hari ini adalah hari special bagiku karena tetangga sebelahku, yang selama 20 tahun ini terus menaruh dendam kepadaku, hari ini dia menyadari perbuatannya dan ingin mengakhiri konflik diantara kita, dan sebagai tanda damai, dia memberikanku sebotol anggur mahal, mewah.'

Jadi, mereka menghabiskan makan siang di rumah tersebut dan ketika hari semakin sore, malaikat Tuhan dan orang yg selalu mengutuk Tuhan ini pamit dan berkata kepada penghuninya, 'Damai sejahtera Tuhan turun atasmu, my friend,'

Dalam perjalanan ke rumah berikutnya, orang yg selalu mengeluh ini menjadi sangat shock saat dia melihat bahwa sang malaikat ini membawa botol anggur. Dia mulai bereaksi dan berteriak kepada malaikat, 'Apa yang kamu lakukan? Mengapa kamu mencuri anggurnya?' Sang malaikat mencoba untuk menenangkan dia dan berkata, 'Tahan amarahmu, Tunggu saja dan saksikan.'

Lalu mereka pergi ke rumah kedua, pemiliknya adalah seorang tua dan terlihat tidak ramah, dia membuka pintu dan mulai berteriak kepada mereka dan berkata, 'Hey, apa yang kalian lakukan di depan pintu rumahku? Aku tidak menerima pengunjung. Aku telah menerima banyak orang mengetuk pintu rumahku dan berbicara mengenai Yesus. Aku capek, tolong tinggalkan aku sendiri.' 'Ok,' kata sang malaikat, 'tapi sebelum kami pergi, ijinkan saya untuk memberikan kepadamu sesuatu.' Maka diberikannyalah sebotol anggur itu kepada orang tsb.

Dia menjadi sangat senang, tapi tetap menolak untuk mengundang mereka masuk. Lalu keduanya pergi dan mengunjungi rumah ketiga. Dalam perjalanan, si pengeluh ini kembali bereaksi dan berteriak, 'Kamu malaikat bodoh, kamu mencuri anggur dari orang baik dan memberikannya kepada orang jahat. Bagaimana kamu dapat dipanggil malaikat, wakil Tuhan?' Sang malaikat kembali menanggapi singkat, 'Tahan amarahmu, Tunggu saja dan saksikan.'

Lalu mereka sampai di rumah terakhir, dihuni oleh seorang kakek tua, yang telah kehilangan semuanya dan menjadi seorang pemabuk, dia tidak peduli akan apapun juga, hanya satu yang membuatnya punya alasan untuk hidup, cucu satu2nya, kesayangannya, buah hatinya. Dia mengundang mereka masuk dan mempersiapkan makan malam untuk mereka. Dia sangat senang karena masih ada orang yang mau mengunjunginya. Dan ketika mereka selesai makan dan hendak pulang, sang kakek berkata, 'Mohon maaf, teman2ku, aku tidak dapat menemani hingga ke gerbang kota, hari telah larut malam, tulang2 rentaku tidak mampu menahan dinginnya angin. Tapi sebagai gantinya, ini, cucu kesayanganku, biarlah dia saja yang mengantarkan kalian, tapi tolong dijaga. Dia sangat berharga untukku.'

Ketika akhirnya mereka berangkat menuju gerbang kota, dilihatnya ada sungai besar. Mendadak sang malaikat ini mendorong anak kecil itu ke dalam sungai, dan akhirnya mati tenggelam saat itu juga. Si pengeluh ini kembali bereaksi dan tidak mampu lagi mengontrol emosinya, dan berteriak sekencang2nya, '#'+*%&$&....Kamu malaikat gila, aku muak untuk semua ini, jangan sebut dirimu malaikat, wakil Tuhan, katakan kepada Tuanmu, Dia adalah Tuhan yang jahat, Tuhan yang hanya merasa diriNya selalu benar, ingin selalu dihormati. Aku benar2 muak.'

Lalu akhirnya sang malaikat mulai menjelaskan semuanya tentang rencana Tuhan

Rumah pertama yang kita kunjungi itu, tetangganya sama sekali tidak pernah berpikiran untuk berdamai. Anggur yang diberikan kepada penyambut kita itu telah dicampur dengan racun. Itulah sebabnya aku mengambil daripadanya. Aku ingin menyelamatkan dirinya.

Rumah kedua, pemiliknya adalah seorang yang jahat, dia selalu melakukan hal2 yang jahat dimata Tuhan, banyak orang telah datang kepadanya, menceritakan tentang Yesus, tapi dia selalu menolak. Dan Tuhan melihat bahwa orang ini akan melakukan hal2 yang lebih jahat kelak. Itu juga lah alasannya mengapa aku memberikannya anggur yang telah dicampur racun, untuk mencegahnya melakukan perbuatan jahat yang bakalan mengambil banyak jiwa.

Rumah ketiga, aku melihat seorang yang selalu dipenuhi kemabukan. Dia tidak mampu mengatasinya. Bayangkan seandainya si anak kecil itu hidup dan tumbuh besar di lingkungan yang demikian, penuh kemabukan dan dimanja. dia hanya akan menjadi sampah masyarakat kelak. Itu sebabnya aku ambil nyawanya, saat dia masih polos, sehingga dia dapat berada di surga. Mengenai sang kakek, jangan khawatir, meskipun cucunya ini adalah segalanya, dia tidak akan kehilangan semangat hidup, Aku telah mengutus anakKu untuk membawa kelegaan kepadanya. Aku sangat peduli akan jiwanya, dan aku akan memberikan kelegaan kepadanya. Aku mengasihinya setulus hatiku.

Lalu akhirnya si pengeluh ini mulai trembling, dia tidak punya lagi argumen akan Tuhan. Dia sekarang mengerti bahwa Jalan Tuhan itu bukan jalanku. Amen.

My Family's Big Testimony (Part II)

My friends, mungkin saat ini kamu masih melihat embel2 Jermanku, kalian pikir aku sombong, aku mau pamer tentang studiku, berasal dari keluarga berada, dsb. Mungkin kamu berpikir aku adalah orang yang beruntung, orang yang tidak pernah kekurangan atau memiliki masalah. Semua kebutuhanku dipenuhi entah bagaimana caranya. Kamu tidak mengenal diriku yang sebenarnya kalau kamu berpikiran seperti itu.

Aku hanyalah seorang biasa, tidak ada sesuatu yang menonjol, tapi aku punya Tuhan yang hidup, Tuhan yang mampu merubah air menjadi anggur. Seperti itulah juga, Dia mengubah aku yang hina, tidak dipandang orang menjadi anak2Nya, yang mampu memancarkan terangNya yang bercahaya, mata semua orang akhirnya mampu melihat terang di diriku. Dialah yang mengangkatku tinggi, dengan catatan, aku harus terus setia dalam melakukan perkara2 kecil terlebih dahulu, dan Dia akan terus tambah2kan. Jika kamu masih melihat embel2 Jerman, Master, Engineer, dsb, tolong luangkan waktumu untuk kenal siapa aku sebenarnya di http://alvinsu.multiply.com/journal/item/49/. Aku hanyalah seorang yang memiliki ambisi besar bahwa Tuhan yang aku sembah, Tuhan Yesus, boleh disaksikan dimana2, terutama di Indonesia.

Kamu yang mengerti bahasa indonesia akan tahu betapa beratnya beban yang keluargaku alami di My Family's Big Testimony.

http://alvinsu.multiply.com/journal/item/4/

Disitu aku menceritakan bagaimana keluarga diobrak abrik iblis tanpa sisa sama sekali, hingga hanya tinggal nyawa dan kesulitan2 saja.

Rumah, mobil, deposito, bahkan anjing pun harus diambil dari kami. Papa tidak ada pekerjaan sejak Nov 2007, mama sakit2an, adik perempuanku punya banyak masalah di kantornya, 2 adikku lainnya bermasalah dengan ketakutannya bahwa suatu saat rumah bakalan diambil bank, dan memang telah diambil sejak 1 Juni kemarin, dan bahkan adikku yang terkecil terancam tidak naik karena di reportnya dia punya merah 9 biji dan hanya ada 1 kesempatan saat UAS. Secara akal manusia, hal itu benar2 sangatlah tidak mungkin, orangtuaku dipanggil menghadap gurunya untuk dipersiapkan hatinya soal kemungkinan tidak naik tersebut. Dan saat ini aku berada di penghujung kuliah masterku, jujur bilang, dana di bankku terus merosot mendekati titik nol, padahal aku musti mengerjakan thesisku, no money from my parents, no much time to work. Betapa iblis berusaha menjatuhkan keluarga kami.

Tapi disini aku tidak ingin boasting about masalah2 keluargaku dan aku sendiri. Tapi aku ingin menyaksikan betapa Tuhan itu terus terlíbat di dalam keluargaku dan satu persatu semua masalah diselesaikanNya secara ajaib. Aku ingin boasting bahwa Tuhanku adalah Tuhan yang hidup, Tuhan yang menjawab doa2, doa2ku, doa2 keluargaku, doa2 dari kalian semua, my brothers and sisters yang terbeban utk berdoa bagi keluargaku. Doaku aku tulis dalam Letter for My Family. http://alvinsu.multiply.com/journal/item/78/ Dan satu persatu, Dia jawab.

Papaku, dia telah mengerti rencana Tuhan bahwa masalah ini adalah untuk membawanya dan keluarganya mendekat kepada Tuhan. Dia telah memberikan seluruh hatinya untuk Tuhan, dan seperti yang aku selalu tekankan, it's not magic. Begitu kamu dengan seluruh hati kamu mengaku dosa dan menyesalinya, berkomitmen untuk tidak melakukannya lagi dan meminta Tuhan hadir di hidupmu melalui Roh KudusNya, bertahta di sisa hidupmu. Dia akan benar2 hadir dan menuntunmu. Dia akan menjadi nyata, kamu secara otomatis akan menggemari segala sesuatu tentang Tuhan. Kamu akan mulai senang membaca Alkitab, bersekutu dengan saudara2 seiman, dan berdoa. Semuanya itu kamu lakukan bukan karena ibadah, bukan karena terpaksa, bukan karena kebiasaan, tapi karena kamu merasakan hubungan yang indah setiap kali kamu melakukan itu. Meskipun sekarang masalah keluargaku dan papaku begitu besar, tapi ada kedamaian di hati kami, kami tidak pernah kuatir dan ragu akan Tuhan kami, Tuhan Yesus.

Aku melihat ada regenerasi dalam diri papaku, dan aku tahu, itu bukan karena kuat dan gagahnya, atau komitmennya semata, tapi karena Tuhan telah benar2 hadir di hidupnya. Adalah kebahagiaan terbesarku, melihat papaku menerima Tuhan sebagai Tuhan dan Juruselamatnya pribadi. Dia telah Kristen sepanjang 54 tahun hidupnya, tapi tanyalah kepadanya, apakah ada perubahan besar di dalam kehidupan rohaninya? Dan aku yakin, dia akan menjawab 'ADA'.

Mamaku, dengan sakit penyakitnya mendadak secara ajaib, hilang, berhenti, dokter telah mengkonfirmasikannya. Dia sehat tanpa kekurangan suatu apapun. Dia telah menjadi wanita yang tegar, ibu yang sempurna di mata anak2nya, istri yang istimewa bagi suaminya. Tuhan angkat sakit penyakitnya dan beban2nya. Dia punya hati yang penuh kasih, freely get, freely give. Dia benar2 mampu mensupport papaku, dan adik2ku. Hubungan rumah tangga yang tadinya nyaris putus, Tuhan pulihkan bahkan saat ini, aku bisa kembali boasting, bahwa tidak ada apapun juga yang mampu memisahkan kedua orangtuaku, kecuali kematian. God hates divorce (Malachi 2:16).

Aku, ditengah2 kebutuhanku akan dana utk memperpanjang sisa hidupku di Jerman, (5.5 juta per bulan). Tuhan terus sentuh hati bosku, untuk selalu teringat akan diriku saat dia punya kerjaan, aku menjadi kesayangannya, padahal bahasa Jermanku berantakan. Aku tahu ini semata2 karena Tuhan. Juga soal thesisku, Tuhan beri aku seorang pembimbing yang mengerti keadaanku, dia mengijinkanku bekerja 2 hari seminggu dan sangat membantu dalam kelancaran studiku. Soal thesis, meskipun jauh di dasar hatiku, Tuhan telah belokkan hatiku, aku mampu menulis sesuatu untuk Tuhan berjam2, bahkan seharian penuh, hingga kuota internetku nyaris habis padahal masih tengah bulan, tapi tetap Tuhan masih memberikanku hikmat yang sangat luar biasa, meskipun waktuku banyak habis untuk menulis buat Tuhan sementara teman2ku selalu berkutat di universitas dari pagi sampai malam 5 hari seminggu. Sedangkan aku, harus bekerja, menulis untuk Tuhan, baruan thesis (thesis adalah prioritas terakhirku). Tapi Tuhan benar2 excel aku, aku mampu mengejar ketertinggalananku dan somehow, aku selalu menyelesaikan tanggungjawabku tepat pada waktunya. Aku tahu ini karena Tuhan.

Cindy, dia mulai terbiasa dengan pekerjaannya, yang tadinya super duper sibuk, sekarang dia mampu mengatasinya. Dan aku yakin dia bakalan mampu untuk berprestasi di kerjaannya.

Jeffry, dia hingga saat ini masih mencari2 Tuhan, masih sering mengeluh kalau doa2nya tidak pernah dijawab, baca Alkitab tidak mengerti, persekutuan tidak ada pertumbuhan iman sama sekali. Tapi aku tahu bahwa Tuhan ada rencana yang luar biasa atas hidupnya.

Adrian, aku benar2 ingin boasting tentang adik terkecilku ini. Dia punya nilai report 9 biji merah dan nyaris tidak naik kelas (95%). Gurunya telah memanggil dan memperingati orangtuaku. Tapi saat ini aku mau bilang, hasil bagi report kemarin, Dia sama sekali tidak ada merah dan naik kelas tanpa hasil belas kasihan gurunya, dia benar2 mendapatkannya secara murni. Praise God. I know He answered my prayers. He is awesome God. Hari ini (20 Juni) adalah hari ulang tahunnya dan dia mendapatkan kado yang sangat indah dari Tuhan, kado yang setara dengan 1 tahun studinya, kado yang akan dia ingat seumur hidupnya.

Rumah kami, sampai saat ini rumah kami telah dikosongkan dan diserahkan ke bank, masih belum ada yang mengisi. Aku punya iman, bahwa rumah itu akan kembali ke keluarga kami atau bahkan kami akan mendapatkan rumah yang lebih baik. Saat ini kami telah pindah ke rumah kontrakan, persis di depan rumah, dan disaat harga sewa sangat tinggi, rata2 14 juta, kami hanya membayar 5 juta. Praise God. Imagine, letaknya persis di depan rumah lama kami. Kami tidak kesulitan untuk pindahan. Kami seperti kumpulan pemain drama, hidup ini benar2 lucu dan menarik, penuh kejutan, bahkan kadang aku geleng2 kepala. Tuhan itu lucu ya, Dia keren, bisa2nya Dia hubung2kan satu sama lainnya menjadi sebuah gambaran, lukisan yang sangat indah, dengan judul:

KARYA TERBESAR TUHAN DI KELUARGAKU

Mickey, anjing kami, karena pemilik rumah kontrakan kami seorang muslim taat, dia tidak mengijinkan ada anjing ikut, dan kami tidak rela berpisah denganku. Tapi gara2 pindah tepat seberang rumah dan rumah lama kami masih belum ada penghuninya, Mickey kami taruh disana dan masih terus berada bersama2 kami.

Masalah Papa, pertama soal dana pensiunnya, setelah terancam tidak mendapatkan apa2 setelah 32 tahun bekerja, karena diberhentikan tidak hormat. Tapi Tuhan berkehendak lain, Dia sentuh hati orang2 yang mengurusinya dan aku yakin dia akan mendapatkannya. Saat ini masalahnya telah diproses dan menunggu finalisasi saja. Tanggal 17 Juni kemarin adalah ultah Papaku, dia pergi mengurusi masalah ini dan finalisasinya akan berlangsung 5 hari ke depan. Tapi, sekali lagi, aku percaya, ini pun akan menjadi hadiah ultah papa dari Tuhan, papa akan mendapatkan dana pensiunnya. Have faith, my father.

Sedangkan masalah terbesarnya, masalah banknya, aku yakin Tuhan telah mengadakan kegundahan di hati pemimpin pusatnya dan penyelidik2nya. Kasus yang tadinya telah lama beku, pelan2 mulai kembali dibuka. Saat ini telah ada penyelidikan dimulai dari pekerja2 golongan paling bawah, satu persatu diselidiki keterlibatannya, satu persatu diproses. Keadilan tidak akan pernah bisa disembunyikan, suatu saat dia pasti akan berbicara lantang. Kepolisian pun telah mulai ikut terlibat. That's good. Kami tidak takut kepada hukum, tapi kamu bersyukur karena dari penyelidikan2 inilah, kebenaran akan terungkap. Aku yakin, Tuhan akan menjawab doaku, doa teraneh dan tersulit yang pernah aku minta. Aku tidak minta lulus ujian, aku tidak minta diterima di jerman, aku tidak minta diterima kerja, tapi aku minta agar masalah keluargaku diselesaikan. Aku meminta doa yang sangat sulit kepada Tuhan karena aku tahu, Dia adalah Tuhan yang luar biasa, Tuhan yang bagiNya tidak ada yang mustahil. I believe in Him so much. Jika tidak meminta kepada Yesus, kepada siapakah aku harus berdoa?

My friends, wait and see, aku akan sekali lagi menyaksikan tentang anugerah Tuhan di keluargaku (Part III) dalam waktu dekat ini. Aku yakin, Dia telah berperkara untuk keluargaku dan kami telah memenangkan pertarungan dengan si iblis. Jika Tuhan beserta dengan kita, siapakah lawan kita? TIDAK ADA.

Aku melihat bahwa Tuhan masih terus bekerja di keluargaku, dan sekali lagi, aku tidak akan menyaksikan tentang Tuhan setelah semuanya terbukti, tapi aku ingin menyaksikan tentangNya melalui imanku. Sebelum semuanya beres, aku akan telah memberitakanNya, supaya kalian2 yang masih meragukan tentang Tuhan, atau kalian yang merasa doa2nya tidak pernah dijawab tertantang oleh imanku, tertantang untuk kenal siapa Tuhanku, Siapakah Tuhan yang begitu dasyat? Siapakah Tuhan yang mampu melakukan perbuatan2 ajaib itu?

Dan dengan lantang aku akan menjawab, 'Dia adalah Tuhan Yesus, Tuhan yang aku sembah, Tuhan yang tidak pernah tertidur, Tuhan yang hidup, Tuhan yang menjawab doa2ku 100%, Tuhan yang selalu memberikan kekuatan kepada anak2Nya yang sedang lemah, membutuhkan pertolongan.

JESUS IS MY GOD, MY SAVIOUR, MY LOVE, MY FRIEND, MY EVERTHING

Atheist Oooh Atheist

I have a story about philosophers of this age, learned people, wise men of the world. All of them held an panel discussion to proof that there is no God. The presenter was a young man, brilliant, super duper genius, he knows all things, big bang theory, evolution theory, einstein's relativity theory, quantum mechanic, etc. He used 2 hours to talk and talk, he tried to proof with mathematic, formulas, logics, all the things he has. People were amazed with his quality and start to believe in his theory that there is no God.

Then after 2 hour talking, he proudly challenge his audiences to ask him everything about his theory. The hall was in silence, until the old nanny raised up and began to speak, 'Young man, honestly, I can't understand all the equations you used to describe there is no such god in this world. If you used 2 hours to proof there is no god, allow me for 5 minutes to proof about God is exist.' Then she began to give her testimony about God, how He changed her life, help her, encourage her, take care of her, give her assurance, etc.

The young man started to confront her, 'Old nanny, maybe you still live far beyond our times, you still believe in something that never exist. You see now, the technology is so advanced. If at your time, influenza virus can't be cured, now we just need to go to supermarket. And during your time, no such shuttle space exist, people would think that God was in the highest sky. But, what do you see? Now we have go and back many times to the outer space and find nothing about God. Where is He? I can't feel Him? Nanny, you are too old fashion. You need to adapt with new research and technology.' Then all the audiences applauses to his comment, they are agree with this young man.

This old nanny is really a tough one, and reply, 'Ok, within 5 minutes, I have talked to you about what God has done to me, what great change in my life, what love I received from him, now it is your turn, tell me, what your atheist has done to you?'

Psalms 14:1

The fool has said in his heart, There is no God. They are corrupt, they have done abominable works, there is none that does good.

Bible said that atheist is such a fool. My friends, judge by yourself. Are you a fool or are you are wise in God's eyes?

Peace I leave with you

• If you see the people around the globe right now, even when you see your own situation, you will find that people in the world are suffering. This kind of situation never happened before. Yes, there were famines since long time ago, but that only happened in some part of the world.
• If you heard rumor about wars, Yes, there were many wars before, but we never experienced nuclear wars, atomic ages like now.
• If you heard about monetary crisis, Yes I happened in Asia during 1997 with its Bubble economy, but it never happened like now in around the world.
• The life is getting tougher and tougher. Housing mortgage, unemployment, soaring food price, clean water crisis in all countries. Where can we find our peace?

Global warming, global famine, global natural disasters, global energy crisis, global economy crisis, global war threat, global climate change. It is all about global, it is all about this world going to an end.

Not only that, right now, people are so selfish, they only think about themselves, they want to enjoy themselves. No more love toward one another, the rich men getting richer and richer, but in another part of the countries, even around us, many can't afford just to eat once a day. People begin to curse God and said, 'God, you said you are creator of this universe, you said you love your creation, you said you care about people's life. But why you give disaster to Chinese, give famine to African, give tsunami to Indonesian, give economy crisis to Zimbabwe, give civil unrest in many countries, give war threat in Middle East. Where are you God? Are you sleeping? You are crazy-respect God, you are no more God. I don't believe in you. I believe in myself, I am god. We want peace, we want love. Because you can't provide it, I will depend on myself to create my own future, the better future.'

My dear friends, if you think like that..I would be very agree with you that your god is dead, your god is sleeping, your god is crazy-respect god. You are worshipping the wrong god.

Let me tell you about my God, God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. The living God, the God that is described clearly in Holy Bible, God of heaven and earth.

Since the beginning of the world, because of sin, God want to destroy the world, but because He saw there still a righteous man, named Noah. God relent, He did destroy the earth but saved Noah and his family and the animals, so that they can start anew, refresh. But still, after Noah's time, the world become more and more wicked.

• If during that time, just adultery and homosex, but now, they have sex with animal, with dildo, with robot, with cyber partner.
• If during that time people said that sex was taboo. Right now, they can even make love in the catedral. What will it be in the next 5 years? Maybe they will lay naked in the street.

http://edition.cnn.com/2008/WORLD/europe/06/04/cathedral.sex/

• If that time people who did incest was stoned. Right now, there is a father who did incest with his eldest daughter, give him 7 children.

http://edition.cnn.com/2008/WORLD/europe/05/01/austria.inquest/index.html

• If that time people people did kissing in the secret. Right now they show it in the train, in the park, in the public area.
• If that time people honored virginity. Right now the girl about 16 years old already uncomfortable if she still virgin.
• If that time the people dressed in noble manner. Right now, they just wear underwear or short pants walking along the streets.
• If that time man and woman who were unmarried can't live under the same roof, now they are together, nobody know what they do in the secret, but God's eyes are everywhere.
• If that time adultery and immorality received death penalty, now there are many poligamy, poliandry, sin partners, phedophile.
• If that time people who lied were condemned, but now people differenciate between lies and white lies.

What's going on with this world?

Think about God, my friends? We just lived for 70 -90 years at most, we already seen the world is getting crazy. How about God? He see this from the beginning, He see the man from without impurity until without purity, what do you think about his feeling when he saw His own creation, His own image behaving like that?

If I was God, I will destroy all the world immediately. And fortunately, I wasn't God, otherwise, I will throw all the people to hell. God is still patient with us. He still knocking at your heart's door, one by one, don't want you to perish. He wants us to come to the knowledge of the Truth.

My God then fixed the time in the future, that someday, he will surely bring this world to an end. And just like Noah's time, where He took first his beloved ones to the safest place and then He destroy the world, some day in the future, He would also take His children up (rapture) before He destroy everything and start anew. New heaven and new earth.

My God never promised about the world going better and better, He even told otherwise. But if you saw Christians still can rejoice and praise the Lord even in this kind of situation or when they have terrible situation. Would you know their secret? Their secret is this: They have peace of God in their life. Jesus leave His disciples promise, peace.

John 14:27

I am leaving peace with you. I am giving you my own peace. I am not giving it to you as the world gives. So do not let your hearts be troubled, and do not let them be afraid

What promise or peace is that? It is personal between Jesus and his disciples, the ones who believe in Him, who have faith in Him. The promise is this: He guarantee us, his disciples to have mansion in heaven, our name written there. The moment that the world going to an end, the moment we rejoice, since we know that He will come again and will welcome us into His presence. What a blessed assurance. No matter what the world offered to us. Global everything, we care less, we see the better future in Him, heaven open to receive us.

John 14:1-4

Do not let your hearts be troubled. Believe in God, believe also in me. There are many rooms in my Father's house. If there were not, would I have told you that I am going away to prepare a place for you? And if I am going away to prepare a place for you, I will come again and will welcome you into my presence, so that you may be where I am. You know where I am going, and you know the way.”

The more we see pain in this world, the more we long to be in heaven. We got assurance from our God, 100% sure. That before He would destroy the world, He would take His Children first so we will not experience the Wrath of God, the Hellfire, Armageddon War, The Final Judgment of the Lord.

If you want to know the Bible prophecy about the end times, the last chance for the people around the world to repent before he destroys everything..read this, my friends.

Matthew 24:7-14

For nation will rise up in arms against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. But all these things are only the beginning of the birth pains.”Then they will hand you over to suffering and will kill you, and you will be hated by all the nations because of my name. Then many people will fall by the way and will betray one another and hate one another. Many false prophets will appear and deceive many people, and because lawlessness will increase, the love of many people will grow cold. But the person who endures to the end will be saved. And this gospel of the kingdom will be proclaimed throughout the world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come.

My friends who are not yet believe in Jesus, the Bible was written almost 2000 years ago, but now we see how one by one the prophecies in it is being fulfilled.

• wars
• famines
• earthquakes
• christian persecution
• people betray one another and hate one another
• many false prophets appear and deceived many people
• lawlessness will increase
• love of many people will grow cold
• the Gospel will be proclaimed throughout the world. Do you know that Gospel now spread greatly in China, Rusia, India, Japan and even Iran and Pakistan.

Would you believe in my God, so we can share inheritance in heaven, my beloved friends? Invite Jesus as your personal Savior, just called on his name, tell Him all about your sins, ask for his forgiveness. And ask him to give you a new mind, a new spiritual body, the body filled with his Holy Spirit. Invite Jesus right now before it is too late for you. When the rapture took place, you will be left in this world, and feel the Wrath of God, the Final Judgment of the Lord. You don't deserve to be left behind, my friends. Jesus is our Saviour.

This is not magic, you will not feel anything change in the twinkling of an eye, but gradually, you will begin to have great desire to know more about Jesus, about God, about the way of salvation, about the insurance of our heaven.

Read the Bible, pray continually, have fellowship with other believers

Jesus loves you

I do love you

Are you parent already? If you are a parent with little child, you would know what I am trying to pass to you. Right now, I am unmarried, I never know how it feel to be a parent. But I am the firstborn child in my family with 3 younger sister and brothers.

As parents, you would like to see your children happy, well cared, you like to see the smile in their eyes, right? You would do anything to always see their smile even by sacrificing yourself. I begin to remember about my mother again. When I was young, I was so selfish, I never thought about others, just myself. Once, when I had dinner with my mother and siblings, we ate fish, really delicious fish, cooked by my mother. She looked her children, she knew that we liked it so much. Then, suddenly she divided her fish for 4 of us, and she just ate the head of the fish. Then, I laughed at her and asked, 'Mom, why you looked like a cat, you like to eat fish's head?'

Also as big brother in the family, I care so much about my siblings. One day, I saw them enjoy drinking some kind of syrup (if you are indonesian, you will know what I mean, it just put some ice, and water and some coloring and flavor). I knew from my teacher that is not healthy. Then, no matter how my siblings enjoying it, I took it and threw it to the street. They cried and at home they told about my behaviour to my mother, and my mother was angry with me, why I made my siblings crying.

Do you understand what I tried to pass with those 2 messages?

Sometime people can't see the love that other people have. As I laughed to my mother who just ate fish's head. I never knew until I am mature enough about her love for me. And as my younger siblings never knew about my love to them until they are reach some level of understanding.

I am not trying to justify myself here. Not at all. But I want you to understand why I did this. I gain nothing by doing it, even I losing many things, I lost my time, I lost my friends, I lost my appetite, I can't sleep and even more, people cursed me, yelled at me, think I am hypocrite, liar, self-righteous, and some of them maybe want to kill me because I confronted them so much.

What profit I do get from you? Tell me! Am I asking you something in exchange? I am sorry if my articles seemed to condemn or judge you. But I never did it with my own judgment. Bible is the one who judge you. As the person who are privilege to know God first, I try to pass it to you. Freely get, freely give. Maybe some of you not mature enough in the Lord, you can't see the danger of joking with God, playing around with your eternity. But I know, that beside God is Love, He also Just. I will throw you to hell, if you never received Jesus in your life. And if you had received Jesus, it doesn't necessarily mean that your heaven is sure.

Just once in your lifetime invite Jesus to your life, no regeneration, no differences with others, still under law of flesh, not live a holy life, but you already believed that heaven is for you, you will regret it someday in the future, when Jesus said,

Matthew 7:21-24
Not everyone who keeps saying to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will get into the kingdom of heaven, but only the person who keeps doing the will of my Father in heaven. Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, we prophesied in your name, drove out demons in your name, and performed many miracles in your name, didn't we?’ Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Get away from me, you evildoers!’

Maybe you can't understand me, but as I took the syrup from my siblings and threw it away. I do also confront you with your sinful life, your wrongdoing, your shameless attitude. No matter how you talk bad about me, think that I am hypocrite, mad man, liar, without love, false teacher, I accepted it. You can come to me and slap my right cheek, I will give you the second chance to slap my left cheek. But please, do not joke with your eternity. If you found I accuse you wrong, or teach you something not written in the Bible, I do ask your apology and If you can't accept it, I will come to you and kneel down before you, begging your mercy. But once again, please think about what I tried to pass to you.

Thank you. God bless you

alvin

My Reason for Posting many Hard Articles

To all my Christian and Catholic friends...

I am really sure that some of you now have hatred toward me because of the way I am confronting you with something you believe. No matter how I try to justify myself in front of you right now, I would look like a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.

I really care less about what other people think about me. But, please to the one who think that I have the Word but lack of love, let me for the very first time, give my reason to you why I did it.

First of all, I did it intentionally. I confronted people with their wrongdoing, their sinful life, their shameful attitude, I condemned their sins, their acts, their behaviour. You will think that I am too harsh and most of you would think that I have no love in my messages. You are welcome to say like that.

If you read my articles, you will see the differences between me and other preacher who also used MP to spread the Gospel. If most of them talk about Love of God, Blessing of God, everybody would like it. Many big churches, famous pastors sometimes commercialize it, they make books, CDs, etc. They gain wealth from it because people in the world like it. But I chose unpopular side by talking about Justice of God. God who spared not the ancient world during Noah's time, God who spared not Sodom and Gomorrah, God who spared not his angels who sinned, God who spared not Israel, his chosen nation, and God who even spared not his only begotten Son, Jesus Christ. You should familiar with these words 'Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani?'

I want you to know the side of Jesus you don't want to see. His Justice. I would preach to everybody like there would be no tomorrow, like I would never see them again. In the next 5 minutes, anything could happen, God can call anybody all the time, or rapture can take place anytime. This is my love, this is my intention that hardly can be seen by you. I don't want you to miss your heaven. I don't want you to believe that you are already get your heaven, which in fact, that's just your imaginary heaven, heaven that never exist. I want you to think seriously about your eternity. I want you not to joke with God.

I will do anything to do that, if I have to confront you with the Bible, I will do it, if I have to tell your mistakes against the Bible, I will do it. Especially in this MP, people could easily read and go, never read anymore. I always think how the best way that within that short time, I would be able to make them tremble and ask God...'God, is this mad man, Alvin, telling the truth or he just another false teacher, another drug seller in the station who want to advertise himself using God's Word.'

The reason I used harsh words is because I believe so much in teamwork. I never tried to winning soul to Christ for myself, I care less about crown in heaven. I really don't care about who will harvest the soul, I just care about God's business, to bring soul to heaven. I want to be involved in making angels in heaven rejoice, hold a party for every soul come to heaven.

I would say right now, I look like a sower, who sow the seeds, some of them were eaten by birds (they read my messages but get nothing, even pissed off, they even remove me from their contact), some of them fell on rocky places, some of the fell on thorns. They are agree with me for some time but then leave. And some of them fell on good soil. My message start to quickening in their heart, they become uncomfortable about their sinful life and start looking for answer.

I really believe in teamwork in God's field. Some people make the soil ready, other sow the seeds, water them, and harvest them. But God is the one who makes the seeds grow. Right now, because of my limitance, I can't be with you to show myself, who am I. I am the one who can only say such a word but not able to do that. I do what I preach. God also put burden in my heart about my country, Indonesia. I really want them to know the truth about Christ. Right now, I am looking partners who have the same burden to share our burden one another, to pray for our country until God's hands come down greatly in Indonesia. Indonesia with its situation right now, need touch of God. There is no other way to help our people, our nation, except by God's power.

The method I used seem peculiar too. But it is also wisdom from God. I learned from Apostle Paul. He used hard teaching, but also he showed love in it. You can easily see his love since he already finished his race and you have seen the effect from his life. But, how about me? Can't you see love in my life? Don't answer it, it is just retorical question.

Do you know why in some cases, he wrote two letters for the same people/person, e.g: Corinthians, Thessalonians, Timothy. If you read through all the first letters, he gave so much instruction, warning, rebuking, correction, etc. His letters are really hard teaching.

Then, after quite some time (you would not think that he send 2 letters at the same time right?) he sent the second letter to build up the faith of the church there. It can be seen here after his first letter full of correction and warning, he wrote in the second letter like this...

2 Corinthians 7:9-10
Now I rejoice, not that you were made sorry, but that you sorrowed to repentance: for you were made sorry after a godly manner, that you might receive damage by us in nothing. For godly sorrow works repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world works death.

I do believe in teamwork and I do believe in godly sorrow works repentance to salvation.